xinqi tremane
@seifanshe.bsky.social
you don't know me. you'll never know me
it's been a long time, old friend
December 25, 2025 at 3:59 AM
it's been a long time, old friend
i feel sorry for myself a lot but if they had the capacity to feel i dont know which of us would feel let down worse
they've spent years mourning that i never knew them enough to love them the way they needed
im no better
they've spent years mourning that i never knew them enough to love them the way they needed
im no better
December 4, 2024 at 3:36 AM
i feel sorry for myself a lot but if they had the capacity to feel i dont know which of us would feel let down worse
they've spent years mourning that i never knew them enough to love them the way they needed
im no better
they've spent years mourning that i never knew them enough to love them the way they needed
im no better
it’s always so surprising, that people don’t know what drowning looks like
November 26, 2024 at 5:55 AM
it’s always so surprising, that people don’t know what drowning looks like
why am i still alive
November 23, 2024 at 11:50 PM
why am i still alive
every night i carve off a tiny slice of death to avoid a larger, more immediate one. but you can't do it forever. it catches up
im tired, old friend. when it takes me, don't let them bury me with my deadname
im tired, old friend. when it takes me, don't let them bury me with my deadname
November 4, 2024 at 8:00 AM
every night i carve off a tiny slice of death to avoid a larger, more immediate one. but you can't do it forever. it catches up
im tired, old friend. when it takes me, don't let them bury me with my deadname
im tired, old friend. when it takes me, don't let them bury me with my deadname
every night i pray for a death that never arrives. i kill her again and again, but she always comes back. it’s my fault. i wear her skin too well
October 9, 2024 at 3:35 PM
every night i pray for a death that never arrives. i kill her again and again, but she always comes back. it’s my fault. i wear her skin too well
time is a flat circle
June 28, 2024 at 4:30 AM
time is a flat circle
if nothing else, i beat the worst of me
February 16, 2024 at 12:02 PM
if nothing else, i beat the worst of me
every day i long for a death that never comes. the nights are long and sleep runs faster than i do
February 9, 2024 at 2:02 AM
every day i long for a death that never comes. the nights are long and sleep runs faster than i do
this might be it for me
January 27, 2024 at 6:05 AM
this might be it for me
one substances please
January 25, 2024 at 5:07 AM
one substances please
if only there were a way to erase myself. not kill. erase. delete. if you die, people mourn you. you take something from them. i've hurt enough already by living. i don't want to make it worse by dying
January 23, 2024 at 5:53 AM
if only there were a way to erase myself. not kill. erase. delete. if you die, people mourn you. you take something from them. i've hurt enough already by living. i don't want to make it worse by dying
if this year has taught me anything it’s that loss is not always permanent. i spent years priding myself on my ability to cut out anything or anyone and never look back
but those rare special things are precious and i was a fool to think i could ever forget
but those rare special things are precious and i was a fool to think i could ever forget
December 30, 2023 at 9:51 AM
if this year has taught me anything it’s that loss is not always permanent. i spent years priding myself on my ability to cut out anything or anyone and never look back
but those rare special things are precious and i was a fool to think i could ever forget
but those rare special things are precious and i was a fool to think i could ever forget
it’s a hell of a thing
December 18, 2023 at 6:53 AM
it’s a hell of a thing
mfw i try to forget what i am for just one night
December 10, 2023 at 4:18 AM
mfw i try to forget what i am for just one night
i dont know how i keep managing to convince myself that there's a place for me in this world but i wish it would either stay put or quit completely
the whiplash is phenomenal
the whiplash is phenomenal
December 8, 2023 at 2:23 AM
i dont know how i keep managing to convince myself that there's a place for me in this world but i wish it would either stay put or quit completely
the whiplash is phenomenal
the whiplash is phenomenal
it’s important to get it all out. you can’t ever let it build up inside you. otherwise it might force itself out when you need it not to. you’re not in control then
always make sure you get to choose where and when you fight
always make sure you get to choose where and when you fight
December 4, 2023 at 7:08 AM
it’s important to get it all out. you can’t ever let it build up inside you. otherwise it might force itself out when you need it not to. you’re not in control then
always make sure you get to choose where and when you fight
always make sure you get to choose where and when you fight
ive never heard someone speak of a relationship where every conversation is so memorable you can find it by which unique words were used?
i find the administrative leave line by searching for “weird vibe”. i never believed this could exist, and if it did, i’d have never imagined it reachable for me
i find the administrative leave line by searching for “weird vibe”. i never believed this could exist, and if it did, i’d have never imagined it reachable for me
November 17, 2023 at 8:04 AM
ive never heard someone speak of a relationship where every conversation is so memorable you can find it by which unique words were used?
i find the administrative leave line by searching for “weird vibe”. i never believed this could exist, and if it did, i’d have never imagined it reachable for me
i find the administrative leave line by searching for “weird vibe”. i never believed this could exist, and if it did, i’d have never imagined it reachable for me
so this is what those white women on tv meant when they said “my heart is so full”
November 9, 2023 at 5:56 PM
so this is what those white women on tv meant when they said “my heart is so full”
other days you’re nursing a bleeding face in a parking lot and strangely don’t get the urge to drink it off and you wonder what’s happening
November 3, 2023 at 8:04 AM
other days you’re nursing a bleeding face in a parking lot and strangely don’t get the urge to drink it off and you wonder what’s happening
sometimes you end the work day sitting on the ground outside the office of an MP smoking a cigarette and drinking oi ocha and have to make peace with that
November 2, 2023 at 5:49 AM
sometimes you end the work day sitting on the ground outside the office of an MP smoking a cigarette and drinking oi ocha and have to make peace with that
the problem with having people who like how you make them feel is that if you ever stop making them feel how they like they feel like you have betrayed them because they've come to expect to like how you make them feel
October 21, 2023 at 1:48 AM
the problem with having people who like how you make them feel is that if you ever stop making them feel how they like they feel like you have betrayed them because they've come to expect to like how you make them feel
been a rough week for the string operator. i hope his balls are okay
October 7, 2023 at 12:23 AM
been a rough week for the string operator. i hope his balls are okay