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aitsf spoilers // i'm panta i'm an adult i'm the number one saito/ryuki fan and this is not a contested title.
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by the wayies i have one of these things rysdt.straw.page i just haven't posted a link to it here because i will instantly forget i posted it anywhere other than twitter. but i can put that on you the audience. If you're not following me on twitter and send in a question tell me or i will forget. th
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i was planning on only posting porn on here until the fifteenth and/or i get banned but chances of me having that much ability to do particular things are incredibly low so i'll probably just start mirroring later..... weh.
show your preemptive appreciation for all the good posting i will do this month. blorbo questions or if i haven't made it clear if you have drawing questions i will drop everything to make 5 paragraphs several diagrams and a list of free reference materials any account any time

i spend about as much time Thinking About It as i do actually drawing so i can 99% guarantee i can at least point you in the direction of something that will help especially if it's a "i've tried googling 'how do i draw X' fifteen times and it's never helped" question

born to [solar sands] forced to [reading yaoi instead of voice training]. 
or you can ask "what was this bit in your fic about" "what's your favourite thing in your fic nobody's noticed" and i'll say "i have a self imposed commitment to death of the author". it'll be fun!
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answering questions i asked people to send because i am bored. you can send questions in on straw page rysdt.straw.page and i will forget to put them here. spoilers (for the game and my fic i guess)
Anonymous asked: what made u want to write part of ur fic as a screenplay/script? idk its so cool so i wonder if its meant to thematically represent smth :3

response: it thematically represents that i wanted to make it clear if it was saito doing date's voice or not when he was speaking and in picking the easiest option i signed myself up for 500 hours of reformatting

it definitely started on a whim from the concept of 'saito "acting" as date' which is interesting because the idea compels me exceedingly little. i did genuinely have the idea while trying to work out how to tag his voice in that first saito chapter after physically writing out a bunch of notes for it, and that first chapter is the full extent to which i care, right? i start the fic with a few lines describing it in post and saito telling ryuki his actual name... honestly, it's really clumsy, i could do it a lot better now. i think getting to see things like that is maybe the best part of watching live releasing online work, though

the thing i enjoy about it now is sort of... and this is the bit where i go "this is My Interpretation Of The Work (the work that i wrote)" continued from last image: ... it's the easiest way to show saito as a narrator. there's a lot of declarative statements about things he doesn't know, and most of it is stuff he isn't thinking about. these things are said because they're for the camera, because he's filling the objective POV role of a screenplay. 

you lie in fiction, you lie to the audience, but the screenplay exists behind the curtain. it is all available information, it is truthful. if there's one thing i keep a focus on the whole way through it's ways in which characters manufacture an objective voice for their lies. some of that was cart before the horse with making 'unreliable narrator' the third tag on the fic, but i do really enjoy it as a concept. 

and that's the take on the acting thing i do find compelling, the objectivity of it. the tag isn't "SAITO (in Date's voice)", he is date as he is perceived as such, and in doing so there is no room for date in the script. more i could say here about how saito perceives people vs their bodies in the actual game (especially lines changed in localization) but that's too off topic for how much i'm already talking

the other thing is the routine. it's a voice of knowing exactly what will happen, you know what's going to happen when something's already happened before. it's rote, it's rehearsed, it's... you know. mizuki and [date] have formats for expressing that concept, but saito does not have a way to not express that concept. it has all happened before, even if from a different position, and it is going to happen, no matter what. 

i suppose if there's something it 'represents thematically' it's the 'cyclical hurt' in 'love, cyclical hurt, and making the best of a bad situation' kataga asked: What were the intermissions about in your fic? It’s Saito’s format, but who are Girl A and Girl B?

response: intermissions are about getting up to go to the bathroom and buy more popcorn i think

saito's format... hm. are the call transcripts [date]'s format? it's something that's happening, and it's showing a way that objective information is delivered to the audience in the interest of lending credibility to the person using a similar format. but if that's the case, maybe i should have started with it like the transcript while i was already going back to add things......  

i don't think it's too hard to work out who Girl A was, but if there is a point, it's sort of that they're the opposite of the call transcripts. here's the material facts of a conversation between two people, the exact time it happened, what was said, and the bodies they are in -- and here's a conversation happening at some time, between two unclear people, and a focus on what was meant rather than what was said. kataga asked: Stealing a question directly from your post here but I do genuinely want to know. What’s your favorite thing about your fic that nobody’s noticed?

