What do I do now? Who can I be at this point? I don't know, nobody knows. I've searched for it for years and instead made several plans to take my own life...

I just need a will, I want to make sure that my passing could at least help the right people. That I could do one last good thing.

I hate to say that,, I really do. I don't want them to feel like bad friends. But I'm deeply hurting, I can't get closure for the issues that affect me constantly, the uselessness I feel in this society, the lack of ambition because everything I wanted to work towards died along with me.

I wanted to get better, I fought hard to push through it but life kept sending huge blow after huge blow and I'm left just feeling like a shadow of myself. I feel invisible to so many people I want to say are my friends - but they hardly recognize the decay I'm in. It withers away at my trust.

It's really one or the other, and idk what I'll do if it's the bad result xc

THEY TOOK HIM!!

OFC I DO, THERE'S A REALISM/RP SERVER I LOVE PLAYING ON

OMFG I WANT TO OKAY POT WITH YOU!!!!

BEAUTIFUL!!!!!

hehehe thank youuu :3 it's a ton of fun!

Yeah I do! I love Impreza's! I got it super cheap and have spent the last 6~ years on-and-off doing as much DIY as I can (or having friends help) to make her pretty~

Very proud of her, I keep it as good as possible, it's got some really nice parts and it's glued to the ground when driven hard :3

Roundest shark and tiddies ever

Yes it is! Her name is Baby :)

I don't know about 200~ following being a lot, and I have NSFW over on an entirely separate account which has 50% less -- neither of them feel dead

Deactivating was deleting for me