and another note.. i'm unsure if i'm in some way being a bad person by feeling offput so easily by certain things, easily getting jealous, extremely easily feeling left out, one small thing can make me really uncomfortable due to past stuff i've gone through, so it leaves me confused, bleh!! (2/2)

and everyone else is just the main friend group, or party group, and im just there, always in the background of every group, not fully involved with them, and i just feel like if i went away and wasnt here that nothing would change for everyone, i feel like i dont exist at all or matter (2/2)

i just odnt feel welcome anywhere and just seeing people i feel off aobut interact with eachother makes me feel off so its making me question if it really would matter if i just vanished from the internet

but hopefully i can eventually get through it, im unsure, many many things of which some i dont even dare say here, but ill be fine mayhaps, maybe, potentially, perhams, ham, ham, yum yum, i dont know what im typing anymore sue me LOL
thankyou for your insightful words of wisdom🔥🔥🔥🔥(3/3)