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@koutavi.bsky.social
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nyc born and raised; you have now been warned
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koutavi.bsky.social
I AM A GODDAMN MILLENNIAL I CAN WRITE MY OWN EMAILS THANK YOU VERY MUCH

google needs to let me turn this shit the fuck off. it is popping up constantly, i have turned off EVERY INSTANCE I CAN FIND of gemini/AI/auto-anything and would nope out if i knew of a client NOT shoving AI down your throat...
a screencap of the popup on gmail showcasing gemini's "help me write" feature, a pencil with a sparkle above it. google declares "draft emails confidently with gemini -- gemini can help you write your drafts in seconds and quickly refine them" NO. VETO. FUCK OFF.
January 18, 2026 at 4:53 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
i'm not hallucinating this part, at least... the link WAS www.youtube.com/live/4FA59cz... not that it's anything now.
screenshot of youtube saying the video is unavailable bc it was removed by the uploader
January 15, 2026 at 1:28 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
post a game you remember playing that nobody else remembers:
a screencap of an early dialogue option in 'wishbone and the amazing odyssey' a point and click adventure game released in 1996
January 14, 2026 at 9:15 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
thank you! ❤️ i thought it was free at first too but then:
a screencap of where the article fades out and it asks you to subscribe to "slate plus" for $5 to keep reading
January 13, 2026 at 2:42 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
he actually said this, along with a lot of other worrying shit. lethality, speed, less guardrails, more money, privatization. anti-woke AI figuring out the most efficient ways to kill. he sounds like a supervillain.

video: www.youtube.com/watch?v=li4M...
transcript: singjupost.com/transcript-p...
Hegseth said his vision for military AI systems means that they operate “without ideological constraints that limit lawful military applications,” before adding that the Pentagon’s “AI will not be woke.”
January 13, 2026 at 1:15 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
gift link from op! absolutely amazing, THIS a fantastic use of AI -- there are so many great applications for non-consumer-facing AI models, it's extra enraging that american tech giants only care about profit.

also lol at the timing of this morning's nytimes blast... no differentiation at all?
People in many other developed democracies — Japan, Israel, Sweden, South Korea — had warm views of social media in a 2022 survey; now respondents in those countries feel more optimistic about A.I. Americans, on the other hand, approach the A.I. revolution skeptically, Persily said. We’re more concerned about this technology than just about anyone else. (me like WHAT WAS THE SURVEY EXACTLY because the push, usage, and impacts of this technology surely varies greatly between these countries, and moreso by INDUSTRY. everything negative discussed was about consumer facing generative AI. idk how prevalent that is elsewhere!)
January 2, 2026 at 4:28 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
hey #dogsofbluesky, enjoy this holiday photoshoot for #adoptable #rescuedog scrappy! he is ~10lbs of snuggles and puppy kisses and happy wiggles, and adores playing with his similarly-sized foster siblings. men and large dogs are scary at first, but he warms up! www.redhookdogrescue.org/applications
an absolutely adorable little black mixed breed dog with grey chin in a fuzzy collared red and white holiday sweater, against a festive red/black/white pawprint and hearts backdrop. he's sitting behind a squeaky dog toy that says "my first christmas" and looking up at the camera with big shining eyes. his ears flop slightly at the tips. scrappy is now tilting his head and licking his nose, as the photographer (me) has a treat for him. this is very exciting. he's being such a good little model! scrappy is now being offered a dog cookie shaped like a christmas tree ornament, that says "my 1st christmas" on it with little pawprints. he's got his mouth open about to take a bite, lip pulled back to show one canine tooth. it is so cute. this dog is so cute. another happy lick shot taken post-cookie; this photo is a little more of a side angle and you can see that scrappy's cozy sweater has little reindeer on it. seriously, he is the cutest lil guy. please adopt this dog before i can't bear to give him up. he's so good.
December 28, 2025 at 8:09 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
goals:
5 kinds of cookies
empanadas
puppy christmas photoshoot

reality:
4 kinds of cookies (my hands couldn't hack the spritz press)
crescent dogs (spine can't handle standing for hours to fry)
"the dogs won't know the difference if i dress them up for presents and snacks tomorrow..."
mint double chocolate cookies: chopped andes mints in a dark chocolate cookie base, topped with white and red "candy cane" hershey's kisses. some have it pressed in blossom style, others are sprinkled with the chopped pieces. ginger molasses cookies, with signature crackle tops. i rolled them in a mix of cinnamon sugar and red/white/green christmas nonpareils, to be extra festive. there's also chopped crystalized ginger for an extra ginger punch. i like ginger. my peanut butter cookie recipe, rolled in turbinado sugar and pressed with waffle and herringbone stamps so they have fun textures on the top. these are my own secret recipe, sure to win over any peanut butter cookie skeptic. a cross section of millionaire's shortbread as i was slicing it earlier... didn't get a proper food styled photo taken as we had to run out the door, but it's a nice 2:1:1 of shortbread base, homemade soft caramel, and creamy semi-sweet ganache, topped with flaky sea salt. these are phenomenally good, though i need to figure out how to improve the structural integrity a bit.
December 26, 2025 at 1:31 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
honestly i'm real mad that my body is too broken to pivot to cooking for a living. i'm fucking good at it!

