Vanyel
@subservientashes.bsky.social
was vent user subservientashes 2017-2024
nonbinary, transmasc
inter-dimensional god
they/them, 23 y/o, autism + adhd victim
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Kins:
• Vanyel Ashkevron (past life, selfhood)
• Reaver Merrick-Dekker (past life, selfhood)
• Saeran Choi (past life)
nonbinary, transmasc
inter-dimensional god
they/them, 23 y/o, autism + adhd victim
◇
Kins:
• Vanyel Ashkevron (past life, selfhood)
• Reaver Merrick-Dekker (past life, selfhood)
• Saeran Choi (past life)
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Vanyel
@subservientashes.bsky.social
· Nov 6
MY CXMMISSION IS DONE MY CXMMISSION IS DONE YESSS YESS YIPPEEE
this is my character Lyricide!!!
I'M IN LOVE WITH IT , THE VIBE IS PERFECT . THANK YOU @entzuendung.bsky.social
please check out their art it's gorgeous and freaky and ethereal and !!!!! so fucking cool!!!!
this is my character Lyricide!!!
I'M IN LOVE WITH IT , THE VIBE IS PERFECT . THANK YOU @entzuendung.bsky.social
please check out their art it's gorgeous and freaky and ethereal and !!!!! so fucking cool!!!!
also sorry I haven't been posting ive been so bad at time management lately im sorry 🙏🙏🙏
January 13, 2026 at 6:37 PM
also sorry I haven't been posting ive been so bad at time management lately im sorry 🙏🙏🙏
really can't decide if I like straight or curly more ,,
I like the emo look but the natural wavy is cute too ,, aarrghh
I like the emo look but the natural wavy is cute too ,, aarrghh
January 13, 2026 at 6:36 PM
really can't decide if I like straight or curly more ,,
I like the emo look but the natural wavy is cute too ,, aarrghh
I like the emo look but the natural wavy is cute too ,, aarrghh
well! roblox is dying today I think . I hope . because this is stupid for so many reasons
January 8, 2026 at 6:13 AM
well! roblox is dying today I think . I hope . because this is stupid for so many reasons
was waiting for the professional photos ,,,
here it is!!! 😎🔥
I LOVE IT SO MUCH RAAAHHH ITS PERFECT!!! ITS ME!!! IT LOOKS SO GOOD OH MY GODDDDD IM SO HAPPY
here it is!!! 😎🔥
I LOVE IT SO MUCH RAAAHHH ITS PERFECT!!! ITS ME!!! IT LOOKS SO GOOD OH MY GODDDDD IM SO HAPPY
January 3, 2026 at 8:56 AM
was waiting for the professional photos ,,,
here it is!!! 😎🔥
I LOVE IT SO MUCH RAAAHHH ITS PERFECT!!! ITS ME!!! IT LOOKS SO GOOD OH MY GODDDDD IM SO HAPPY
here it is!!! 😎🔥
I LOVE IT SO MUCH RAAAHHH ITS PERFECT!!! ITS ME!!! IT LOOKS SO GOOD OH MY GODDDDD IM SO HAPPY
TS HURTS BAD !!!!!! HELLPPPPP not done yet
January 2, 2026 at 7:25 PM
TS HURTS BAD !!!!!! HELLPPPPP not done yet
TATTOO APPOINTMENT TOMORROW MORNING LETS GOOO 🎉🔥🎉🔥🎉
always gotta get something crazy done for my birthday it seems hahaha
always gotta get something crazy done for my birthday it seems hahaha
January 1, 2026 at 6:25 PM
TATTOO APPOINTMENT TOMORROW MORNING LETS GOOO 🎉🔥🎉🔥🎉
always gotta get something crazy done for my birthday it seems hahaha
always gotta get something crazy done for my birthday it seems hahaha
well happy new year everyone!! hopefully it'll be good,, but either way, we ball anyway 😎🔥
January 1, 2026 at 3:25 PM
well happy new year everyone!! hopefully it'll be good,, but either way, we ball anyway 😎🔥
spending my birthday watching heated rivalry ✌️✌️
also I definitely read the book like , two years ago?? but didn't finish it for some reason,,
show is awesome though
also I definitely read the book like , two years ago?? but didn't finish it for some reason,,
show is awesome though
January 1, 2026 at 11:29 AM
spending my birthday watching heated rivalry ✌️✌️
also I definitely read the book like , two years ago?? but didn't finish it for some reason,,
show is awesome though
also I definitely read the book like , two years ago?? but didn't finish it for some reason,,
show is awesome though
anyway my birthday is tomorrow ..
