an actual cave goblin that lives in darkness
@ptr33.bsky.social
don't mind me, just emptying my brain here. disorganized thoughts on many a thing.
Queer (terfs can fuck off), 30+, anti-AI (if you support that shit, what are you doing here lmao? bye!).
Queer (terfs can fuck off), 30+, anti-AI (if you support that shit, what are you doing here lmao? bye!).
there are tornado sirens going off in the back of my mind at all times
May 10, 2025 at 12:30 AM
there are tornado sirens going off in the back of my mind at all times
yesss yesss. deliciousssss.
April 27, 2025 at 12:47 AM
yesss yesss. deliciousssss.
'i would pick one person in the audience, and i would do the show just for them.'
i'm gonna be sick. no i will not be watching until the season ends.
i'm gonna be sick. no i will not be watching until the season ends.
April 27, 2025 at 12:38 AM
'i would pick one person in the audience, and i would do the show just for them.'
i'm gonna be sick. no i will not be watching until the season ends.
i'm gonna be sick. no i will not be watching until the season ends.
from: 'Dayspring' by Anthony Oliveira
November 18, 2024 at 4:06 PM
from: 'Dayspring' by Anthony Oliveira
fucking yeah. its not like i didn't know this all along, i just didn't realize how BAD the dissociation had become. like. i'm ALWAYS dissociated. I have NO Memory. Every noise triggers me into a fear response. I'm not here. (cue that one house song 'the lights are on but we're not really here') whee
July 30, 2024 at 2:36 AM
fucking yeah. its not like i didn't know this all along, i just didn't realize how BAD the dissociation had become. like. i'm ALWAYS dissociated. I have NO Memory. Every noise triggers me into a fear response. I'm not here. (cue that one house song 'the lights are on but we're not really here') whee
to answer 'is conducting a profession or an achievement?':
"Conducting is ah... marriage to a woman, very demanding woman. And it's everything. She wants to have everything from us. She is jealous about everything..."
"Conducting is ah... marriage to a woman, very demanding woman. And it's everything. She wants to have everything from us. She is jealous about everything..."
July 29, 2024 at 6:09 PM
to answer 'is conducting a profession or an achievement?':
"Conducting is ah... marriage to a woman, very demanding woman. And it's everything. She wants to have everything from us. She is jealous about everything..."
"Conducting is ah... marriage to a woman, very demanding woman. And it's everything. She wants to have everything from us. She is jealous about everything..."
if we walk without rhythm,,, become the wyrm.
July 25, 2024 at 5:34 AM
if we walk without rhythm,,, become the wyrm.
also fuck you. but does everyone actually hate me?
July 25, 2024 at 5:25 AM
also fuck you. but does everyone actually hate me?
hahahaha no wonder my therapist wanted me to read this book sooner. cool cool cool cool cool--- y;eah. eyhap. eypseure. mmmkay. great to know great just fantastic to thinkabout.
July 14, 2024 at 8:59 PM
hahahaha no wonder my therapist wanted me to read this book sooner. cool cool cool cool cool--- y;eah. eyhap. eypseure. mmmkay. great to know great just fantastic to thinkabout.
this okay. this this this.
July 14, 2024 at 8:23 PM
this okay. this this this.
if this isn't on point, i don't know what is.
July 8, 2024 at 2:06 AM
if this isn't on point, i don't know what is.
man i had forgotten what it was like to read a GOOD and INTRICATE and COMPLEX bit of writing with a PLOT and BACKSTORY and vivid CHARACTERS. all 300k of it. oh baby. 2/3 of the way through and i am EATING IT UP.
gimme the TROPES i crave. YEAAAAAH!!!
gimme the TROPES i crave. YEAAAAAH!!!
July 2, 2024 at 5:31 PM
man i had forgotten what it was like to read a GOOD and INTRICATE and COMPLEX bit of writing with a PLOT and BACKSTORY and vivid CHARACTERS. all 300k of it. oh baby. 2/3 of the way through and i am EATING IT UP.
gimme the TROPES i crave. YEAAAAAH!!!
gimme the TROPES i crave. YEAAAAAH!!!
pride month's over now we enter wrath. >:)
July 1, 2024 at 3:16 PM
pride month's over now we enter wrath. >:)
excited for therapy tmrw. hoping to get my therapist to help me figure out if i'm having a manic episode or not, cause i sure as hell can't tell. Every day i just experience some variation of this meme: I cannot spot the difference.