(caramelized onion, bacon, spinach & gruyere quiche + sauteed mushrooms on the side)

new survival strategy: attract someone with good health insurance using photos of my culinary prowess?
a homemade caramelized onion, bacon & spinach quiche w/ thyme and gruyère in a glass pie plate, resting on a cooling rack on a kitchen counter. it's in hand fluted crust and there's a small bowl of mushrooms sautéed with the extra bacon and some of the caramelized onions next to it. and yes it's absolutely delicious, about two hours later i did have a slice.
December 17, 2025 at 4:46 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
done! a trio of decorative eye daisies + puff eye daisy hair clip.

this is gonna be a very random ravelry entry.
three eye daisies! they all have a glow in the dark neon blue iris against a black center and golden outline, then different colored flower petals: one is red, one is orange, one is a burnt reddish-orange. the same eye daisies, now with the puffed crochet flower on top. the perspective of this photo shows that there are two layers of petals on each flower. the front of the hair clip, which has the puffed rusty orange-red eye daisy and a half sized accent eye daisy in brighter orange. the lil guy has inconsistent petals and a thinner ring of glow in the dark blue; he's attached to the lower right side of the clip. a photo of the other side that shows attachment points for the flower on a honeycomb slide clip. also my manicure is really cute shooting stars.
December 17, 2025 at 4:39 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
hello 🌼_🌼 sunshine

blame 1. @keezyyoung.bsky.social for ingenious cover design and 2. the existence of neon blue glow in the dark yarn, not me.
December 15, 2025 at 10:05 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
there's another one of these still in the pan, i'm gonna need help again...
flancocho with the remaining caramel at the bottom of the pan reheated and drizzled into candy threads over the top. a slice of it is now on a smaller plate in the foreground to offer a close up of the textures.
December 10, 2025 at 9:47 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
idk wtf i'm gonna do with this stuff, but at least it's cute. totally out of this yarn now or i'd consider making another of the little lace flowers just to have it be 2/4/2... crocheted wool trivet-placemat-coaster things with acrylic/rubber dot nonslip backing.

anybody want the set?
final set, crocheted circles in burgundy wool with scalloped edges. there are 2 large placemats (10 rounds) & 4 coasters (4 rounds) backed with grey nonslip dotted fabric, and 1 floral lace sampler in the same yarn. a close up of the lace flower set on the grey backing of one of the placemats beside two of the coasters so you can see the stitching clearly.
December 8, 2025 at 12:41 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
i've created a monster (myself)

sorry for lack of description i haven't slept at all for two nights and my brain is fork in a garbage disposal noises
added nonslip backing to the coasters and mat, plus made a little... basket? pot? vase??? to hold another four (smaller) coasters and 3d flower topper. the new 'flowerpot' set is in grey-to-maroon variegated yarn. added nonslip backing to the coasters and mat, plus made a little... basket? pot? vase??? to hold another four (smaller) coasters and 3d flower topper. the new 'flowerpot' set is in grey-to-maroon variegated yarn. added nonslip backing to the coasters and mat, plus made a little... basket? pot? vase??? to hold another four (smaller) coasters and 3d flower topper. the new 'flowerpot' set is in grey-to-maroon variegated yarn. added nonslip backing to the coasters and mat, plus made a little... basket? pot? vase??? to hold another four (smaller) coasters and 3d flower topper. the new 'flowerpot' set is in grey-to-maroon variegated yarn.
December 6, 2025 at 12:41 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
somewhere between coasters 3 and 4 something clicked into place that hasn't for basketweave yet and i love math so decided to brave a placemat just to MAKE something instead of purely fight with it and now the set has evolved.

whomst might one even foist fiber craft off on these days, anyway? 🤔
after culling the coasters with visible errors and making a gigantic placemat version of the same round scalloped pattern, my burgundy crochet table set is two 5-round coasters and a 12-round mat. a close up shot focused on the mat, which is easily 4x the size of the coasters. i think they're cute. but idk what to do with them either!
December 5, 2025 at 9:44 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
finished and blocked a coaster set... i might have a source for nonslip backing scraps that would work well for small pieces like these, in which case i'd be comfortable gifting/selling them for practical use.
three crocheted burgundy coasters with scalloped edges. the leftmost one has a standard mug set centered on it for scale; there is about an inch all around to spare. the full set of six crocheted coasters. i think they're pretty. baby's first crochet project, but consistent stitching.
December 3, 2025 at 3:59 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
or maybe @sushisiren.bsky.social was right and it is the usps being unreliable af? i just received this email... and sure enough, i'm in the 'didn't get mine' group. bc of course i'm in the 'fuck you' group. as always. the universe hates me.

