again, it'd probably have significant health costs. If I could somehow secure a solid financial situation, I might try it. It'd probably be fun if making money wasn't the objective.

Like, it gets harder all the time, I don't know where to find appropriate music, software or art really and unless I get insanely lucky, I could be throwing all of my work into a void and getting nothing back for my effort. I did the starving artist thing in college. I'm pretty sure if I tried it -

I wish I was lucky enough to attend cons in my younger years. I was too busy just trying to survive. I think that version of me would have had a much better life.

with back then just got worse. But there were also good days I had there that I don't really have anymore. But I have grown quite a bit since then, so it's not all bad news. I caste off an anchor tonight and I'm more than happy to see it go. Rot in agony, you cesspool of a platform.

I feel this in my bones.

people entirely, as I get older and find less people into the things I enjoy?

I don't know, but for now at least, I can still enjoy these things. I should try to do them while I can. Get good memories while I can. Meet new people while I can. I won't know what might come my way unless I try.

game. I could conceivably have fun with the hobby again. But I don't...know if I could take something like that happening again to me. I''ve already had so many bad memories of running with various online groups, that as I get older, will I just...stop reaching out? Just stop wanting to be around -

I'd just go, what's the point, you know? I'm probably not going to get into another game, so what's the point in making character ideas?

But...I've recovered a bit. I can look at these things and feel a little bit of a spark, but not the joy I once had. I might have potentially joined another -

Anytime I think about the campaign's funnier or better moments, I instantly swing back to "oh yeah? And look at how those people treated you when the game ended? How quickly they tossed you aside." For awhile there, I couldn't even stand to look at any pathfinder/Starfinder/D&D material because -

I'm sure there's a few places you can read horror stories, but I know a big one is on Reddit.

Wait, this is real? What have they done to my boy!?

- Starfinder games and if this is the only option, I may have to give up on it like I did for Humblewood.