I used to ask jeeves...

In Sixth Sense when his mom leaves the kitchen for a second only to find every cupboard open?

Yeah, that's what happens when I walk through the kitchen.

Hitting my head so often over the years taught me how to stand from a crouch with extra care... but not to close cupboards, unfortunately...

And yes, I am proud of myself because I didn't have an IED episode (it was close) but honestly... It's hard to feel proud because I've realized just how much help Edgar's weight in my lap was in helping me calm down after these sorts of mornings.

... I really miss my cat...

Hey, that's where I live! Holy shit.

I'm in Michigan. But I think the issue tends to be just the size and spread of the US. It's hard to generalize a country this size, especially when it comes to medical care.

Some states are just more reasonable than others.

Then you're pretty lucky, honestly. And I'm happy that at least some people have it easier.

Even my doctor, who is generally pretty awesome, took nearly a year after I got my assessment to finally prescribe me the Adderall I was requesting.

A majority of doctors treat it as: if you're a kid, then we'll shove it down your throat.

If you're an adult, then you're a drug seeking addict.

It sometimes can take that long here in the US, although not an official wait list.

We do have to take regular drug tests. Call to get a new prescription every month. See our doctors in person every 3 months. And we're only allowed to pick up meds a day or two before we run out.

I mean it's exactly like that in the usa too.

I know I made the right choice.

The vet said I would know when he was gone when I felt him relax in my arms after the injection, but I never felt it, because he was already relaxed laying in his happiest place... in my arms.

The world will forever be too quiet without you Edgar...

Instead, I chose to let him go peacefully, holding him in my arms exactly as I did the day we came into each other's lives.

Holding him exactly the way he often wanted me to hold him.

6 years, and 9 months wasn't long enough. His absence leaves the house too quiet, and an empty space in my life.

I'll listen to Christmas music on Christmas and that's it, by choice. Obviously I'm subjected to it when I'm out and about.

But I worked retail too long in life to be too tolerable of it. Lol

Yes! Honestly, make it about anything. Wasn't your last episode in like 2023?

Uplifting music:
This Year by The Mountain Goats &

Fun music:
What You Want by Ren & The Man by The Killers

Eclectic Music:
Supertheory of Supereverything by Gogol Bordello
Song of Women by The HU

And finally surprising music:
St James Infirmary by Hugh Laurie

Oh, I got lots and lots

Flight music:
Resist and Bite by Sabaton & Fight Song by The Stanfields

Beautiful music:
Baby I'm a Fool by Melody Gardot & The Chain by Ingrid Michaelson

Sad music:
Terrible And True by Lost Dog Street Band

I'm already working from a hindrance being that I'm a white dude who can only study and read what it's like to live through racism.

My best starting point has been classism, having grown up poor. But let me tell you, I don't think I'll ever actually feel like I've read enough on this topic.

It's particularly important because there's specific racism in the story pertaining to the main protagonist.

So I worry that if it doesn't "feel" like racism it'll subtract some important weightiness from the plot.

Apparently Stephen King was so obsessed with Mombo Number 5 that he'd play it on repeat while writing "11/22/63", to the point where his wife threatened divorce.

So maybe you just need to channel that?