suudonym
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I draw things I like, but only occasionally
I was gonna make a joke about something having taken 75k words to happen in this fic but I got stuck on the fact that I've written fucking 75k words since september
December 26, 2025 at 5:05 AM
I was gonna make a joke about something having taken 75k words to happen in this fic but I got stuck on the fact that I've written fucking 75k words since september
every week I finish a chapter and so every week I get another chance to consciously defer setting up the new pc for at least one more week thereafter.
next week for sure's gonna be the week it finally happens. I feel it in my bones. (<- words of someone who may or may not be an invertebrate)
next week for sure's gonna be the week it finally happens. I feel it in my bones. (<- words of someone who may or may not be an invertebrate)
December 23, 2025 at 4:28 PM
every week I finish a chapter and so every week I get another chance to consciously defer setting up the new pc for at least one more week thereafter.
next week for sure's gonna be the week it finally happens. I feel it in my bones. (<- words of someone who may or may not be an invertebrate)
next week for sure's gonna be the week it finally happens. I feel it in my bones. (<- words of someone who may or may not be an invertebrate)
who do I need to talk to to about how I really don't need to do any research on migraines to get the migraines to stop
December 19, 2025 at 4:26 PM
who do I need to talk to to about how I really don't need to do any research on migraines to get the migraines to stop
having to start a new chapter may be just the push I need to finally set up that pc. (remembers all the steps required to deshittify windows) having to set up that pc may be just the push I need to finally start a new chapter
December 16, 2025 at 4:02 PM
having to start a new chapter may be just the push I need to finally set up that pc. (remembers all the steps required to deshittify windows) having to set up that pc may be just the push I need to finally start a new chapter
I was like "man this chapter is taking SOOOO LONG to write! guess I've slowed down to my usual grind 😔" and then I looked back at how long it's taken and it's been. two weeks.
and then I finished it and it turned out it's actually two chapters so like. apparently I'm still in machine mode after all.
and then I finished it and it turned out it's actually two chapters so like. apparently I'm still in machine mode after all.
December 16, 2025 at 12:14 AM
I was like "man this chapter is taking SOOOO LONG to write! guess I've slowed down to my usual grind 😔" and then I looked back at how long it's taken and it's been. two weeks.
and then I finished it and it turned out it's actually two chapters so like. apparently I'm still in machine mode after all.
and then I finished it and it turned out it's actually two chapters so like. apparently I'm still in machine mode after all.
I am integrating the fucked up alt ending into the og ending I think. too much potential to miss out on. this does mean the most fucked up part of it gets cut but honestly, I am perfectly okay with that.
December 10, 2025 at 1:24 AM
I am integrating the fucked up alt ending into the og ending I think. too much potential to miss out on. this does mean the most fucked up part of it gets cut but honestly, I am perfectly okay with that.
daydreamed too close to the sun and now have a whole alternate ending for this fic. og ending is delightful. alt ending is appallingly fucked up. both are thematically rich and viable.
...........might write it if I ever finish and have enough gumption left to keep going. big if though
...........might write it if I ever finish and have enough gumption left to keep going. big if though
December 9, 2025 at 4:20 AM
daydreamed too close to the sun and now have a whole alternate ending for this fic. og ending is delightful. alt ending is appallingly fucked up. both are thematically rich and viable.
...........might write it if I ever finish and have enough gumption left to keep going. big if though
...........might write it if I ever finish and have enough gumption left to keep going. big if though
thinking fondly and wistfully of crestoria. I don't know how I'm managing to do that when so few of the memories that come to mind are actually pleasant - arena grinding, event grinding, memoria grid grinding, affinity grinding. grinding grinding grinding. and yet I miss it.....
December 6, 2025 at 11:31 PM
thinking fondly and wistfully of crestoria. I don't know how I'm managing to do that when so few of the memories that come to mind are actually pleasant - arena grinding, event grinding, memoria grid grinding, affinity grinding. grinding grinding grinding. and yet I miss it.....
maannnn I'm DEEPLY entrenched in microwaving. 5 hours of sleep 0 words written levels of entrenched. microwaving scenes that aren't even gonna be a part of the story because of the pov they take place from. the enrichment is euphoric but god, at what cost
December 6, 2025 at 1:58 AM
maannnn I'm DEEPLY entrenched in microwaving. 5 hours of sleep 0 words written levels of entrenched. microwaving scenes that aren't even gonna be a part of the story because of the pov they take place from. the enrichment is euphoric but god, at what cost
hobbling out of the research lair, trembling and gasping for breath, with a 10-year timeline* grasped in my fist
*timeline pertains solely to the injury/recovery of ONE character. the actual plot.... is not integrated...... there is still so fucking much to sort out. I cannot bear to face this now.
*timeline pertains solely to the injury/recovery of ONE character. the actual plot.... is not integrated...... there is still so fucking much to sort out. I cannot bear to face this now.
December 4, 2025 at 8:06 PM
hobbling out of the research lair, trembling and gasping for breath, with a 10-year timeline* grasped in my fist
*timeline pertains solely to the injury/recovery of ONE character. the actual plot.... is not integrated...... there is still so fucking much to sort out. I cannot bear to face this now.
