These are two ideas that can and should coexist and I’m going to need some of my other privileged blue state white people to think about these things and stop pouring all their energy into hand-wringing over whether or not leftists are buying firearms so that they can do something actually useful.

What I want to say really is thank you for those people who DID make me feel welcome. I appreciated you so much ♥️

To clarify, I know that I’m likable and that I didn’t do anything wrong, but at the time it triggered my RSD real bad and I blamed myself. What I’ve learned since is that no one is immune to weird in-group clique mentality, even other ND weirdos. But I’m afraid to take part in fandom again.

Like, am I too ND for this apparently inclusive fandom? Is it because I stopped enjoying the popular fics? Am I just really unlikeable?

And then after the second season came out and I didn’t like it I might as well have had the plague, and now I just don’t really do fandom anymore.

I’ve met some wonderful and kind people through that fandom but overall the meetups I went to no one really talked with or engaged with me, including the friend who brought me there who has since just stopped talking to me without explanation, and I just felt even more like a friendless ND weirdo?

That being said I still absolutely follow OFMD people and am always glad to see you all!

(You won’t really see me post about OFMD either, if that’s why you followed me originally. Sorry to say the things I loved about season one are far outweighed by what I hated and what distressed me about season two and the way the fandom started treating people gave me the ick.)

You won’t see me much anymore because honestly life is so good I don’t feel the need to escape to the internet?

But I still pop on now and then!

Quokkas are cool!