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i wanna be worthy of my own expectations and admiration i wanna be able to be proud of myself i hate feeling stuck and hopeless and like there's tons and tons of weight pushing down on me at all times my purpose is to create beautiful and to love and to take care of ppl and i can't do any of that.
January 14, 2026 at 4:12 AM
i wanna be worthy of my own expectations and admiration i wanna be able to be proud of myself i hate feeling stuck and hopeless and like there's tons and tons of weight pushing down on me at all times my purpose is to create beautiful and to love and to take care of ppl and i can't do any of that.
everyday i wake up and go to bed with the same hopeless feeling in my chest
January 13, 2026 at 3:16 AM
everyday i wake up and go to bed with the same hopeless feeling in my chest
i don't think I'll ever get the hang of this human thing
January 4, 2026 at 2:42 AM
i don't think I'll ever get the hang of this human thing
i feel so completely empty and hollow but also like im a suitcase that's stuffed way too full and i could burst at the seams at any moment and also so extremely annoying and unlikeable and a burden and a failure and-
December 31, 2025 at 3:09 AM
i feel so completely empty and hollow but also like im a suitcase that's stuffed way too full and i could burst at the seams at any moment and also so extremely annoying and unlikeable and a burden and a failure and-
if im so blessed and lucky then why am i never happy.
December 23, 2025 at 2:17 AM
if im so blessed and lucky then why am i never happy.
i hate the adult that they made me. i hate how early it all started. i hate and im tired and i know it'll never stop.
December 23, 2025 at 2:16 AM
i hate the adult that they made me. i hate how early it all started. i hate and im tired and i know it'll never stop.
i need a cigarette.
December 11, 2025 at 5:33 AM
i need a cigarette.
realizing that i have idealized plans for my life but not really dreams and i think this is why my achievements don't really feel like achievements but rather things I've done because i had to because i started them so i may as well finish them and +
December 11, 2025 at 5:32 AM
realizing that i have idealized plans for my life but not really dreams and i think this is why my achievements don't really feel like achievements but rather things I've done because i had to because i started them so i may as well finish them and +
went from having the best day ever to my regular feeling of not exiting at all.
December 8, 2025 at 7:43 PM
went from having the best day ever to my regular feeling of not exiting at all.
i feel annoying today
December 8, 2025 at 4:27 PM
i feel annoying today
i miss and i feel and i fear and i worry and maybe i don't belong anywhere at all because pieces of my heart are scattered around the earth and I'll never feel at home anywhere because everyone who feels like a piece of home isn't ever close by and home feels foreign and away feels empty so what now
December 8, 2025 at 5:12 AM
i miss and i feel and i fear and i worry and maybe i don't belong anywhere at all because pieces of my heart are scattered around the earth and I'll never feel at home anywhere because everyone who feels like a piece of home isn't ever close by and home feels foreign and away feels empty so what now
genuinely what keeps promoting these nightmares and why was it paired with the magic people trying to kill me ones this time.
if I had a nickel for every time I woke up with a start from a nightmare where I was almost s*x tr*fficed and/or auctioned off to an old man because of an adult I trusted betraying me id now have three nickels. idk why this keeps happening I don't watch media like that and nothing has happened to me
December 6, 2025 at 3:48 PM
genuinely what keeps promoting these nightmares and why was it paired with the magic people trying to kill me ones this time.
i wonder if there'll ever be a day that this doesn't make me feel seen
November 21, 2025 at 7:25 PM
i wonder if there'll ever be a day that this doesn't make me feel seen
everything is just so shit all the time i feel like it'll never get better.
November 17, 2025 at 9:48 PM
everything is just so shit all the time i feel like it'll never get better.
i feel so stupid for wishing my friends would reach out to hang out since it's my last week here knowing damn well i won't have fun because i can tell they don't really wanna be around me and I'll probably see them hanging out more while im gone cause they won't have to pretend they haven't been
November 17, 2025 at 9:48 PM
i feel so stupid for wishing my friends would reach out to hang out since it's my last week here knowing damn well i won't have fun because i can tell they don't really wanna be around me and I'll probably see them hanging out more while im gone cause they won't have to pretend they haven't been
suffocating again.
November 17, 2025 at 9:44 PM
suffocating again.
i often wonder if my 45 year old self is looking back at 22 year old me and shaking their head because i have no idea how much good is ahead of me and im being silly and losing hope or if they're looking back and shaking their head because im being hopeful and i have no idea how bad it'll get.
November 15, 2025 at 7:00 PM
i often wonder if my 45 year old self is looking back at 22 year old me and shaking their head because i have no idea how much good is ahead of me and im being silly and losing hope or if they're looking back and shaking their head because im being hopeful and i have no idea how bad it'll get.
me telling my mom that the only thing making me feel better is I'll be close to my best friend again and her saying i can't take days off to go see her and basically confirming my fear that I'll be trapped in that fucking house like ohhhh ok I'll just kms then sorry for tryna find joy in this shit.
November 9, 2025 at 6:49 PM
me telling my mom that the only thing making me feel better is I'll be close to my best friend again and her saying i can't take days off to go see her and basically confirming my fear that I'll be trapped in that fucking house like ohhhh ok I'll just kms then sorry for tryna find joy in this shit.
everything is awful and i feel like shit and annoying for feeling like shit.
November 9, 2025 at 6:47 PM
everything is awful and i feel like shit and annoying for feeling like shit.
are they still intrusive thoughts of they're all u can think about even tho they're like... shocking and out of nowhere and bad like they're still in that category they're just louder than all your distractions like what do you call it then?
November 6, 2025 at 1:11 PM
are they still intrusive thoughts of they're all u can think about even tho they're like... shocking and out of nowhere and bad like they're still in that category they're just louder than all your distractions like what do you call it then?
i don't even wanna go on the trip anymore I'd rather be alone then living there but i don't have anywhere to live here by that time so what's even the point lmao.
October 31, 2025 at 4:26 PM
i don't even wanna go on the trip anymore I'd rather be alone then living there but i don't have anywhere to live here by that time so what's even the point lmao.
it's so over I'm so unhireable my dreams are stupid im gonna amount to nothing I did all this for nothing there's no point in trying anymore NOTHING bears fruit i have always just been getting buy everyone expects more than i can deliver i should just curl up and quit exist quit trying just quit.
October 31, 2025 at 4:23 PM
it's so over I'm so unhireable my dreams are stupid im gonna amount to nothing I did all this for nothing there's no point in trying anymore NOTHING bears fruit i have always just been getting buy everyone expects more than i can deliver i should just curl up and quit exist quit trying just quit.
i think what's bugging me the most is not that she's never once heard me when I've tried to explain why I don't want to go back but that she's talking to people about me as if I'm definitely going back already. telling me I can think about it but speaking like the decision has been made already.
October 26, 2025 at 4:10 AM
i think what's bugging me the most is not that she's never once heard me when I've tried to explain why I don't want to go back but that she's talking to people about me as if I'm definitely going back already. telling me I can think about it but speaking like the decision has been made already.