May 29, 2024 at 1:21 AM
excited for therapy tmrw. hoping to get my therapist to help me figure out if i'm having a manic episode or not, cause i sure as hell can't tell. Every day i just experience some variation of this meme: I cannot spot the difference.
also ttrying not to laugh TOO loud at this hour at the thought of my therapist ever seeing the shit i tweet. i would get diagnosed with so many things quickly.
anyway whatever
what if i decide to paint memes? what then? guys? what do we do? here's a strong contender. another? caffeine,was it decaf?
anyway whatever
what if i decide to paint memes? what then? guys? what do we do? here's a strong contender. another? caffeine,was it decaf?
May 14, 2024 at 4:00 AM
also ttrying not to laugh TOO loud at this hour at the thought of my therapist ever seeing the shit i tweet. i would get diagnosed with so many things quickly.
anyway whatever
what if i decide to paint memes? what then? guys? what do we do? here's a strong contender. another? caffeine,was it decaf?
anyway whatever
what if i decide to paint memes? what then? guys? what do we do? here's a strong contender. another? caffeine,was it decaf?
anyway here's the WHOLE page. take a look, it's in a book.
May 1, 2024 at 4:17 AM
anyway here's the WHOLE page. take a look, it's in a book.
also, yeah. here. i found this while looking for the book. the name of which i.... cannot remember at the moment, but i know vague details and i'm going off that... it's midnight. wish me luck. 👍
May 1, 2024 at 3:54 AM
also, yeah. here. i found this while looking for the book. the name of which i.... cannot remember at the moment, but i know vague details and i'm going off that... it's midnight. wish me luck. 👍
DUNGEON MESHIIIII
March 27, 2024 at 8:36 PM
DUNGEON MESHIIIII
...ok but like... this seating arrangement?
i have no idea what's happening but i am looking, i am paying the most attention.
(...marisha... 😍 the *outfit*, hello what???
also, women... women~~
wow.
..and travis too. i guess.)
i have no idea what's happening but i am looking, i am paying the most attention.
(...marisha... 😍 the *outfit*, hello what???
also, women... women~~
wow.
..and travis too. i guess.)
March 13, 2024 at 3:46 AM
...ok but like... this seating arrangement?
i have no idea what's happening but i am looking, i am paying the most attention.
(...marisha... 😍 the *outfit*, hello what???
also, women... women~~
wow.
..and travis too. i guess.)
i have no idea what's happening but i am looking, i am paying the most attention.
(...marisha... 😍 the *outfit*, hello what???
also, women... women~~
wow.
..and travis too. i guess.)
i just miss them ok 😢
March 10, 2024 at 9:44 PM
i just miss them ok 😢
another good oldie i found!
March 10, 2024 at 9:32 PM
another good oldie i found!
same tho.
March 9, 2024 at 11:43 PM
same tho.
this is something i truly struggle with, as I am habitually a 'pantser' in my writing and have been making effort to add more 'plotter' strategies to unify my writing.
i want to commit to the outline, but find myself bored with the scenes/action, and then i wind up reworking the whole dang thing.
i want to commit to the outline, but find myself bored with the scenes/action, and then i wind up reworking the whole dang thing.
March 8, 2024 at 6:58 PM
this is something i truly struggle with, as I am habitually a 'pantser' in my writing and have been making effort to add more 'plotter' strategies to unify my writing.
i want to commit to the outline, but find myself bored with the scenes/action, and then i wind up reworking the whole dang thing.
i want to commit to the outline, but find myself bored with the scenes/action, and then i wind up reworking the whole dang thing.
very loose and free and meditative approach. 'get rid of your structures for a more true and focused 'piece', rules and outlines just hold you back.'
interesting approaches, for sure.
interesting approaches, for sure.
March 8, 2024 at 5:55 PM
very loose and free and meditative approach. 'get rid of your structures for a more true and focused 'piece', rules and outlines just hold you back.'
interesting approaches, for sure.
interesting approaches, for sure.