Rhys M
@rhysmart.bsky.social
personal acct. 32, PNW, they/he gremlin [en/es/nl]
art dump. doodles. photos. void shouting
garfield & linkin park stan. corvid enjoyer.
film & tv opinions: @grumpytakes
art dump. doodles. photos. void shouting
garfield & linkin park stan. corvid enjoyer.
film & tv opinions: @grumpytakes
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Rhys M
@rhysmart.bsky.social
· Aug 11
Hey I don't think I've shared on this account how much I hate Tim Lambesis. I gotta be cohesive across all my social media. Also fuck Ian Watkins. That's all.
Had a weird nightmare twice last night.
Might be that my subconscious has something to purge.
I hate it.
The sluggish, shoes full of mud and sand feeling of trying to run but can't.
The echoing screams.
The broken non linear story.
Just let me sleep..
Might be that my subconscious has something to purge.
I hate it.
The sluggish, shoes full of mud and sand feeling of trying to run but can't.
The echoing screams.
The broken non linear story.
Just let me sleep..
December 23, 2025 at 6:47 AM
Had a weird nightmare twice last night.
Might be that my subconscious has something to purge.
I hate it.
The sluggish, shoes full of mud and sand feeling of trying to run but can't.
The echoing screams.
The broken non linear story.
Just let me sleep..
Might be that my subconscious has something to purge.
I hate it.
The sluggish, shoes full of mud and sand feeling of trying to run but can't.
The echoing screams.
The broken non linear story.
Just let me sleep..
Prob need to widen this but I'm just trying to get things down as I think of it. Get back in the swing of creation even if it's incomplete
December 20, 2025 at 7:07 AM
Prob need to widen this but I'm just trying to get things down as I think of it. Get back in the swing of creation even if it's incomplete
The crows were hungry today. I refilled the bowl 3 times before noon!!
I'm def not complaining because I've often only had to do partial refills. I'm happy to help them bulk for winter!
I'm def not complaining because I've often only had to do partial refills. I'm happy to help them bulk for winter!
December 18, 2025 at 7:16 AM
The crows were hungry today. I refilled the bowl 3 times before noon!!
I'm def not complaining because I've often only had to do partial refills. I'm happy to help them bulk for winter!
I'm def not complaining because I've often only had to do partial refills. I'm happy to help them bulk for winter!
Got a visit from Miss Adriana this morning though I wasn't quick enough to get a picture of her on the balcony.
I did let out some excitement for her return. I tried to remember to not be too shrill and scare her. But it was good to see her and Chris of course.
I did let out some excitement for her return. I tried to remember to not be too shrill and scare her. But it was good to see her and Chris of course.
December 16, 2025 at 7:04 AM
Got a visit from Miss Adriana this morning though I wasn't quick enough to get a picture of her on the balcony.
I did let out some excitement for her return. I tried to remember to not be too shrill and scare her. But it was good to see her and Chris of course.
I did let out some excitement for her return. I tried to remember to not be too shrill and scare her. But it was good to see her and Chris of course.
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Hair is getting longer and I'm at a critical point of: do I wanna maximize growth for a rat tail and risk some mild dysphoria OR buzz it
It's winter so buzz might not be the move. And I have psoriasis so that's not a cute look. But during the summer the UV can actually help the psoriasis
Decisions
It's winter so buzz might not be the move. And I have psoriasis so that's not a cute look. But during the summer the UV can actually help the psoriasis
Decisions
December 14, 2025 at 11:26 PM
Hair is getting longer and I'm at a critical point of: do I wanna maximize growth for a rat tail and risk some mild dysphoria OR buzz it
It's winter so buzz might not be the move. And I have psoriasis so that's not a cute look. But during the summer the UV can actually help the psoriasis
Decisions
It's winter so buzz might not be the move. And I have psoriasis so that's not a cute look. But during the summer the UV can actually help the psoriasis
Decisions
Maybe it's not giving up hope.
Just setting it on the shelf like so many other hopes and dreams.
To come back to it later, when it doesn't rip holes into my stomach and my chest.
