Mmmm

I want to kill myself.
Is that okay with you?

I’m so lonely
But I know a boyfriend won’t fix me
I wish I wasn’t like this
I hate myself for the things I crave for
I hate myself for the things I want
I hate myself for the way I am
I hate myself for wanting something that will never be true
I hate myself
Fuck
Me

Tomorrow’s my first day of junior year. And, don’t really feel as excited as I thought I would be. My whole life I always thought the 11th grade was some big thing but really, I just feel like the average high schooler still. I don’t know. I’m not a little kid anymore.

It’s 3:22am

🦋

Damn. What happened to random shit like this?

It’s so depressing being queer and ugly with a horrible personality

I really wish I could have a boyfriend

I actually felt cared for by the Journeys employee:)

Do you think the grime reaper used to work a 9-5?

I want to learn how to play the synthesizer .

I love doing this, it’s like screaming into a never ending void hoping I could be heard.

Sometimes I wish the purge were real. Because if it was… I’d be unstoppable.

Don’t you just love being left on hold for 30 minutes?

Went to the beach today. Wasn’t all bad, not the best either. I’ve just never been a huge fan of the beach. Right now though, I just forced myself to eat the last taco because I don’t want to be wasteful. And I’m upset because I got salsa stains all over my favorite white shirt. (Hope it comes off.)

I don’t really like how our usernames have to have “bsky.social” in them.

So uh… I don’t know how to do this. Today wasn’t all bad. I played video games with my nephew and did some packing for a beach trip I have tomorrow (I’m lying to myself). Other than that, I just had some cookies that I microwaved for too long… they ended up too hot and I lost my appetite.

Thank you