Particularly because I'm considered very diplomatic in my feelings at times. And it's been 10 years since CJ asked me why and also chatting about someone who is no longer in my life who was a big dick measurer and story topper. Ahhhh feeling be gone.

Some of this goes back to the feeling of "if I share my love with people I will be hurt for it" but also the sibling feeling of "this is mine, I love it more, you can't have it". These days it doesn't bother me as much but I have been reflecting on this recently.