Robert Redford died. That's a shame - he was one of my favorite actors. I especially loved Jeremiah Johnson, my all-time favorite film! I'm going to reread The Aiken Trilogy in tribute. The three books are based on the film, Spy Game, and also one of my favorite of Redford's films (with Brad Pitt).

"Devilishly clever,my friend, devilishly clever." he said to no one in particular. Not that there was anyone there, particularly.

My left eye feels irritated. The rest of my body - well, soreness, exhaustion. My constant companions. I wonder if it could be stress. Sometimes it seems like I've been stressed for most of my life.

Earlier today, I was in the local grocery store getting some stuff, when I looked around and said to myself, "I am in Hell". It wasn't about the grocery store, it was about still living in Kansas. I need to get out of here!

I'm in my apartment looking out the balcony window. Nothingness and cars - cars and nothingness. I can't see what I'm doing here in Kansas. I don't like Kansas. The people are nice and helpful and there are plenty of restaurants. But other than that, I have no idea what I'm doing here.

I'm waiting in the apartment complex clubhouse again. For what? To hear from her. Oh! Sanctuary, sanctuary - if only. I started be more myself today. It was fun, but then my energy slipped away. Ah, well. I'll try again tomorrow!

Laying on my bed. Looking at the wall - nothing much to look at. Why am I laying here? Your guess is as good as mine. Ah, yes - I must be true to myself, but I have no idea where to begin. I think I'm taking it much too seriously. Could be! Relax, for God's sake!

I'm exhausted. My eyes won't completely open yet. I don't really feel anything. My mornings are usually like this. I'm at The Corner Bakery Cafe for breakfast. Bagel and cream cheese. Still don't feel anything. I sighed, which means I'm telling the truth. Yes, it does!

I must change my life. Not just for me, but for her as well. It's what I want to happen.

Why post this? I don't know! It's my Facebook profile picture.

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20 June 1968:

Following several days' work compiling tape loops and effects, John Lennon assembles the master tape for Revolution 9.

"Number nine, number nine..."

Read all about the recording session here:

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My son has grown an inch in height since March, I literally cannot buy clothes quick enough before he bean sprouts out of them arghh

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I'm trying to make changes, I really am, but things aren't going well. I'm totally exhausted. I can walk around, but I'm not energetic at all. And when I sit down, that's it! I'm 67 and what bothers me is that maybe I'm turning into the old man I never wanted to be. No, no!

I'm too damn sleepy for my own good. It takes too long to wake up - I don't like it. It feels like I'm wasting time. Maybe it's because I keep doing things I don't really want to do. Could be - the exhaustion could be my body's way of saying "STOP!".
Could be!

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