Maybe it's a keepsake I'm not supposed to hold so close.
Maybe it's a something to be admired and never really mine.
Just setting it on the shelf like so many other hopes and dreams.
To come back to it later, when it doesn't rip holes into my stomach and my chest.
Maybe it's a keepsake I'm not supposed to hold so close.
Maybe it's a something to be admired and never really mine.
December 14, 2025 at 12:46 AM
Maybe it's not giving up hope.
Just setting it on the shelf like so many other hopes and dreams.
To come back to it later, when it doesn't rip holes into my stomach and my chest.
Maybe it's a keepsake I'm not supposed to hold so close.
Maybe it's a something to be admired and never really mine.
Just setting it on the shelf like so many other hopes and dreams.
To come back to it later, when it doesn't rip holes into my stomach and my chest.
Maybe it's a keepsake I'm not supposed to hold so close.
Maybe it's a something to be admired and never really mine.
I refilled the bowl this afternoon. Initially this guy floated down to get snacks but didn't appreciate that I didn't leave them on the ledge. So I went back out to put them on the ledge and then they started grabbing treats.
December 13, 2025 at 8:49 PM
I refilled the bowl this afternoon. Initially this guy floated down to get snacks but didn't appreciate that I didn't leave them on the ledge. So I went back out to put them on the ledge and then they started grabbing treats.
Lower ISO has been reducing the smudge effect but got this really nice pic of a crow in waiting.
This is one of the newer visitors as they wait for me to go inside. One half of another couple.
This is one of the newer visitors as they wait for me to go inside. One half of another couple.
December 13, 2025 at 8:45 PM
Lower ISO has been reducing the smudge effect but got this really nice pic of a crow in waiting.
This is one of the newer visitors as they wait for me to go inside. One half of another couple.
This is one of the newer visitors as they wait for me to go inside. One half of another couple.
Slow with the crows so have some .5s of the kitty
December 13, 2025 at 7:03 AM
Slow with the crows so have some .5s of the kitty
These are some newer visitors. They seem to have the Intel that my balcony has food but they won't approach unless I'm nowhere close to the window.
Happy to help feed any of the visitors through the winter. :)
Happy to help feed any of the visitors through the winter. :)
December 11, 2025 at 10:00 PM
These are some newer visitors. They seem to have the Intel that my balcony has food but they won't approach unless I'm nowhere close to the window.
Happy to help feed any of the visitors through the winter. :)
Happy to help feed any of the visitors through the winter. :)
Nth Date Idea:
We sit at a rainy windy bus stop waiting for the bus. Maybe you're complaining about how winter feels so desolate and cold and unending.
I take your hands in mine. I agree. There's this dark shadow cast over this season. But we can find warmth sometimes.
We sit at a rainy windy bus stop waiting for the bus. Maybe you're complaining about how winter feels so desolate and cold and unending.
I take your hands in mine. I agree. There's this dark shadow cast over this season. But we can find warmth sometimes.
December 11, 2025 at 2:37 AM
Nth Date Idea:
We sit at a rainy windy bus stop waiting for the bus. Maybe you're complaining about how winter feels so desolate and cold and unending.
I take your hands in mine. I agree. There's this dark shadow cast over this season. But we can find warmth sometimes.
We sit at a rainy windy bus stop waiting for the bus. Maybe you're complaining about how winter feels so desolate and cold and unending.
I take your hands in mine. I agree. There's this dark shadow cast over this season. But we can find warmth sometimes.
Only one crow friend sighting today.
They were able to get some snacks. And that fills my heart whether it's 8 crows or 1. If I see them grab the snacks or I find an empty bowl.
Either way!
They were able to get some snacks. And that fills my heart whether it's 8 crows or 1. If I see them grab the snacks or I find an empty bowl.
Either way!
December 11, 2025 at 2:33 AM
Only one crow friend sighting today.
They were able to get some snacks. And that fills my heart whether it's 8 crows or 1. If I see them grab the snacks or I find an empty bowl.
Either way!
