It fucks me up a bit how many of my friends follow them on one or both accounts. It fucks me up a bit how many of them know what they did to me and still do. But that's a me issue; I don't believe anyone's irredeemable so if they've judged my rapist reformed that's not my business.

And I'm not sure I'd ever be able to be with a guy anymore romantically? It's hard to say for sure but I have a difficult time picturing myself doing it. So I guess that leaves being with a guy physically, and I think that's the one thing I'm not sure about ruling out anymore. But I'm leaning a way.

Time or later identified as a woman or more broadly did/does not identify with masculinity. With sex, it's more of the same - the only time I've been with someone who might currently be a guy is that egg I mentioned. Everyone else was out or came out as trans layer

The last time I dated someone who would identify as a man REALLY did not work out. The two times before were drug addicts/a dealer and those relationships were nightmares (and also, the second one might have been an egg tbh). Every other relationship I've been in has been with someone who at the 1/2

I've identified as a bi lesbian for a bit because I've tried not to center men in my life, have dated/had sex with men in the past and enjoyed it, and thought it was possible I'd do it again. But are those last two things actually true?