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@softeraffections.bsky.social
me
🏳️⚧️ she/her, 22
⚠️unserious/fantasy
🏳️⚧️ she/her, 22
⚠️unserious/fantasy
run to the hills
it’s just depression it’ll pass
and i’ll be back up and running
and i’ll be back up and running
January 16, 2026 at 6:00 PM
run to the hills
it’s just depression it’ll pass
and i’ll be back up and running
and i’ll be back up and running
January 16, 2026 at 4:02 AM
it’s just depression it’ll pass
and i’ll be back up and running
and i’ll be back up and running
i was making a joke about babe don’t get ragebaited online you’re supposed to top me
and then thought where i got that bit from
…
it was myself lol
source: ME
and then thought where i got that bit from
…
it was myself lol
source: ME
babe, please don’t fall for the ragebait, i know it makes you all flustered but you should focus that energy in topping me
January 15, 2026 at 9:28 AM
i was making a joke about babe don’t get ragebaited online you’re supposed to top me
and then thought where i got that bit from
…
it was myself lol
source: ME
and then thought where i got that bit from
…
it was myself lol
source: ME
rena doing things
river thinking things
faith, not really existing much
river thinking things
faith, not really existing much
January 14, 2026 at 10:06 AM
rena doing things
river thinking things
faith, not really existing much
river thinking things
faith, not really existing much
the boost between in being in person in lecture and being on vyvanse is so good fuck
January 13, 2026 at 10:10 PM
the boost between in being in person in lecture and being on vyvanse is so good fuck
i used to heuristics max, push aside the thought because it was frustrating, and just hope it made sense
now it make sense again holy
now it make sense again holy
day 1 lecture classes with vyvanse is actually so crazy
like i can actually think through it without my brain becoming too frustrated and giving
given i still get nausea sometimes
like i can actually think through it without my brain becoming too frustrated and giving
given i still get nausea sometimes
January 13, 2026 at 10:08 PM
i used to heuristics max, push aside the thought because it was frustrating, and just hope it made sense
now it make sense again holy
now it make sense again holy
day 1 lecture classes with vyvanse is actually so crazy
like i can actually think through it without my brain becoming too frustrated and giving
given i still get nausea sometimes
like i can actually think through it without my brain becoming too frustrated and giving
given i still get nausea sometimes
January 13, 2026 at 10:06 PM
day 1 lecture classes with vyvanse is actually so crazy
like i can actually think through it without my brain becoming too frustrated and giving
given i still get nausea sometimes
like i can actually think through it without my brain becoming too frustrated and giving
given i still get nausea sometimes
this video essay has so much rot holy
January 12, 2026 at 5:08 AM
this video essay has so much rot holy
because i don’t really know what i want
or who i am
plurality solidifies the boundaries of my identity and gives a reference whenever i’m hit with a wave of amnesia when someone asks who are you and what interests you
…
i cried during my career consultation
or who i am
plurality solidifies the boundaries of my identity and gives a reference whenever i’m hit with a wave of amnesia when someone asks who are you and what interests you
…
i cried during my career consultation
i struggle with clothes as people do
i think plurality can serve as a way to help organize the thinking around what clothes to buy
like this friend in my head like these sort of clothes so maybe i should get it and dress them in it
and less of the paralyzing thinking of, is this truly what i want
i think plurality can serve as a way to help organize the thinking around what clothes to buy
like this friend in my head like these sort of clothes so maybe i should get it and dress them in it
and less of the paralyzing thinking of, is this truly what i want
January 11, 2026 at 11:20 PM
because i don’t really know what i want
or who i am
plurality solidifies the boundaries of my identity and gives a reference whenever i’m hit with a wave of amnesia when someone asks who are you and what interests you
…
i cried during my career consultation
or who i am
plurality solidifies the boundaries of my identity and gives a reference whenever i’m hit with a wave of amnesia when someone asks who are you and what interests you
…
i cried during my career consultation
i struggle with clothes as people do
i think plurality can serve as a way to help organize the thinking around what clothes to buy
like this friend in my head like these sort of clothes so maybe i should get it and dress them in it
and less of the paralyzing thinking of, is this truly what i want
i think plurality can serve as a way to help organize the thinking around what clothes to buy
like this friend in my head like these sort of clothes so maybe i should get it and dress them in it
and less of the paralyzing thinking of, is this truly what i want
January 11, 2026 at 11:18 PM
i struggle with clothes as people do
i think plurality can serve as a way to help organize the thinking around what clothes to buy
like this friend in my head like these sort of clothes so maybe i should get it and dress them in it
and less of the paralyzing thinking of, is this truly what i want
i think plurality can serve as a way to help organize the thinking around what clothes to buy
like this friend in my head like these sort of clothes so maybe i should get it and dress them in it
and less of the paralyzing thinking of, is this truly what i want
river has some internal stuff to work out
and rena is a bit crippled by the sub nature of faith
and rena is a bit crippled by the sub nature of faith
January 11, 2026 at 10:46 AM
river has some internal stuff to work out
and rena is a bit crippled by the sub nature of faith
and rena is a bit crippled by the sub nature of faith
gosh, two of faith’s favorite people simultaneously
January 11, 2026 at 10:39 AM
gosh, two of faith’s favorite people simultaneously
peaceful happiness
so content
January 10, 2026 at 11:02 PM
peaceful happiness
gosh i wanna click my heels
January 10, 2026 at 9:59 PM
gosh i wanna click my heels
so good, it’s so good hehehe
January 10, 2026 at 9:59 PM
so good, it’s so good hehehe
pink jacket and a cross necklace?
