SoullessSolace
@soullesssolace.bsky.social
Ash
He/him
🇳🇿Kiwi🇳🇿
22
🌪️ I'll probably a lot about whatever is causing the most problems at the time🌪️
He/him
🇳🇿Kiwi🇳🇿
22
🌪️ I'll probably a lot about whatever is causing the most problems at the time🌪️
I forgot how weird it is staring at a screen for hours straight. And how monotonous my job gets at times. I almost want to go on the phones just to get some variety... Almost
January 14, 2026 at 1:19 AM
I forgot how weird it is staring at a screen for hours straight. And how monotonous my job gets at times. I almost want to go on the phones just to get some variety... Almost
Grandma said she was concerned about me spending so much time in my room alone. I explained that I'm just still adjusting to being back and in a couple weeks I should be a bit more social once my energy is more balanced.
January 13, 2026 at 5:43 PM
Grandma said she was concerned about me spending so much time in my room alone. I explained that I'm just still adjusting to being back and in a couple weeks I should be a bit more social once my energy is more balanced.
I fell asleep fully dressed, hearing aids still in and everything. Oops
January 13, 2026 at 5:14 PM
I fell asleep fully dressed, hearing aids still in and everything. Oops
The pharmacy sent me a text to call them about my latest prescription. They just wanted to check if I wanted it blister packed and when I needed it by. They're gonna send me a text when it's ready. I really appreciate that they communicate stuff rather than me getting there and it not being done
January 12, 2026 at 10:50 PM
The pharmacy sent me a text to call them about my latest prescription. They just wanted to check if I wanted it blister packed and when I needed it by. They're gonna send me a text when it's ready. I really appreciate that they communicate stuff rather than me getting there and it not being done
Some people have the stupidest excuses. "I'm a pilot (what does that have to do with anything ?) so I'm very disciplined, I couldn't have gotten an infringement". Well you did, now pay up.
It's pretty rare to hear a valid excuse that's reason enough to waive an infringement. You broke the law so..
It's pretty rare to hear a valid excuse that's reason enough to waive an infringement. You broke the law so..
January 12, 2026 at 8:46 PM
Some people have the stupidest excuses. "I'm a pilot (what does that have to do with anything ?) so I'm very disciplined, I couldn't have gotten an infringement". Well you did, now pay up.
It's pretty rare to hear a valid excuse that's reason enough to waive an infringement. You broke the law so..
It's pretty rare to hear a valid excuse that's reason enough to waive an infringement. You broke the law so..
TIL that a magic 8 ball basically just has a D20 inside. I don't know what I thought it was, but I had no idea until just now
January 12, 2026 at 9:24 AM
TIL that a magic 8 ball basically just has a D20 inside. I don't know what I thought it was, but I had no idea until just now
I have hundreds, if not thousands, of scars. Most of them are from self harm. I'm not proud of them but I'm learning to be less self conscious about them. That's another thing I learnt in rehab. I'm slowly getting more comfortable with not hiding them all the time.
January 12, 2026 at 8:33 AM
I have hundreds, if not thousands, of scars. Most of them are from self harm. I'm not proud of them but I'm learning to be less self conscious about them. That's another thing I learnt in rehab. I'm slowly getting more comfortable with not hiding them all the time.
I am fucking exhausted now tho. I didn't fall asleep until after 1 am and going back to working full time after being away for 2 months is a lot.
January 12, 2026 at 6:25 AM
I am fucking exhausted now tho. I didn't fall asleep until after 1 am and going back to working full time after being away for 2 months is a lot.
Since getting back from rehab, everyone is commenting on how much healthier I look. I didn't really think I looked unhealthy before, but I do feel much healthier and more clear headed without the codeine and alcohol. So it's pretty cool that people are seeing a difference
January 12, 2026 at 6:18 AM
Since getting back from rehab, everyone is commenting on how much healthier I look. I didn't really think I looked unhealthy before, but I do feel much healthier and more clear headed without the codeine and alcohol. So it's pretty cool that people are seeing a difference
Work is actually going pretty well so far, touch wood. This morning was basically just catching up on things I missed and reactivating stuff and resetting passwords. But everything seems to be mostly sorted now
January 12, 2026 at 1:45 AM
Work is actually going pretty well so far, touch wood. This morning was basically just catching up on things I missed and reactivating stuff and resetting passwords. But everything seems to be mostly sorted now
I'm getting back into the swing of things at work. Not looking forward to going back on the phones given that I don't remember half the stuff customers ask about. But I've refamiliarized myself with verifications already. Hopefully I'm not fucking them up. I'll find out eventually.
January 12, 2026 at 1:42 AM
I'm getting back into the swing of things at work. Not looking forward to going back on the phones given that I don't remember half the stuff customers ask about. But I've refamiliarized myself with verifications already. Hopefully I'm not fucking them up. I'll find out eventually.
