For Loki, Kesha, & Frodo. For my best friends. For my sweet niece and nephews. For her. Because I have to keep her alive in my heart. Because as long as I am here, a part of her still walks this Earth and I will not deprive the world of her anymore than death already has.

It’s been nearly one year since we lost her. And I still dream that she’s alive. And I still cry when I wake up and remember she’s gone. I miss her so damn much, it’s ripping me apart from the inside out. There’s a hole in my chest and I can’t breathe. I’m drowning. But I continue on. For my dad.

I started at 10:30 am and didn’t stop until 4:00 pm. Why? Because I had a dream that my mom was alive and was disappointed that the house was so dirty. Because I knew she’d be disappointed in the state that our house was in. So I cleaned for her. Because we’re coming up on a year since she passed.

Also, Kristine is a fucking psychopath. She adopted Natalia because she wanted to control her to keep up her “super-mom” image. She wanted Natalia to obey every word she said, and when Natalia didn’t bow to her whim, she invented lies and had Natalia legally re-aged.

Oops made an appointment next week