I don't want to be 23 😭 that feels lile such an unc number
maybe getting a tattoo soon tho? Just got a quote and waiting to hear back abt appt times
I drew the design myself so,, it'd be super cool to get
I don't want to be 23 😭 that feels lile such an unc number
maybe getting a tattoo soon tho? Just got a quote and waiting to hear back abt appt times
I drew the design myself so,, it'd be super cool to get
December 31, 2025 at 8:20 PM
anyway my birthday is tomorrow ..
I don't want to be 23 😭 that feels lile such an unc number
maybe getting a tattoo soon tho? Just got a quote and waiting to hear back abt appt times
I drew the design myself so,, it'd be super cool to get
I don't want to be 23 😭 that feels lile such an unc number
maybe getting a tattoo soon tho? Just got a quote and waiting to hear back abt appt times
I drew the design myself so,, it'd be super cool to get
yoooo my mom just posted that she was in rehab lmaooo I knew it i knew it,,, girlie all you do is post abt drinking
no shade to that ofc, I just don't like her✨️✨️😇
also she was an alcoholic while I was a teen and w my younger brother .
so once again being a bad parent ✨️💞✨️ go girl ❗️✨️❗️
no shade to that ofc, I just don't like her✨️✨️😇
also she was an alcoholic while I was a teen and w my younger brother .
so once again being a bad parent ✨️💞✨️ go girl ❗️✨️❗️
December 31, 2025 at 8:18 PM
yoooo my mom just posted that she was in rehab lmaooo I knew it i knew it,,, girlie all you do is post abt drinking
no shade to that ofc, I just don't like her✨️✨️😇
also she was an alcoholic while I was a teen and w my younger brother .
so once again being a bad parent ✨️💞✨️ go girl ❗️✨️❗️
no shade to that ofc, I just don't like her✨️✨️😇
also she was an alcoholic while I was a teen and w my younger brother .
so once again being a bad parent ✨️💞✨️ go girl ❗️✨️❗️
goofy ahh roblox screens i took
December 29, 2025 at 12:12 PM
goofy ahh roblox screens i took
literally I'm hungry and nauseous at the same time THIS IS STUPID
December 28, 2025 at 4:03 PM
literally I'm hungry and nauseous at the same time THIS IS STUPID
okay I made it 4 days without effexor but I'm so nauseous and having full body sweats and brain zaps and depression and irritation i can't do it man I really don't think I can 😭🙏🙏 this is so awful for no reason
December 28, 2025 at 3:53 PM
okay I made it 4 days without effexor but I'm so nauseous and having full body sweats and brain zaps and depression and irritation i can't do it man I really don't think I can 😭🙏🙏 this is so awful for no reason
my alt clothing arrived today AAAAA everything looks and fits so good I'm so happy ,,, so gender,,,, !!!!
December 26, 2025 at 8:37 PM
my alt clothing arrived today AAAAA everything looks and fits so good I'm so happy ,,, so gender,,,, !!!!
facial hair is really starting to come in 👀
this is like 4 days without shaving haha
also STARTING to get sideburn hair ugghhh❤️❤️💞💞❤️🔥🔥🔥 I love sideburns ahahah
this is like 4 days without shaving haha
also STARTING to get sideburn hair ugghhh❤️❤️💞💞❤️🔥🔥🔥 I love sideburns ahahah
December 25, 2025 at 8:25 PM
facial hair is really starting to come in 👀
this is like 4 days without shaving haha
also STARTING to get sideburn hair ugghhh❤️❤️💞💞❤️🔥🔥🔥 I love sideburns ahahah
this is like 4 days without shaving haha
also STARTING to get sideburn hair ugghhh❤️❤️💞💞❤️🔥🔥🔥 I love sideburns ahahah
finished the book.
these quotes killed me. gave me chills and had to try not to cry reading this at work 😔✌️✌️
ouch.
these quotes killed me. gave me chills and had to try not to cry reading this at work 😔✌️✌️
ouch.
