they’re not any different than your neighbors who are housed except that when they got debilitating cancer and could no longer work or left a bad relationship or watched their job disappear due to automation they didn‘t have a savings or a trust fund to fall back on. our sin is being born poor.

it’s why i really hated the characterization of the unhoused by @mayorkwilson.bsky.social based on biased statistics that are skewed due to prejudiced categorizations and assumptions at the town hall. *most* of the people here just need help without all the moralizing, stereotypes and judgement.

neither of them are drug addicts or have mental health problems, no one in this room is or does as this is regarded as a “chill room”. there are several elder folks in here though and folks with medical ailments and trauma we don’t talk about but is nonetheless there. we watch out for each other.

can hear someone else in another nearby room coughing up a lung. everyone here needs housing or a higher level of care, assisted living or a group home or a direct service provider.
a shelter is not a home. these places cut out life expectancy rate too.

i hate that i’m sick and can’t give her a hug because immunocompromised. she doesn’t deserve this. neither of them do. most of the people here don’t. i get that i’m a self-righteous opinionated hoighty bitch but there are so many genuinely good people here who are just wasting away in this place.

will probably delete all my tired ramblings in the morning tbh

if i’m wrong feel free to correct me.

nah i’m fine. i am at least average and that is good enough. you cannot morally make appeals to your oppressors. i will never be the saint liberals need to see my full humanity as an unhoused person. they will always find something to judge me for. i just have to refuse to let them flatten me out.

5) AI, which is good at bullshit, may thrive because we have made a society run on bullshit. But in the end I cannot believe we will all become nothing but consumers. People MAKE. An not in the Randian "makers and takers" sense, in the yearning, stretching toward the infinite sense.

maybe i‘m an idiot.

this is also what makes me feel all the more certain i am audhd even without an official (and expensive) diagnostic.

i don’t want power or influence or respect. i want results, real change, but not at the expense of my integrity or very soul. i worry maybe i’m playing the game wrong by not being a perfect model unhoused activist but also this isn’t a game to me . i’m a full real human and an unrepentant anarchist.

i never want to be a fake but it does seem like a lot of folks fake it to make it and succeed and it makes me worry my philosophy to life is wrong but also i really don‘t like or trust fakes. it’s why i hate politics and am not interested in becoming a politician ever. i don‘t want to behave.

somewhere my former therapist i wish i could still afford is probably saying “duh”