They were able to get some snacks. And that fills my heart whether it's 8 crows or 1. If I see them grab the snacks or I find an empty bowl.
Either way!
Nth Date Idea:
We lay on the floor in different spots. Don't worry the floor is clean.
Stretching if necessary. Silence besides the crackling of joints and groans of relief.
The cat comes sauntering over, jabbing his paws into my stomach.
A chuckle breaks the quiet and we just laugh together.
We lay on the floor in different spots. Don't worry the floor is clean.
Stretching if necessary. Silence besides the crackling of joints and groans of relief.
The cat comes sauntering over, jabbing his paws into my stomach.
A chuckle breaks the quiet and we just laugh together.
December 9, 2025 at 8:59 AM
Nth Date Idea:
We lay on the floor in different spots. Don't worry the floor is clean.
Stretching if necessary. Silence besides the crackling of joints and groans of relief.
The cat comes sauntering over, jabbing his paws into my stomach.
A chuckle breaks the quiet and we just laugh together.
We lay on the floor in different spots. Don't worry the floor is clean.
Stretching if necessary. Silence besides the crackling of joints and groans of relief.
The cat comes sauntering over, jabbing his paws into my stomach.
A chuckle breaks the quiet and we just laugh together.
Had real quick activity this morning with the crows. Only 2 this morning and the rest of the snacks were untouched. Might have to throw them out soon as they've been in the rain as well.
Even if slowly now, I'm glad they're still visiting.
Even if slowly now, I'm glad they're still visiting.
December 9, 2025 at 7:27 AM
Had real quick activity this morning with the crows. Only 2 this morning and the rest of the snacks were untouched. Might have to throw them out soon as they've been in the rain as well.
Even if slowly now, I'm glad they're still visiting.
Even if slowly now, I'm glad they're still visiting.
No reports this morning. The poor weather just doesn't have them out and about. I've also been fighting a pre-migraine from turning into a full blown migraine so I slept in this weekend. Only saw my bbs yesterday.
Tis the season I suppose. It's cold and windy. They're either hunkering down or
Tis the season I suppose. It's cold and windy. They're either hunkering down or
December 8, 2025 at 1:25 AM
No reports this morning. The poor weather just doesn't have them out and about. I've also been fighting a pre-migraine from turning into a full blown migraine so I slept in this weekend. Only saw my bbs yesterday.
Tis the season I suppose. It's cold and windy. They're either hunkering down or
Tis the season I suppose. It's cold and windy. They're either hunkering down or
I saw no crows yesterday it made me really sad. The food was completely untouched. But I woke up this morning and Chris and Adri were back!
December 6, 2025 at 9:43 PM
I saw no crows yesterday it made me really sad. The food was completely untouched. But I woke up this morning and Chris and Adri were back!
Grief is so odd.
My heart hurts so much in this moment. I know exactly why. It's so far out of reach and for so long.
I want my mom but what can I do besides sit with it. Hold myself, breathe, let it wash over.
My heart hurts so much in this moment. I know exactly why. It's so far out of reach and for so long.
I want my mom but what can I do besides sit with it. Hold myself, breathe, let it wash over.
December 6, 2025 at 12:32 AM
Grief is so odd.
My heart hurts so much in this moment. I know exactly why. It's so far out of reach and for so long.
I want my mom but what can I do besides sit with it. Hold myself, breathe, let it wash over.
My heart hurts so much in this moment. I know exactly why. It's so far out of reach and for so long.
I want my mom but what can I do besides sit with it. Hold myself, breathe, let it wash over.
By mid October the depression lull hits hard. Some of it is seasonal. Some of it is that my mom passed in November 2 years ago so it a shadow passes over all the family holidays. Some of it is memories so far back.
I try not to feel guilt about feeling slower or easily overwhelmed.
I try not to feel guilt about feeling slower or easily overwhelmed.
December 5, 2025 at 8:15 PM
By mid October the depression lull hits hard. Some of it is seasonal. Some of it is that my mom passed in November 2 years ago so it a shadow passes over all the family holidays. Some of it is memories so far back.