response: impossible for a guy like me to pick one thing and also it's a little presumptuous to assume nobody's noticed something just because they haven't commented on it. really who is writing these questions (lol)

there's a lot of Saito Just Saying Shit lines that i am incredibly fond of for one reason or another and i worry it looks like i'm just doing 'tell don't show' writing because nobody's commented on it.......... a lot of the later chapter lines around ryuki and the fake POV changes in psittacistic especially. 

screenshot of screenplay format text: (...) He still hasn't changed his mind about replacing the entire bedspread, quite possibly the mattress too, every few weeks in lieu of simply buying a plastic sheet or anything of the sort. The logic is clear, if irrational: any repeat payment, no matter how costly, could always be the last one. To prepare for something is to admit you have a problem. 

post continues: this one i almost took out when i was rereading it before i remembered why i put it in here. maybe that does mean i'm just doing bad writing and blaming it on the character, but, i like it.
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-- and i would feel incredibly gross tagging that as 'CNC' or having a character turn to camera to say "i am consenting to this and it would be okay in real life". like. I Don't Know I Think That's Worse Than Just Being Able To Make Art About Bad Things Happening Sometimes Actually.
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i don't know. 99% chance i've made this tweet before because this website sucks shoe polish but i like making stuff about. people twisting themselves into knots to convince themselves they're responsible for their own abuse and that what was done to them was consensual --
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they should make a site that is good. for trans women and artists and all trans people but especially trans women. is anyone working on this. no? okay. awesome.
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oh okay,. cool. cool. awesome. great. cool. good. love that. awesome. thanks bluesky. (starts coughing up blood (in a way that doesn't glorify harm or dangerous stunts))
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The bad news keep coming

These go into effect Oct 15th
D. Adult Content: We provide a safe space for consensual adult expression by requiring clear consent and stopping abuse.

i. We allow consensual adult sexual content, including fictional depictions, when appropriately labeled and subject to appropriate age restrictions.

ii. We do not allow sexual content involving non- consensual activity including synthetic, simulated, illustrated, or animated versions.
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date and saito are constantly having sex just off screen but none of it can be shown for plot reasons. i had to make an ao3 skin and then reformat a bunch of writing for the ao3 skin. you can read it now. for free (which is like a hotel saying 'we have beds' to imply other hotels don't have beds)
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my aitsf fic is done archiveofourown.org/works/519182... you should read it. 3k word post-annihilation saito/ryuki smut fic with an additional 60k words of ???. fingers are put in eyesockets. i use every POV __ person tag. mizuki is there. aiba is also there. it's a good time.
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aitsf spoilers nsfkd spoilers boy the compression sucks on that. is this any better
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( aitsf spoilers + nsfkd spoilers )
i hope this reaches you
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the implication with the exclusion category including. Dangerous Stunts. have to make sure that your drawing of blorbo doing a backflip and eating shit isn't glorifying harm
part from the bluesky community guidelines reading "(for example, do not post content that) Promotes Self-Harm or Unsafe Behavior: Shares methods or encouragement for self-harm, eating disorders, or dangerous stunts."
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well that's probably fine. you know me i love not glorifying harm. and my opinion on the things still hard banned are that they're illegal where i live and i love following the laws of my beautiful country
part from the bluesky community guidelines reading "(these rules do not prevent you from posting) Artistic, Fictional, and Historical Expression: Depictions of violence or sensitive topics in fiction, art, or historical documentation—if appropriately labeled and not glorifying harm."
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sl- *COUGH* slow da- *COUGH HACK SPLUTTER* sorry something stuck in my throat. here's darumi amemiya's list of eroge recs and i trust her with my life
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Murdering! [INCREDIBLY LOUD INCORRECT BUZZER]
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So Close to Kissing: How About M*******g A Girl In A Bus Full Of People?
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"panta you should be posting on bluesky the day before twitter and not the other way around" maybe bluesky should try being a good website. change starts with you
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and one process test in question. look at him. thank you
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hundred line spoilers (route 0), eitaku

very stupid post i'm not going to do anything else with because i used all my energy for it process-testing so i am posting it before i lose it in my files
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rysdt.straw.page finally bothered to put a link to this site on my strawpage (loud sigh)
three buttons, the first one is 'twitter (18+)' with a trash can icon, the second is 'bluesky' with a twitter bird icon, and the third is 'tumblr' with a tumblr T icon
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( hundred line ) the majority of humanity is completely rotten! the smell is terrible, so let's throw them all away