My wishes didnt come true.. the end of the year was really bad.. and my start of the year worse.. i am so tired mentally and physically..

Peace begins.

It's so funny though.. the anniversary of me wishing a person will come to my life is next month. But what happened during that wish took a wrong turn. My detailed wish this upcoming year is to find someone who is emotionally available or emotionally mature to accept mistakes and be accountable.

I'm so tired.. I keep giving lots of chances and my good self to this person.. but it's so obvious and real that.. I need someone new.. someone who could be my new best friend. I'm tired of just doing nothing.. speaking to no one.. I miss having someone I can really enjoy all my nights talking to.

I'm okay now. I've been peaceful and more relaxed just doing the things I want by myself again. I've been hearing my own voice and less of others or my best friend or her circle again. I've been discovering who I am again. I've been learning, unlearning, and relearning things again. Thank you, self.

It took at least 3 days (separate ones) to fully fix my sims 4 mods. Lol.

Now that I have a best friend.. I lowkey wish she could be more emotionally available for me. But.. it's a bit impossible. Some people even ask why are we best friends in the first place..

Am into LPs lately. Wish I can listen to an LP cafe for my birthday.

Was watching some old music videos I see on MTV and they have 4k or HD/Remastered versions.

Came up to this song from SoundGarden - Black Hole Sun

Random stuff I got fron Bandai Gashapon

Here are some nice mushrooms

12.13.24
Rainy staycation last year.

I feel so overwhelmed with trying to find people I can really connect with. I wish I can stop finding my people and I get a miracle of finding at least a friend IRL tohang out with. It's been at least 20+ years or so wihout a real friend..