Fana O.
@itsjustfaiz.bsky.social
Very demotivated yesterday. Has so many negative thoughts. Useless piece of shit is what I am. I hate myself so much. Thoughts of being seen as a useless good-for-nothing asshole keep crossing my mind… If only people knew that I’m trying… but if people can’t see it, then it’s nothing
January 18, 2026 at 11:39 PM
Very demotivated yesterday. Has so many negative thoughts. Useless piece of shit is what I am. I hate myself so much. Thoughts of being seen as a useless good-for-nothing asshole keep crossing my mind… If only people knew that I’m trying… but if people can’t see it, then it’s nothing
I feel awful today for sleeping. My wife ended up getting things done and being a good example while I just slept most of the time… I know I should stop blaming the current situation for my lack of energy and time and all but…I can’t help it… haih…
January 17, 2026 at 9:39 PM
I feel awful today for sleeping. My wife ended up getting things done and being a good example while I just slept most of the time… I know I should stop blaming the current situation for my lack of energy and time and all but…I can’t help it… haih…
How ignorant could I have been…Didn’t even see the signs or take a moment to look around to notice something was wrong. I fucked up big time and the only thing I can do is change or improve
January 16, 2026 at 7:59 PM
How ignorant could I have been…Didn’t even see the signs or take a moment to look around to notice something was wrong. I fucked up big time and the only thing I can do is change or improve
Since maybe around 3/4am, I felt rather sad that my ‘weekend’ is almost over and I didn’t want to sleep because I felt like I had to make the most out of the night. Ended up sleeping on the couch, then on the floor, then finally on the bed around 5+
January 15, 2026 at 2:57 AM
Since maybe around 3/4am, I felt rather sad that my ‘weekend’ is almost over and I didn’t want to sleep because I felt like I had to make the most out of the night. Ended up sleeping on the couch, then on the floor, then finally on the bed around 5+
An old memory suddenly resurfaced. Watching an episode of MHA where there was student who was passionate about music & as someone who was never really allowed to pick up an instrument, I told a friend of mine once when I was 13/14 I think that playing the drums would be pretty cool
January 14, 2026 at 5:26 PM
An old memory suddenly resurfaced. Watching an episode of MHA where there was student who was passionate about music & as someone who was never really allowed to pick up an instrument, I told a friend of mine once when I was 13/14 I think that playing the drums would be pretty cool
Happy-ish but also somewhat clueless as to what I should do to make things better.
Last night, spent a good amount of time with some very nice people. Talked about things that mattered. Wish nights like those never ended. If it had to, I wish we could just sleep immediately, then pick up where we
Last night, spent a good amount of time with some very nice people. Talked about things that mattered. Wish nights like those never ended. If it had to, I wish we could just sleep immediately, then pick up where we
January 14, 2026 at 12:52 PM
Happy-ish but also somewhat clueless as to what I should do to make things better.
Last night, spent a good amount of time with some very nice people. Talked about things that mattered. Wish nights like those never ended. If it had to, I wish we could just sleep immediately, then pick up where we
Last night, spent a good amount of time with some very nice people. Talked about things that mattered. Wish nights like those never ended. If it had to, I wish we could just sleep immediately, then pick up where we
Today : Frustrated. My brother really needs to learn how to function individually. He goes AWOL since New Year’s Eve, comes back all of a sudden out of the blue and expects everything to go back to normal. Maybe a move is needed but after the talk today…I’m iffy but maybe it needs to be done
January 12, 2026 at 9:16 PM
Today : Frustrated. My brother really needs to learn how to function individually. He goes AWOL since New Year’s Eve, comes back all of a sudden out of the blue and expects everything to go back to normal. Maybe a move is needed but after the talk today…I’m iffy but maybe it needs to be done
Maybe I should use this platform to keep track of my mood:
January 11, 2026 at 11:45 PM
Maybe I should use this platform to keep track of my mood:
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I will not stop reading new books while neglecting to finish the ones I started
January 10, 2026 at 12:01 PM
I will not stop reading new books while neglecting to finish the ones I started
It’s crazy how I was really at the edge just now…one step away… & it’s a lot more than work you know…it’s myself, me being what I am today. Worthless…
December 19, 2025 at 1:20 PM
It’s crazy how I was really at the edge just now…one step away… & it’s a lot more than work you know…it’s myself, me being what I am today. Worthless…
I guess it’s high time I seek professional help
November 20, 2025 at 2:04 PM
I guess it’s high time I seek professional help
I don’t even know what I am anymore
November 20, 2025 at 2:03 PM
I don’t even know what I am anymore
I can’t help but feel like every time I show a bit of myself, people would just start to slowly disengage or talk over me when they don’t know how hard it is for me to speak up in the first place
August 21, 2025 at 3:42 AM
I can’t help but feel like every time I show a bit of myself, people would just start to slowly disengage or talk over me when they don’t know how hard it is for me to speak up in the first place
Snap out of it. Snap out of it. Snap out of it.
