ooooo ive been thinking about getting these whenever i can afford em, wondering how exactly you went wrong measuring so i can try to avoid making the same mistake hehe

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and i feel you on the big picture organization thing, i know a couple vrc clubs that schedule their lineups based on the DJs and their individual styles/energy levels/etc and it REALLY makes a difference to the mood of an event and the longevity of the audience

well thank you, and hopefully you're right! i try not to forget the times that ppl mention specific things they liked in my sets since pointing to a specific detail or smtn means much more to me than just saying "nice set" but you're right i can't rly expect most ppl to have such firsthand knowledge

yeah i very much agree, for a little while i used to be really obsessed with playing The Perfect Set, like i would plan out every single transition beforehand, but ive since learned that it's much more fun (for me at least) to try to trust my own skills and i think ppl can hear it in the end product

thanks for reading, if you did. im genuinely curious how you feel on this, so please drop a reply or two. i think im in a bit of a weird time in my life and im somewhat aimless/listless rn, but things seem to be turning around for me soon (don't wanna jinx it talking too early tho). ok bye ❤️ 12/end

my next set is on the 22nd and i hope to be able to see the light in a sense. hope that it helps me figure out what it is that i actually care about and whether it's worth caring about. and i hope you'll be there for it, bc at the end of the day, i do vainly care about having an audience, teehee 11/

at least that's the sense i get when ppl talk about shelter, like they listen in a different way than they usually do - they listen to it the way i listen to everything!!! but like i said earlier, im just beating myself up, im wasting energy fretting over this instead of doing smtn im proud of. 10/

but that's the reason ive wanted to play at shelter so badly for so long. it's not for clout or to prove something, it's because i feel like it's one of the few places in vrchat that you *know for sure* almost the whole audience is actually listening, actively, critically. there, ppl give a shit. 9/

really, there's the crux of my problems: why do i care whether other people care as much as i do? i guess i feel like my work has less value if other people don't appreciate it in whatever way i do - im honestly not sure if that's valid or stupid, but either way, it's just me beating myself up. 8/

are people just here to listen to some fun music and they'll forget a transition 5 seconds after it's over? does the average DJ just not really give a shit about that kind of thing creatively/artistically? if so, am i the stupid one here for treating beer pong like an olympic sport??? 7/

like i think there's only a few ppl who listen to my sets as critically as i listen to others. eg i think that each transition says something about yourself creatively. you can interrogate how you think about music in general from the way you mix the music you love. am i way overthinking things?? 6/

realistically i know that im good at what i do and ppl generally like my sets. but i guess im having a crisis of confidence: im not sure if what i value about djing is what other people value; does anyone care about my work the same way i do; does that even matter in the first place, etc etc. 5/

a close friend i talked about this with told me to think about the reasons why im djing in the first place, saying that he thinks i have forgotten. and i think i agree with that. i feel like i have something to prove with every set i play, which is just setting myself up for failure. 4/

that will come to pass and ill be okay in the long run, i just feel like shit for now. but emotionally i feel like the last few months have been a low point in my dj career too, playing some of my worst work to date in front of many, while also having few eyes on what i am actually proud of. 3/

on top of that i recently had a medical issue i had to go to the hospital for (im fine dw!!), and im now having to go to the doctor every other day to have a pretty painful procedure done for the next like month at least. so im just in pain like all the time now which is awesome (really im fine) 2/

vdj keeps its own external database/metadata someplace in your user folder but apparently rekordbox shoves some amount of data into the music files themselves during analysis, to the point vdj no longer recognizes them at all even tho the filename and path haven't changed