hell yea
hell yea
January 9, 2026 at 11:45 PM
pink jacket and a cross necklace?
hell yea
hell yea
i want to better navigate my sexuality between others
January 9, 2026 at 9:03 PM
i want to better navigate my sexuality between others
a lot of sexual violence, and i realize my ‘affinity’ towards desperation themes was my brain partly pattern matching to that sexual script
i want to reduce how hot it feels to me towards the idea of someone being forceful with me
i want to better find arousal elsewhere
i want to reduce how hot it feels to me towards the idea of someone being forceful with me
i want to better find arousal elsewhere
gosh, wrapping my head around sexual attraction and arousal and my sexual development history
my life was so harmed by porn growing up, my negative relationship to it
my life was so harmed by porn growing up, my negative relationship to it
January 9, 2026 at 9:01 PM
a lot of sexual violence, and i realize my ‘affinity’ towards desperation themes was my brain partly pattern matching to that sexual script
i want to reduce how hot it feels to me towards the idea of someone being forceful with me
i want to better find arousal elsewhere
i want to reduce how hot it feels to me towards the idea of someone being forceful with me
i want to better find arousal elsewhere
gosh, wrapping my head around sexual attraction and arousal and my sexual development history
my life was so harmed by porn growing up, my negative relationship to it
my life was so harmed by porn growing up, my negative relationship to it
January 9, 2026 at 8:56 PM
gosh, wrapping my head around sexual attraction and arousal and my sexual development history
my life was so harmed by porn growing up, my negative relationship to it
my life was so harmed by porn growing up, my negative relationship to it
i had a dream where i was cuddling someone but they woke me up to ask me to grab some water and i was like sure so i got up in real life and grabbed my cup of water and put it on the table next to my bed before going back to sleep
then thought about my plurality
then thought about my plurality
January 9, 2026 at 5:36 PM
i had a dream where i was cuddling someone but they woke me up to ask me to grab some water and i was like sure so i got up in real life and grabbed my cup of water and put it on the table next to my bed before going back to sleep
then thought about my plurality
then thought about my plurality
i tried green before 3 years ago but i was pretty dysphoric back then
i do like office modest vibes but that’s for work and more formal
on the casual end, something brown and rugged(?) and whatever cool appeals in the moment
mmm
i do like office modest vibes but that’s for work and more formal
on the casual end, something brown and rugged(?) and whatever cool appeals in the moment
mmm
January 9, 2026 at 8:26 AM
i tried green before 3 years ago but i was pretty dysphoric back then
i do like office modest vibes but that’s for work and more formal
on the casual end, something brown and rugged(?) and whatever cool appeals in the moment
mmm
i do like office modest vibes but that’s for work and more formal
on the casual end, something brown and rugged(?) and whatever cool appeals in the moment
mmm
previously it was dress to appeal to people, to appear desirable and sometimes submissive so people want me
fit into some culture that attracts people
how is it that i want to dress?
fit into some culture that attracts people
how is it that i want to dress?
January 9, 2026 at 8:24 AM
previously it was dress to appeal to people, to appear desirable and sometimes submissive so people want me
fit into some culture that attracts people
how is it that i want to dress?
fit into some culture that attracts people
how is it that i want to dress?