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My eyes burn deep when I open them.
November 4, 2025 at 3:50 AM
My eyes burn deep when I open them.
And I'm still at 0. Waking up I tell myself I'll start again and I just keep doing it. I can't stop. I can't stop no matter how badly I want to. I can't.
November 3, 2025 at 10:49 PM
And I'm still at 0. Waking up I tell myself I'll start again and I just keep doing it. I can't stop. I can't stop no matter how badly I want to. I can't.
I thought I could atleast do somewhat well but when I awake to see what the result is, I failed. Completely. Maybe this isn't for me. Maybe I won't ever be able to do well. Why is everything so difficult? Why can't I pass? I feel pathetic.
November 3, 2025 at 12:23 PM
I thought I could atleast do somewhat well but when I awake to see what the result is, I failed. Completely. Maybe this isn't for me. Maybe I won't ever be able to do well. Why is everything so difficult? Why can't I pass? I feel pathetic.
I'm so sorry I relapsed. I couldn't help myself. I thought I was doing well but now I'm back to 0.
November 2, 2025 at 5:00 AM
I'm so sorry I relapsed. I couldn't help myself. I thought I was doing well but now I'm back to 0.
I honestly think about how deep these characters (Noble Team) really go because I feel like people don't give them enough credit since reach shows things mostly through subtlety. Such as like... Kat's hard exterior and bravado or you know, Emile's cynicism more being a coping method.
Emile and Six are the only two to always keep their helmet on, so do you think they'd do head bunting? But like, kinda hard. Probably hard enough to crack a skull or some shit. I feel like they would.
October 31, 2025 at 4:33 AM
I honestly think about how deep these characters (Noble Team) really go because I feel like people don't give them enough credit since reach shows things mostly through subtlety. Such as like... Kat's hard exterior and bravado or you know, Emile's cynicism more being a coping method.
I'm scared, I'm scared, I'm scared, it's like you're gonna kill me, like you're right behind me with a knife but I just don't know when. What do I do? How can I forget you? Please just leave my life. I don't wanna look over my shoulder anymore.
October 30, 2025 at 4:56 AM
I'm scared, I'm scared, I'm scared, it's like you're gonna kill me, like you're right behind me with a knife but I just don't know when. What do I do? How can I forget you? Please just leave my life. I don't wanna look over my shoulder anymore.
There's this idea I've had for a long while where I want to get like a little notebook or something. While I'm walking or going to different places, I'd see memorials or dedications to dead people and write those down in the book, as its posted.
October 29, 2025 at 4:11 AM
There's this idea I've had for a long while where I want to get like a little notebook or something. While I'm walking or going to different places, I'd see memorials or dedications to dead people and write those down in the book, as its posted.
It's a shame the shots of noble team dying are so tragic because they're consistently my favorite shots in the whole game.
October 28, 2025 at 3:16 AM
It's a shame the shots of noble team dying are so tragic because they're consistently my favorite shots in the whole game.
Ok, to be honest, I don't know what crack I was smoking cause Six isn't really edgy. Its just the air that surrounds them. Which is honestly better than whatever Emile has going on.
These two are also really edgy. Like intentionally and not intentionally. Does that make sense? Emile more intentional, Six less intentional, but they're really mirrors of each other. It is also really funny cause it makes Emile look like a nerd, but Six does it more tactfully.
Emile and Six are the only two to always keep their helmet on, so do you think they'd do head bunting? But like, kinda hard. Probably hard enough to crack a skull or some shit. I feel like they would.
October 27, 2025 at 2:08 AM
Ok, to be honest, I don't know what crack I was smoking cause Six isn't really edgy. Its just the air that surrounds them. Which is honestly better than whatever Emile has going on.
These two are also really edgy. Like intentionally and not intentionally. Does that make sense? Emile more intentional, Six less intentional, but they're really mirrors of each other. It is also really funny cause it makes Emile look like a nerd, but Six does it more tactfully.
Emile and Six are the only two to always keep their helmet on, so do you think they'd do head bunting? But like, kinda hard. Probably hard enough to crack a skull or some shit. I feel like they would.
October 26, 2025 at 7:30 AM
These two are also really edgy. Like intentionally and not intentionally. Does that make sense? Emile more intentional, Six less intentional, but they're really mirrors of each other. It is also really funny cause it makes Emile look like a nerd, but Six does it more tactfully.
Emile and Six are the only two to always keep their helmet on, so do you think they'd do head bunting? But like, kinda hard. Probably hard enough to crack a skull or some shit. I feel like they would.
October 25, 2025 at 3:14 AM
Emile and Six are the only two to always keep their helmet on, so do you think they'd do head bunting? But like, kinda hard. Probably hard enough to crack a skull or some shit. I feel like they would.
I really like spending a lot of time looking up songs and various different franchises and shit because I'll find an edit on youtube with <1k views and it'll be amazing.
October 24, 2025 at 8:11 PM
I really like spending a lot of time looking up songs and various different franchises and shit because I'll find an edit on youtube with <1k views and it'll be amazing.
As much as I want to fool myself that I'm okay with how I live the wall isn't strong enough to withstand even a tiny crack, and it crumbles. And instead of building that wall back up different or stronger, I take pieces of the brick to slam into my head while I'm left crying in the dirt.
October 23, 2025 at 4:24 AM
As much as I want to fool myself that I'm okay with how I live the wall isn't strong enough to withstand even a tiny crack, and it crumbles. And instead of building that wall back up different or stronger, I take pieces of the brick to slam into my head while I'm left crying in the dirt.
I am nothing. Not even a person. The most I will get when I'm gone is the inclusion in a statistic.
October 20, 2025 at 5:59 AM
I am nothing. Not even a person. The most I will get when I'm gone is the inclusion in a statistic.
I curse myself so badly for not being better. I wish I just had the luck or the mind to choose what was so much better.
October 16, 2025 at 3:01 AM
I curse myself so badly for not being better. I wish I just had the luck or the mind to choose what was so much better.
Well, I'm thankful you're there. If not you, then no one else would.
October 14, 2025 at 3:13 AM
Well, I'm thankful you're there. If not you, then no one else would.
And I lay here in my bed still myself every night, am I really what I say I am? If I let time pass day after day then what am I? Am I a liar? Am I just pretending? What part of me is what's written on me? What part of me can I really say belongs to where I want it to?
October 13, 2025 at 5:45 AM
And I lay here in my bed still myself every night, am I really what I say I am? If I let time pass day after day then what am I? Am I a liar? Am I just pretending? What part of me is what's written on me? What part of me can I really say belongs to where I want it to?
Another week passes and again I've done nothing.
October 13, 2025 at 5:23 AM
Another week passes and again I've done nothing.
A weight that gives the dullest pain.
October 10, 2025 at 2:52 AM
A weight that gives the dullest pain.
I have the finesse of a hammer.
October 7, 2025 at 5:06 AM
I have the finesse of a hammer.