I try not to feel guilt about feeling slower or easily overwhelmed.
I try not to feel guilt about feeling slower or easily overwhelmed.
Oops posted to the other acct
My sweetie girl Adriana came to visit with Chris of course (on the roof). I feel like I haven't seen them in a bit. But happy to have them back.
Adri seemed a little shy so I gave her some space to grab what she needed.
My sweetie girl Adriana came to visit with Chris of course (on the roof). I feel like I haven't seen them in a bit. But happy to have them back.
Adri seemed a little shy so I gave her some space to grab what she needed.
December 5, 2025 at 2:36 AM
Oops posted to the other acct
My sweetie girl Adriana came to visit with Chris of course (on the roof). I feel like I haven't seen them in a bit. But happy to have them back.
Adri seemed a little shy so I gave her some space to grab what she needed.
My sweetie girl Adriana came to visit with Chris of course (on the roof). I feel like I haven't seen them in a bit. But happy to have them back.
Adri seemed a little shy so I gave her some space to grab what she needed.
So many friends this morning!!
I felt bad cuz I had to jet our the door because I forgot to turn my alarms back on from last week.
Had to set out food while it was dark so I could say hi them. Only wave from the window 🥲
I felt bad cuz I had to jet our the door because I forgot to turn my alarms back on from last week.
Had to set out food while it was dark so I could say hi them. Only wave from the window 🥲
December 4, 2025 at 2:15 AM
So many friends this morning!!
I felt bad cuz I had to jet our the door because I forgot to turn my alarms back on from last week.
Had to set out food while it was dark so I could say hi them. Only wave from the window 🥲
I felt bad cuz I had to jet our the door because I forgot to turn my alarms back on from last week.
Had to set out food while it was dark so I could say hi them. Only wave from the window 🥲
Kitty got his chewy order stuff and the birds got theirs.
I tried the puzzle bowl with my cat but it's a little too deep for him, he kept flipping it over to get the rest of his food out (not great when it was wet food). But I'm hoping the crows will notice the blue!
I tried the puzzle bowl with my cat but it's a little too deep for him, he kept flipping it over to get the rest of his food out (not great when it was wet food). But I'm hoping the crows will notice the blue!
December 1, 2025 at 5:55 AM
Kitty got his chewy order stuff and the birds got theirs.
I tried the puzzle bowl with my cat but it's a little too deep for him, he kept flipping it over to get the rest of his food out (not great when it was wet food). But I'm hoping the crows will notice the blue!
I tried the puzzle bowl with my cat but it's a little too deep for him, he kept flipping it over to get the rest of his food out (not great when it was wet food). But I'm hoping the crows will notice the blue!
Sometimes I annoy him while he sleeps, just so he knows what it's like
November 30, 2025 at 9:50 PM
Sometimes I annoy him while he sleeps, just so he knows what it's like
I think the crows are teaching me patience in connection. I get frustrated at times I'm not up to speed with my peers. But maybe I just need to be patient with myself. Feel the feelings obviously, but patience as well.
November 30, 2025 at 6:58 AM
I think the crows are teaching me patience in connection. I get frustrated at times I'm not up to speed with my peers. But maybe I just need to be patient with myself. Feel the feelings obviously, but patience as well.
A friend asked me how I can tell the crows apart. Honestly, if they're far away it's hard to tell. But when theyre on the balcony I can tell.
Tony (2nd) by far is the easiest to spot because you just notice how large he is compared to the other crows.
The others it's behavior like Chris & Adriana.
Tony (2nd) by far is the easiest to spot because you just notice how large he is compared to the other crows.
The others it's behavior like Chris & Adriana.
November 29, 2025 at 8:17 PM
A friend asked me how I can tell the crows apart. Honestly, if they're far away it's hard to tell. But when theyre on the balcony I can tell.
Tony (2nd) by far is the easiest to spot because you just notice how large he is compared to the other crows.
The others it's behavior like Chris & Adriana.
Tony (2nd) by far is the easiest to spot because you just notice how large he is compared to the other crows.
The others it's behavior like Chris & Adriana.