how do i get uncursed???
a screencap of an email from the creative team of The End Times, a fictional post-apocalyptic newspaper project i subscribed to earlier this year. the relevant bits of text here are that issue one shipped out on november 14th and apparently the mail is being EXTREMELY inconsistent. some people got their papers on 11/19, some today, and some (me, i am in this last group, bc of course i am) are still waiting. and there's nothing they can do about it.
December 3, 2025 at 12:13 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
fourth is about 2/3 done, idk how many a set should even be but this skein has another two worth of yarn in it i think
three crocheted burgundy wool coasters with scalloped edges; the third has a mug on it for scale
December 2, 2025 at 7:42 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
all the sides (tho the cranberry i made the other day is in a jar in the fridge, as are the cupcakes) and the big chonker should be out in an hour or so...
the previous sides, plus stuffed mushrooms and traditional stuffing, browned on top the turkey has been spatchcocked, dry brined, and rubbed both under and on the skin with homemade garlic-herb compound butter. it rests on top a bed of aromatics and veggies. he's a lorge boi.
November 30, 2025 at 1:44 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
i'm still working on mine (i got a last minute free turkey but also always do birthday friendsgiving on the weekend when everything is on clearance lol) but for EXAMPLE:
my version of potatoes boulangere, which is more like the love child with french onion soup roasted brussels sprouts and butternut squash sweet potato casserole with toasted mini marshmallows on top green bean casserole, the classic, tho even the green beans and carrots in the original table pic could be improved with some butter and salt like come on now
November 30, 2025 at 12:46 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
i made too much and somehow have no takers this year?? 😭
six pumpkin chai cupcakes, three piped with a plain swirl of cinnamon cream cheese frosting and three with candied pumpkin seed brittle crumbled on top, on my kitchen counter. a 24oz jar of homemade orange-ginger cranberry sauce with honeycrisp apple; there's also a whole bunch more cupcakes in a container beside the piping bag and brittle in the background. and another 32oz jar of this cranberry sauce in the fridge. help.
November 27, 2025 at 4:24 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
pepper has been granted a stay on account of i did something Bad to my spine and can't handle a drive that long right now, plus the roof start got bumped for weather... can my pain save a tiny scared pirate? 🤞🐾
pepper is lying at OP's side in bed in the morning, head on her chest and butt snuggled against his foster sister lying next to them, looking up at the phone camera. pepper is lying on top of op (on a different morning, he is SUCH a morning boy and nanny has delayed sleep phase disorder so he loves pre-walkie morning cuddles, i have so many pics/vids of happy morning pepper) with his eye half-closed as she strokes his tiny head. he's relaxed and went down for a nap about 5 minutes after this photo was taken.
November 24, 2025 at 5:38 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
stop scraping my account for AI and maybe i'll think about it (i.e. no 🙂)

it feels very 'old man shaking cane' to say, but i remember when there were no inbox categories. so if i want to filter my incoming mail i'll set it up myself. i don't need your "smart" features!

p.s. gemini is an idiot.
a screenshot of the message that popped up on my inbox after i turned off smart features entirely because i'd disabled categories and autocorrections and suggestions and all google's other "smart" shit anyway, and had already opted out of gemini on my google acct entirely BUT THEY TURNED IT BACK ON IN GMAIL. it reads: "turn on smart features and personalization in gmail, chat, and meet to use inbox categories" with the options "turn on" and "dismiss"
November 21, 2025 at 8:48 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
#dogsofbluesky i desperately need help to save pepper. i've limited interactions for hopefully obvious reasons, but my DMs are open. if you message to condemn what is already a heartbreaking situation, you will be blocked.