My team leader had a catch up with me to give me a rundown on what I've missed and see if there's anything I need to help me settle back in. It sounds like not too much has changed at least, aside from a bunch of processes which I'll read through.
January 11, 2026 at 9:31 PM
My team leader had a catch up with me to give me a rundown on what I've missed and see if there's anything I need to help me settle back in. It sounds like not too much has changed at least, aside from a bunch of processes which I'll read through.
I fell asleep at 1am because I just couldn't sleep. But I'm not feeling too shabby. I'm off to work and my anxiety isn't quite as bad as it was last night. I got chatting to someone at the bus stop which helped get my mind off it
January 11, 2026 at 7:23 PM
I fell asleep at 1am because I just couldn't sleep. But I'm not feeling too shabby. I'm off to work and my anxiety isn't quite as bad as it was last night. I got chatting to someone at the bus stop which helped get my mind off it
I'm going back to work tomorrow morning and I'm getting really anxious now. I'm currently fighting off an anxiety attack. Coffee, music, crochet and just breathing.
January 11, 2026 at 8:31 AM
I'm going back to work tomorrow morning and I'm getting really anxious now. I'm currently fighting off an anxiety attack. Coffee, music, crochet and just breathing.
It was so nice to wake up next to my boyfriend this morning
January 11, 2026 at 5:48 AM
It was so nice to wake up next to my boyfriend this morning
I like watching my boyfriend play games on his Nintendo Switch. I suck at games so I don't get as much enjoyment when I'm so bad at them. But I like how excited he gets when he plays games. It's adorable
January 11, 2026 at 3:24 AM
I like watching my boyfriend play games on his Nintendo Switch. I suck at games so I don't get as much enjoyment when I'm so bad at them. But I like how excited he gets when he plays games. It's adorable
Apparently my boyfriend's flatmate has a crush on me and she thinks he should break up with me so she can date me... Not happening.
It is a little bit of an ego boost tho... Is that bad?
It is a little bit of an ego boost tho... Is that bad?
January 11, 2026 at 3:23 AM
Apparently my boyfriend's flatmate has a crush on me and she thinks he should break up with me so she can date me... Not happening.
It is a little bit of an ego boost tho... Is that bad?
It is a little bit of an ego boost tho... Is that bad?
I gave my boyfriend a bunch of spare crochet hooks and stitch markers and some yarn to practice with. I also gave him a couple of the books I learnt to crochet from, that came with the crochet kits I bought. I have a lot of crochet stuff, so I have plenty to share with him.
January 9, 2026 at 11:27 PM
I gave my boyfriend a bunch of spare crochet hooks and stitch markers and some yarn to practice with. I also gave him a couple of the books I learnt to crochet from, that came with the crochet kits I bought. I have a lot of crochet stuff, so I have plenty to share with him.
I should probably go to the NA meeting tonight. It's in 45 minutes and I'm nearly 30 minutes away by car so I need to decide real soon...
January 9, 2026 at 5:17 AM
I should probably go to the NA meeting tonight. It's in 45 minutes and I'm nearly 30 minutes away by car so I need to decide real soon...
I'm feeling really anxious right now. I want to drink. But I'm going to try to calm down. Because I need to stay sober
January 9, 2026 at 5:07 AM
I'm feeling really anxious right now. I want to drink. But I'm going to try to calm down. Because I need to stay sober
One of Grandma's friends asked what I learned at my course. I just said it was about self improvement. It's technically true. I was at rehab tho. I'm okay with telling people, but if grandma told her friend I was on a course, that's fine too. Not everyone needs to know
January 9, 2026 at 1:29 AM
One of Grandma's friends asked what I learned at my course. I just said it was about self improvement. It's technically true. I was at rehab tho. I'm okay with telling people, but if grandma told her friend I was on a course, that's fine too. Not everyone needs to know
T called me just before because F said something concerning and stopped responding. So I flicked F a "how are you doing" message. Hopefully she responds.
January 8, 2026 at 5:19 AM
T called me just before because F said something concerning and stopped responding. So I flicked F a "how are you doing" message. Hopefully she responds.
I'm teaching my boyfriend to crochet lol. He's doing pretty well so far, he's practicing his chain stitches and then I'll teach him single crochets so he can start making stuffed animals. Oh and decreases.
January 8, 2026 at 3:17 AM
I'm teaching my boyfriend to crochet lol. He's doing pretty well so far, he's practicing his chain stitches and then I'll teach him single crochets so he can start making stuffed animals. Oh and decreases.
I'm in a pretty good place right now, but I need to remember that I'll only continue to be in a good place if I stay sober and actually do the things I need to, to keep my recovery going
January 7, 2026 at 10:19 PM
I'm in a pretty good place right now, but I need to remember that I'll only continue to be in a good place if I stay sober and actually do the things I need to, to keep my recovery going
I also finished the back of the cardigan I'm crocheting.
January 7, 2026 at 9:56 AM
I also finished the back of the cardigan I'm crocheting.