I didn't think I was doing as well as I actually am. I'm the top of my team in everything and my boss wants to get more positive stuff on paper for remuneration discussions so I can be appropriately rewarded in my pay. I didn't realize how much positive feedback he actually gets about me.

My dad on the other hand... I don't think I'll ever forgive him for being abusive, unreliable, in and out of my life. Nothing has changed there and he still refuses to take responsibility for anything. I still have good memories with him as a kid, but I hate his guts. I hate him.

Our relationship is still a bit awkward, but I know she loves me and she regrets what happened. She wants to make things right and rebuild.

That's very true. I can absolutely see him coming across as an asshole to some people. But he and I vibe pretty well and have a similar dark sense of humor. Mind you, I try to be a bit mindful of who I'm around.

It doesn't help that my knee hurts

I found it kinda funny and that's the sort of joke I've learnt to expect from him. So it's a good. I joke that I must've done something bad in my past life, I just left out the names

Grandma just came in and asked me flat out what's going on with me lately. I guess it's pretty obvious that something is going on. I lied and said I've just been really tired lately. I don't think she believed me...

I'm seeing my AOD clinician on Monday. I need to be honest with her but I know she'll be disappointed. And the next step is going to a longer rehab (6-18 months) and I'm not ready for that. It was hard enough putting my whole life on hold for 2 months.

It's hard to be there for someone who isn't ready to accept help. I hope she accepts help soon because it must be really hard on you and the rest of your family. 🫂

If you ever want to talk, my DMs are always open 🫂

I remember bananas in pajamas from when I was a kid, but by that point, they were animated lol. I was born in '03 tho

Either I'm actually one of those people who needs 8 hours of sleep every night, or everything is catching up with me now.

When I was manic, I could go 72-96 hours without sleep and not be tired. By the 3rd day I was hallucinating and dissociating a lot tho and having micro sleeps.

I don't like phone calls much, but they've gone pretty smoothly today. There was only one person I couldn't help because she wasn't the registered person and she was disappointed but nice