I know these things are just momentarily and in few months/years I’m in a different spot na. I’d look back into this moment or read these vents of mine, and I’d laugh kase di na ako nakaka relate. Well, I hope. I hope that’d be case.

Don’t get me wrong, I get hurt thinking about things na na change. But sguro nag mature na rin ako na I just allow it to hurt. Pero hanggang dun lang yun. Kase ano pa ba magagawa ko? This is my reality. I’m not even mad about it. It’s like I need to live regardless.

Ayoko talaga mag celebrate with them kaya if di man matuloy yung usapan with Jean, I’d celebrate Christmas alone sa barracks. I feel okay with that thought kesa to go back sa place nila papa :( I feel guilty feeling this way but it’s the truth.

I’m also excited sa exchanging of gifts! Pero yung gift ko for my Monita hindi pa balot haha I have to look for a cute pambalot and a big box kase anlaki nya. But I can’t wait to receive mine talaga. I hope nasunod yung sa wish list.

Ah hindi naman.

The situation we have here. And my entire jaw feels.. heavy or something. And I get tired from talking too much. Couldn’t even move my mouth fully when I speak.