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Vanyel

@subservientashes.bsky.social

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was vent user subservientashes 2017 - 2024 ◇ nonbinary, transmasc inter-dimensional alien creature they/them, 22 y/o, autism + adhd victim ◇ Kins: • Vanyel Ashkevron (past life, selfhood) • (a new, secret one) (past life) • Saeran Choi (past life)

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Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · Aug 5

some recent Vanyel drawings I did that I liked :) not canon Vanyel, more like a headcanon I use for more modern settings
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#vanyelashkevron #lastheraldmage

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Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 1d

AHAHDVJSHS

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 1d

damn right 🥺💞

Ashley Lynch ✂️🎞️ @ashleylynch.bsky.social · 2d

Any trans person who begins their transition today is exhibiting more courage than most people will in their entire lives.

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 1d

call me a transaction because I do be acting trans

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Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 2d

aaaggh I hate when that happens 😭😭 like they can't even bother to answer or put you on hold?? cringe

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 2d

dude that's so stupid lmao??? they really just didn't care

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Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 2d

also had hormone appt today and we upped my dose so that's cool

once again she was very surprised at how deep my voice has gotten heheheh

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 2d

at least i did it though!! that's good!!
was awkward bc I'm literally the stereotype of someone being clueless abt cars . so I'm a mess lol ,, but I did it !! did the scary thing!

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 2d

ok worst case scenario happened and I need a new tire ,, oh well ig

feel really bad though bc my bf has to drive me to work tonight 😭

not that he minds at all but I hate being an inconvenience ,, also hate my routine changing,, but car should be done tomorrow

I have a stress headache 😭

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Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 2d

ughhhh scheduled to get my tire fixed tomorrow but an hour before my doctor appointment arrggdhdh

already anxious bc idk what I'm doing ive never even been to a mechanic idk what to do or say??? 😭😭
its like the one thing I still really struggle with, really wish my bf would do it 😔😔

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 3d

ive never had a hole in one of my socks before .

until today .

I'M A REAL BOY !!!

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 3d

just gonna try to relax today ,, rainy days are good for relaxing.

going to play rimworld,
I made my 3 characters after the characters in the book series im reading so its fun lol

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 3d

as a result i have now scheduled the car appt an hour before my doctor appt tomorrow 😎✌️

it's just a tire fix tho surely it shouldn't take long, even if it's worst case scenario .

right?? I have no idea i don't evem know what a car is

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 4d

man I'm so sorry!! mine did stop when I first started T, then I had them but very light,, now it's definitely heavier this month for some reason. very annoying. and I'm way more irritated the days before it starts too 😭😭

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Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 4d

(not really suffering i love being on T but yk what I mean)

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Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 4d

dude thats it . I have such a thing for eyebrows and I didn't even notice his bUT THATS WHAT IT IS and the hair

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 4d

other people hate trans people so much,, when the only one suffering here is me!!! to my own choices!!! lmao!

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Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 4d

having a period while on T is the worst because every symptom is dialed up even more .

I'm hungry , I'm angry , I'm horny , I'm tired , ALL AT ONCE

best of both worlds?? no... worst of both worlds... 😔🙏

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Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 4d

doesn't help that I have a huge priest fetish (that's a secret shhh)

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 4d

watching midnight mass but all I can focus on is how gorgeous this man is, jesus christ .

testosterone you gotta stop ,,

feeling like a vampire resisting the thirst lmao-

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Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 5d

I don't even know why I kin this character

I am nothing like him in any way

but the world feels so familiar , memories are so familiar , story is familiar , I knew what would happen

the character is revolting and I am nothing like him , yet I slip into his mind so easily, the memories are my own

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 5d

reading a book with a character i kin literally feels like slipping back into their skin ,
weird analogy but it's so familiar,,
like a key fitting into a lock
it just feels, right
familiar
comfortable
me

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 5d

what's wrong? :(

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 5d

okay I'm sorry I started off sewing on the buttons but it takes so long I literally can't 😭 changing to hot glue ,,

I don't know who I'm apologizing to but I feel like I have to 🤣

sewing looks and feels nicer but it takes so long it's not even fun 😭

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 6d

what omg thank you ?!?!?!? 😭😭😭 but but yes - if you like yourself that's all that matters!!! 😎✨️

Vanyel @subservientashes.bsky.social · 6d

this is why I can't go grocery shopping 😔