I keep checking the chatters list on my twitch channel, hoping the usual people will be there.

I know they won't be there anymore. They're gone. I sent them away, but it'll take some time getting used to streaming to truly no one, but it's honestly for the best.

Got loose stools as a gift but its ok. Im fine really

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Guess what gift I got this Christmas? Fucking loose stools! Right! Now I feel like shit, every time I burp I can taste every single thing I ate since yesterday wrapped in what tastes like stomach acid. Everything feels dry and my hands are shaky for some reason.

Christmas is going great...

It's probably the first time I tried watching one of the bear mating footages I've downloaded from youtube with mpv and then not feeling anything. I really tried to feel something. ANYTHING, but nothing.

MERRY CHRISTMAS YALL.

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These days 6 years ago, this week 6 years ago. It's around this time when I stopped going to socials. I felt like I was "floating", swinging back and forth, kill myself or live and continue suffering. I felt nothing.

2019 was a year I couldn't forget, yet I don't remember much of that year.

Didn't know stable-diffusion-webui is abandoned. Well I use ComfyUI now. I used to find ComfyUI "unnecessarily complicated" 2 years ago but after 2 weeks of trying it out, it ain't that bad.

I've been thinking about totally shutting off myself from interacting with anyone on the net these past few weeks, so as a "celebration" for my coming 5th year Twitch anniversary, I've come to accept that I feel more alive and free when I don't talk to anyone, so yeah.

Remembering 2008 the vista xp days.

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Wow.. so Will has Vecna-like powers now. That indeed is a stranger thing. He twisted the joints of those demos like it's a fuckin gmod ragdoll.

Yeah I binged the 4 episodes of Stranger Things S5 tonite. To think the casts are just around my age.. They're big now.

#strangerthings

Also I heard a while ago of loneliness epidemic. Yeah, that shit exists cos phones! And social bubbles, and "AI". Anyone ain't got the time to know someone new like the jolly good ol' days back when the face book was fun cos it had games in it...

I have gooned too much this past 10 days if I had a real bear girlfriend, she'd probably slap my face HARD cos the room's smells very "male" now...

Also WTF ?! DECEMBER 5 WAS 12 DAYS AGO ?!?!?! JHEEEEZ

I have been prompting too much so many days have been going by. I honestly feel like it's should be December 9 right now. Even that's 8 days ago.

Fuck! Well I guess I had too much fun cos idk..

OH MY GOD DECEMBER 5 WAS 12 DAYS AGO ?!?!?! JHEEEEZ

"Everywhere At The End of Time" in 12 seconds.

(Video made by my GPU RTX 3060. Audio and a little bit of video edited by me)

#eateot #everywhereattheendoftime #thecaretaker #wan22 #stablediffusion #comfyui #rtx #rtx3060 #nvidia #python #ai #localai #wan #wanai #pytorch #videogeneration #aigc

Wow, this guy's just 22 years old and is already in jail? Props to him, he's already did something big in his life.

Me? I dunno. The biggest crime I only commit right now is jerking off, in private of course.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=2-KW...

Anyways I'm gonna be off for a long while. I have tried running Qwen3-4b on cpu to help me with prompting some stuffs, while also running z-image on GPU.. Also Z-Image is uncensored, pretty naughty there.

Just catching up after a year of not fiddling around with local image generation...

#zimage #localai #comfyui #bears #furry #nvidia #cuda #python