Now, 13-14 years later, even doing some basic things give me anxiety. I think the events over the last 5 years didn't help but I have slowly been withdrawing and while it's helped me feel less anxious it's starting to become isolating and I don't want to enter my 40's completely scared of life.

Each time he got worse but one time I saw a post highlighting all the crap he said that went under the radar.
He seems like the Asmongold of ASMR, he keeps getting worse and worse and is digging himself into it.

That's fine. It's easy for comments to be lost. There were a couple of things he said a while ago that got me raising an eyebrow but weren't immediate red flags. I just stopped with his content for a while apart from a handful of favourite videos. Then it happened again and again.

Wish I could internalize this

Ew, ew, ew and more ew.