I just don't want my parents to feel like I failed them, or that they wasted their time on me.

It just really, really sucks being alone. Being lonely makes all of that feel so much worse. I wish I wasn't a burden on people. Sometimes I wish I was born a neurotypical go-getter that doesn't get severe bouts of depression that make it so I can't progress in life at all.

I'm not going to hurt myself. I care too much about my family and friends to do that. But I'd be lying if I didn't say that I get ideation a lot, and I've been getting it recently. Therapy costs money though. I just don't know what to do.

It doesn't help that I spend so much of my time alone and by myself, and the only person I really have to talk to is my brain, that tells me that I'll never amount to anything, that I'm a financial black hole and that I'd be better off if I just didn't exist to drag other people down.

All the things I search for on social media like Reddit are full of comments saying that nobody's hiring for anything, networking doesn't work, it's only for rich people, it's impossible to get hired anywhere for anything, etc. It's seriously one of the most depressing things I've had to go through.

I've been feeling a general kind of melancholy over my job searches not going well, but it's compounded now with all the bills I have to pay by the end of the month. I'm feeling a strong depression right now that I don't think I've ever felt before, and I don't know what to do.

My emotions are like like a rollercoaster where it's up one day and down the next. Lately though, it's felt like the hills only go up twenty feet and the valleys go down two hundred feet. I hate it too, because I value being able to be there for my friends who are also feeling bad. But I can't now.

Imagine how much those Dem numbers could be pumped up if Schumer resigned

Shit like this is why I tell people that the internet is still widely hostile to women despite advancements made in certain, already more accepting areas.

All of this makes me wish Russel Vought was enough of a toxic figure that Trump would feel compelled to fire him too, routing out a lot of the Heritage Foundation influence on the government. The Mad King would still rule, but if he fired his most insidious viziers, that wouldn't be bad.

They want to believe that they are because their worldview forbids them to be wrong.

Can confirm

It's a kakistocracy through and through. It's like that "they're not even bothering to lie well" quote from Andor except it's more like "they don't even know how to lie well"

It's just gross that truly evil people feel emboldened to be their worst selves because they never face any true repercussions from it, and are often times rewarded for doing so. Shit sucks.

You're right, I forget about the Mythic thing too much. I know that Kirsche is a pick me nazi freak (not surprised she stands by shadman) and I know Nux from how creepy he was to Jaiden. I know Legal Mindset from the Johnny Somali coverage but fuck him if he's one of those sex tourist pedos.

Also I'm pretty sure his non-streamer buddy Cody also has been convicted of domestic abuse as well. He sure surrounds himself with a bunch of winners, huh.

OTK as a whole should be boycotted. Even their streamers that aren't problematic and that I have no problem with like Emiru or Esfand. Asmon is an unprincipled sociopath that only cares about money and viewers, and I feel like good people associating with that freak only gives him legitimacy.

They're really so painfully content with being mediocre

Grummz has to have a humiliation fetish or something, he's a nearly 60 year old, ugly man who's obsessed with talking about jerking it to AI and sees it as based and epic for that to be his defining personality trait

He really thinks this will let him off the hook from prosecution when Woke 2 comes around doesn't he