at some point the paranoia and empathy article will come out, maybe. because it is at that point and it is… traumatic even as a bystander.

the big change seems to be that the biosimilar still has the ingredient that makes the medication extremely painful to inject which is making me super mad. And the inclusion of plastic thing over the entire glass syringe, so about 3x as much waste. this sucks.

(and even when it doesn't lash out in all directions, there is a fear that it might)

the other side is the loss of the original perpetrator in a world of denial of gravity (not the event). It means that everything then becomes a threat of the next wave and so the violence lashes out in all directions maybe? I'm spitballing? is that what this is called?

that is exactly it. the goal is to erase the ability to speak up about what happened to Them. As long as there is someone left who can remind people it can't be real, because they lived. and then we have to contend with a diminished population not having a loud enough voice of memory/language loss.

I think my commitment to the concept of bare life/homo sacer is showing though.

maybe. I think the part that catches me is it is false denial because there is a celebration of the people who deserve it being killed, especially en masse. So maybe I am just reacting to the word denial because it feels more like minimizing the importantce and/or a denial of the humanity of others.

I'm not sure that I think there is a denial as denial. I think there is a denial in the thing being the thing because manifest destiny? so even if it is, it's all G-ds plan? I feel the same way about the idea of nuclear annihilation being okay because armageddon & rapture etc. it's all the Big Plan.

I am very happy with the decision I made and am feeling supported and seen in a way that I haven't for a long while. I hope that your courses are fantastic this semester even with the catalog mess <3

booooooo! I wish it were more together.

lol. the part of me that loves tie-dye is having a ball.

ravelry <3 though I’ve changed the color scheme because I am using stash yarns: www.ravelry.com/patterns/lib...

other things: listening to the music I want to listen to at the volume I want to. control over the lights. television/exercise at lunch and a shower. lunch isn't predetermined because I have my food. there is a dog. my own private toilet. no sick people.

I made it through all my meetings without falling asleep.

I've not been able to bring myself to knit anything since completing the scarf so I think I may make a tiny shawl with the same lacey pattern...

I think for #1 we need to be able to allow for our own weakness? the endless demand for strength, pushing, etc makes that something we cannot acknowledge. It's the reason I am so angry at the shift to talking about traumatic growth. We shouldn't have to be traumatized to realize it's too much/grow.