I’m convinced no one else tries as hard as I do to be a good person only to completely fail at every fucking turn

It’s almost laughable how it’s the exact same situation just 2 years later, I’m so fucking stupid and worthless nothing has gotten better and everything has gotten worse

I want to kill myself tonight I’m so done

Starting to see the appeal of a rage room, all I could do was sleep too hours and now my heart is beating out of my chest again and I feel like throwing up. I fucking hate this I wish I could tear my flesh off

I hate having this heart, I hate having this mind, I hate this body of mine, I’m never picked, I’m never wanted I’m never needed it’s always someone else similar to me, me in a different body or me in a different life that they like and never me and somehow I end up heartbroken and affected by this

Back on bluesky so I can vent without worrying anyone