December 23, 2025 at 8:28 AM
finished the book.
these quotes killed me. gave me chills and had to try not to cry reading this at work 😔✌️✌️
ouch.
these quotes killed me. gave me chills and had to try not to cry reading this at work 😔✌️✌️
ouch.
"The world was not made for ones like you."
"When the swarm said that to Sophie for the first time, she’d sobbed. They were right. She was miserable and trapped. She wasn’t a boy until the worms finally told her it was okay, because she couldn’t do it herself."
"When the swarm said that to Sophie for the first time, she’d sobbed. They were right. She was miserable and trapped. She wasn’t a boy until the worms finally told her it was okay, because she couldn’t do it herself."
December 22, 2025 at 6:19 AM
"The world was not made for ones like you."
"When the swarm said that to Sophie for the first time, she’d sobbed. They were right. She was miserable and trapped. She wasn’t a boy until the worms finally told her it was okay, because she couldn’t do it herself."
"When the swarm said that to Sophie for the first time, she’d sobbed. They were right. She was miserable and trapped. She wasn’t a boy until the worms finally told her it was okay, because she couldn’t do it herself."
some pics of my fit for the christmas work party today 😎🔥 had to make sure I was the gayest one there
ugh I wish I looked more masc though. blehhh
ugh I wish I looked more masc though. blehhh
December 21, 2025 at 6:09 AM
some pics of my fit for the christmas work party today 😎🔥 had to make sure I was the gayest one there
ugh I wish I looked more masc though. blehhh
ugh I wish I looked more masc though. blehhh
this page brought up some memories
sh tw in the replies
sh tw in the replies
December 19, 2025 at 11:47 AM
this page brought up some memories
sh tw in the replies
sh tw in the replies
I used to barely be able to get this binder on, now I don't think its tight enough to even do any binding lmao
that's insane,, hell yeah
now if only my chest would become flat 😔🙏 its shrunk for sure but ,,, mhhh,,,,
that's insane,, hell yeah
now if only my chest would become flat 😔🙏 its shrunk for sure but ,,, mhhh,,,,
December 19, 2025 at 6:13 AM
I used to barely be able to get this binder on, now I don't think its tight enough to even do any binding lmao
that's insane,, hell yeah
now if only my chest would become flat 😔🙏 its shrunk for sure but ,,, mhhh,,,,
that's insane,, hell yeah
now if only my chest would become flat 😔🙏 its shrunk for sure but ,,, mhhh,,,,
I relate to this character so much it makes me nauseous
I mean obviously I've deeply related to a character but . this is current life me . I never see this. this is how my thoughts work ,, and , just everything,,, ive never seen someone like me
I mean obviously I've deeply related to a character but . this is current life me . I never see this. this is how my thoughts work ,, and , just everything,,, ive never seen someone like me
December 17, 2025 at 11:51 AM
I relate to this character so much it makes me nauseous
I mean obviously I've deeply related to a character but . this is current life me . I never see this. this is how my thoughts work ,, and , just everything,,, ive never seen someone like me
I mean obviously I've deeply related to a character but . this is current life me . I never see this. this is how my thoughts work ,, and , just everything,,, ive never seen someone like me
I hate this stupid female body I wish I could rip it off
December 16, 2025 at 7:39 PM
I hate this stupid female body I wish I could rip it off
really I think i just need some sleep
I haven't been sleeping well at all
I haven't been sleeping well at all
December 16, 2025 at 6:19 AM
really I think i just need some sleep
I haven't been sleeping well at all
I haven't been sleeping well at all
my head is a knot
maybe reducing medication was not such a good idea
but now I remember
ive overstayed my welcome
and they are calling me home
so sweetly
so sweetly
it's been so long
and this world
was not made
for people like me
maybe reducing medication was not such a good idea
but now I remember
ive overstayed my welcome
and they are calling me home
so sweetly
so sweetly
it's been so long
and this world
was not made
for people like me
December 16, 2025 at 6:18 AM
my head is a knot
maybe reducing medication was not such a good idea
but now I remember
ive overstayed my welcome
and they are calling me home
so sweetly
so sweetly
it's been so long
and this world
was not made
for people like me
maybe reducing medication was not such a good idea
but now I remember
ive overstayed my welcome
and they are calling me home
so sweetly
so sweetly
it's been so long
and this world
was not made
for people like me
thank you youtube
December 15, 2025 at 11:49 AM
thank you youtube