August 21, 2025 at 3:36 AM
Snap out of it. Snap out of it. Snap out of it.
I don’t know how to describe it but I completely went blank emotionally all of a sudden and became disoriented without any triggers whatsoever. I don’t know what it means or why I’m like this. But I’m not okay. And I don’t know what okay is really
August 21, 2025 at 3:29 AM
I don’t know how to describe it but I completely went blank emotionally all of a sudden and became disoriented without any triggers whatsoever. I don’t know what it means or why I’m like this. But I’m not okay. And I don’t know what okay is really
Sacrifice sacrifice sacrifice. This life is not yours
July 16, 2025 at 7:08 AM
Sacrifice sacrifice sacrifice. This life is not yours
Got called out for something I said from what feels like almost a month or two ago. Funny how people say one thing to your face as if they’re on your side but say something else behind your back
July 15, 2025 at 4:29 PM
Got called out for something I said from what feels like almost a month or two ago. Funny how people say one thing to your face as if they’re on your side but say something else behind your back
Mentally, I’ve never been more…not okay. Physically, things aren’t great either. But for as long as the body chooses to breathe and I still wake up from my sleep, what I feel or think doesn’t matter
July 15, 2025 at 4:25 PM
Mentally, I’ve never been more…not okay. Physically, things aren’t great either. But for as long as the body chooses to breathe and I still wake up from my sleep, what I feel or think doesn’t matter
Need work to end ABRUPTLY. Can’t go on for another 3 hours man…
April 19, 2025 at 11:38 PM
Need work to end ABRUPTLY. Can’t go on for another 3 hours man…
Gotta find a better way to make a living that doesn’t make me feel any less human than I already feel. I need to give my family, my wife especially, the life they deserve and I need to do it sooner rather than later. My wife works so hard that it eats me up inside when i see her tired and in pain
April 12, 2025 at 11:37 AM
Gotta find a better way to make a living that doesn’t make me feel any less human than I already feel. I need to give my family, my wife especially, the life they deserve and I need to do it sooner rather than later. My wife works so hard that it eats me up inside when i see her tired and in pain
My wife has given me more purpose in life than she’ll ever know. I couldn’t be more grateful to have her in my life
April 9, 2025 at 3:27 AM
My wife has given me more purpose in life than she’ll ever know. I couldn’t be more grateful to have her in my life
Some dreams had to be let go along the way but I hope one day, I can dream again
April 9, 2025 at 3:24 AM
Some dreams had to be let go along the way but I hope one day, I can dream again
Just when I thought I had it in control, Ive suddenly come to realise that I really don’t. I’m weak, a nobody and worthless when I really think about it. I want to be better, I wish I was better but this mental block maybe is still in my way. Im still weak, still a nobody and truly am worthless…
April 7, 2025 at 11:06 PM
Just when I thought I had it in control, Ive suddenly come to realise that I really don’t. I’m weak, a nobody and worthless when I really think about it. I want to be better, I wish I was better but this mental block maybe is still in my way. Im still weak, still a nobody and truly am worthless…
Though I’ve just spent the past couple hours sleeping, I’m grateful I went out with my wife earlier today to not only see a kitten to a vet but we had such a good, eye-opening conversation with such a well-meaning individual. I hope and pray for those working thankless jobs to constantly be blessed
February 4, 2025 at 11:38 AM
Though I’ve just spent the past couple hours sleeping, I’m grateful I went out with my wife earlier today to not only see a kitten to a vet but we had such a good, eye-opening conversation with such a well-meaning individual. I hope and pray for those working thankless jobs to constantly be blessed
Had a very bad night before work. Mentally and emotionally at least. Physically, I feel pretty fatigued most of the time anyway. I hope things will get better somehow because I can tell that what I’m dealing with is taking a toll on the person I care about most and I can’t let this continue…
January 11, 2025 at 10:28 PM
Had a very bad night before work. Mentally and emotionally at least. Physically, I feel pretty fatigued most of the time anyway. I hope things will get better somehow because I can tell that what I’m dealing with is taking a toll on the person I care about most and I can’t let this continue…