as the 7 year old Russian kid said when told to put on his jacket: "what does it matter if i die? if i die, the suffering ends"

i understand why people drink, why they work and come home and numb out. the answer is that life isn't worth it

i don't want to be homeless again. i don't want to be food insecure again. i need a job, i don't care what it is.

i don't even know. what i do any of this for anymore