Oh right! Suggestive poses! Click at your curosity! No nudity. Just suggestions of. :)

Crafting: I'm building my rhythm again. I've missed the processes and I'm feeling like my fingers remember the rhythms.
Health: Lion and I go to the gym at least twice a week. It's been helping the headspace a lot. Hopefully we'll see progress soon.
So.. yeah. That's my update.

Therapy: the root of my issue is the phrase "I'm not enough." It echos in everything I do. So it's tearing down and rebuilding that thought to "I am, I have been, I will be Enough." Thus, EMDR.

I am, however, in the process of trying to make my end goal still be a thing. I'm working on opening digital classes and see about streaming later on again. Basically rebuilding a community that'll support again.

Finances: we're fucked. No way around it. We're working on filing chapter 7 and seeing what happens after that. It's painful, but nothing we can do about it.
Which, in turn, makes future want that much harder.

I'm still in communication with K, but I have no desire to seek a relationship. He's got his own shit to fix.
Future: I really do want to be a craft teacher and open my own studio. Dug through older journals and found young me had the same dreams so it's almost an "I have to."

Emily is amazing. She's been a delight to know. 💗

I have not been on this site for too long. So much love to you two right now. Honey was a gem and you two were the best for her. Lots and lots and lots of love.

TOMORROW, I call a debt councilling NPO and see about fixing all of that up as well. Fingers crossed this is forward progess on getting better in all aspects of my life.

The recruiter Lion was working with was livid. She gave them two really good canidates and the company never disclosed the internal option. And we're back at shaky and panicked square one of "how do we survive next month"

Oh Honey... So so so much love to you all right now. This is never a good time. Know that I'm thinking deeply of you.