tl;dr pepper needs a new foster, or it's goodbye. in nyc but will transport.
a collage of photos of a tiny (8lb) chihuahua with white and brown spotted fur, one hazel eye, and a big smile. he's pictured out on walks, lying on his back pawing his face sleepily, cuddled up against another dog napping, and lying on his foster's chest. there's also a cutout of his adorable tiny pawsies; he has pink and black spotted pads. i'm making one last desperate plea to save this sweet little guy! pepper has nowhere to go. i've rehabbed him as far as i can and believe he could thrive in a home... but it's not mine. and i can't find anyone else willing to give him a chance. i'm not sending him back to a shelter to go right back on a kill list, especially considering the terrible shape he came to me in -- rail thin from refusing to eat, brittle patchy yellowed fur, stress rashes and hotspots -- so if i cannot find a foster or trial adopter by monday i'm going to have to put him to sleep. please read the whole post before judging this decision, and if you're also heartbroken by it maybe share his story so someone with the space in their home and heart might see. pepper wants so badly to be a good boy. he's housebroken, well trained to both signs and commands, very smart, and incredibly affectionate. he loves plush squeaky toys and chest scritches, he sometimes forgets his tail is attached and spins around chasing it, he is an excellent road trip passenger, and a good long walk is his favorite thing in the world. he doesn't mind street and traffic noise or being left alone during the day, and he's never chewed or destroyed anything except stolen tissues/napkins. problem is pepper is EXTREMELY fearful, and unfortunately fear aggressive. i have done behavioral rehab for over a decade but he was so shut down it took me awhile to understand all of his triggers and how they manifest. he is very slow to trust after being abandoned. it took me a month to feel like he fully trusted me and 2.5 before i felt he might be ready for adoption trials. in the 4 months and change that i've had him, we've only gotten one application (because i'm not gonna lie that he's got a bite history, his size doesn't matter) and he failed in under 12 hours for biting the husband. he has two major traumas. 1) men -- i don't have one so have tried to work with him on this by bringing him on errands, to the park, etc, and he's desensitized enough that he can exist and accept a treat/pet or two but is still very tense, and 2) being restrained -- he cannot be crated and will not relax if his harness is left on after a walk. grabbing him by the harness or collar is a no-no, though he did eventually adjust to wearing a collar in general! he can get territorial about space, so i've had to really encourage sharing (i have 3 resident dogs and usually 1-2 fosters), establish strong boundaries, and ensure that everyone respects his. he is easily overstimulated and sometimes his excitement tips over into panic, so he'll go from happy wiggly playing to snapping. while i've strongly encouraged redirecting that energy to toys or flight (go to your room!) rather than fight, you have to watch his cues and help him with that level of emotional regulation. he's scared of large dogs and he DESPISES cats. the cat issue is really why he can't stay with me any longer. i've been begging since september to move him somewhere without cats, but we've found no one. after four months and no progress with desensitization, he finally cornered one of mine aggressively enough they swiped and he took a good claw to the nose. things have escalated since: my mother and i have each been bitten several times in the past week trying to protect them, when prior to this incident he hadn't gotten either of us since an accidental redirection on august 10th. he's just too scared, so pepper is now spending a lot of his time locked in the back bedroom now for everyone's safety, which is no life for such an affectionate little guy. he needs to be placed with a patient woman who has no cats or large dogs, who will keep up his rehab. i'm not gonna lie: you will probably get bitten at some point. that liability is why no other rescue has or likely will ever agree to take him on. i have pleaded in every rescue group i'm in, several of us have posted him various places, i've asked everyone i know personally to ask their friends, but no one is willing or able to take my little pepperoncini. putting him back in a shelter would be unbearably cruel. i've tried medicating him (lexapro, cbd) and noticed little effect except sleepiness (trazodone), though in a calmer home one of those might be a good option for him. euthanasia is my absolute last option, and i'd be there and holding him like it's a normal vet appt. but i don't want to do this! he's not an aggressive dog, he is a traumatized and terrified dog. i've just accepted that he is also a liability to most people, my home isn't safe for him as much as my cats and elderly mother aren't safe around him, and he'll likely deteriorate again if i try to keep him here isolated. if you read all of this, thank you. it's been difficult but rewarding to work with him up until this month, and i really hoped someone would come along for him. maybe it's you. maybe it's someone who will see if you repost this? if not, well. he's got until monday, and had four months of love and cuddles and playtime and a warm soft bed and good food and delicious treats. and i'll know that i did absolutely everything i could for him. he was not my pull, he only landed with me because another foster (who absolutely could not have handled him, so it was for the best) backed out last minute, but he is my responsibility now and i love the lil guy. reach out if you can give him one last chance?
November 20, 2025 at 6:19 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
or you could be me and also have bpd which means you hyperfixate on relationships & are twice as emotional and fussy about anything that seems even slightly wrong in it!!! (don't be me, it sucks, i'm gonna die alone with my rescues but plz know if nobody notices and they eat me to survive it's okay)
a screenshot of a video youtube recommended to me by "HealthyGamerGG" titled "why adhd brains don't have space for relationships" the thumbnail is the creator in front of a microphone, with a cartoon brain on a screen behind him. it's divided into two sections, one small red section labeled LOVE with the rest of the brain in pink labeled EVERYTHING ELSE. in my experience this is extremely inaccurate. i even hyperfixate on non-romantic relationships.
November 19, 2025 at 11:44 PM