*timeline pertains solely to the injury/recovery of ONE character. the actual plot.... is not integrated...... there is still so fucking much to sort out. I cannot bear to face this now.
ooooooooh people talking like romantic feelings are a pokemon evolution that happens to platonic feelings once you reach a high enough level of friendship points. violence and murder and violence and murder and violence and murder
December 3, 2025 at 8:01 PM
ooooooooh people talking like romantic feelings are a pokemon evolution that happens to platonic feelings once you reach a high enough level of friendship points. violence and murder and violence and murder and violence and murder
got stuck in a loop coming into the next arc of this story and now I'm spending so much time on research and daydreaming that I'm not making progress on writing and I'm so scared. terrified even. <2% chance this fic ever sees the light of day if I don't finish before ch5 release....
December 2, 2025 at 3:28 PM
got stuck in a loop coming into the next arc of this story and now I'm spending so much time on research and daydreaming that I'm not making progress on writing and I'm so scared. terrified even. <2% chance this fic ever sees the light of day if I don't finish before ch5 release....
[gets a migraine] haha neat first-hand research for fic [willfully ignoring the fact that I have had PLENTY of migraines and I do NOT need a refresher course]
November 30, 2025 at 10:49 PM
[gets a migraine] haha neat first-hand research for fic [willfully ignoring the fact that I have had PLENTY of migraines and I do NOT need a refresher course]
I don't know how much longer I'm gonna be able to last without drawing a cute kris. it's slowly turning into a psychological necessity. however time spent drawing is time not spent writing so I will continue to delay it until the explosion that follows
November 30, 2025 at 3:21 PM
I don't know how much longer I'm gonna be able to last without drawing a cute kris. it's slowly turning into a psychological necessity. however time spent drawing is time not spent writing so I will continue to delay it until the explosion that follows
love finishing a chapter, haaaaaaaaaaate having to make a blank draft for the next one. such is the sisyphean hell of longfic
November 29, 2025 at 5:56 PM
love finishing a chapter, haaaaaaaaaaate having to make a blank draft for the next one. such is the sisyphean hell of longfic
punished yet again for my crimes...... (sleep deprivation due to blorbo microwaving)
November 29, 2025 at 4:17 PM
punished yet again for my crimes...... (sleep deprivation due to blorbo microwaving)
my affection for kris is boundless but you would never guess it from the shit I'm doing out here
November 29, 2025 at 1:11 AM
my affection for kris is boundless but you would never guess it from the shit I'm doing out here
hmm. I am starting to feel sorry for my pathetic piece of shit antagonist whom I hate. oh wait it's because he's pathetic now. understood mystery solved.
November 27, 2025 at 3:45 AM
hmm. I am starting to feel sorry for my pathetic piece of shit antagonist whom I hate. oh wait it's because he's pathetic now. understood mystery solved.
I'm gonna have to set up a new pc soon which I think means I'm also gonna have to finally break up with the 4 or 5 half-played youtube video tabs I've had open for at least half a year. my emotional support youtube tabs I know in my heart of hearts I'm never going back to
November 26, 2025 at 3:14 PM
I'm gonna have to set up a new pc soon which I think means I'm also gonna have to finally break up with the 4 or 5 half-played youtube video tabs I've had open for at least half a year. my emotional support youtube tabs I know in my heart of hearts I'm never going back to
not making any progress on writing (because I keep rereading what I've already written (for fun (I'm having an excellent time)))
November 25, 2025 at 9:41 PM
not making any progress on writing (because I keep rereading what I've already written (for fun (I'm having an excellent time)))
saw someone accuse a fic of being genai due to its use of triplets and I'm like. TRIPLETS? first you demonize my dear friends the em dash and the oxford comma and now you're coming for TRIPLETS??? at this rate they're gonna start saying good grammar is a sign of fucking ai use next
November 25, 2025 at 7:39 PM
saw someone accuse a fic of being genai due to its use of triplets and I'm like. TRIPLETS? first you demonize my dear friends the em dash and the oxford comma and now you're coming for TRIPLETS??? at this rate they're gonna start saying good grammar is a sign of fucking ai use next
me and my friend would be platonically married if we lived close enough and my parents aren't aware of this which leads to situations where they say stuff like "she's just GIVING you a pc? that's a hell of a friend" and I have to hold my tongue to not say that I'm also her life insurance beneficiary
November 24, 2025 at 11:19 PM
me and my friend would be platonically married if we lived close enough and my parents aren't aware of this which leads to situations where they say stuff like "she's just GIVING you a pc? that's a hell of a friend" and I have to hold my tongue to not say that I'm also her life insurance beneficiary
I started thinking "man, I've been working on this chapter for SUCH a long time now" and looked up when I started it and it's been. six days. in the past I always considered one chapter a month a fantastic pace. I wonder if posting as I finish has actually been holding me back all this time....
November 24, 2025 at 12:20 AM
I started thinking "man, I've been working on this chapter for SUCH a long time now" and looked up when I started it and it's been. six days. in the past I always considered one chapter a month a fantastic pace. I wonder if posting as I finish has actually been holding me back all this time....
treating myself to a new discord icon to reflect my current interests ✨
November 21, 2025 at 2:40 AM
treating myself to a new discord icon to reflect my current interests ✨
manga I translate every week has taken a turn so abhorrent to me that I have stopped reading smack in the middle of the page on which that turn happened and I am just going to do something else for a while. have some lunch. write some fic maybe. enjoy life.
November 19, 2025 at 4:35 PM
manga I translate every week has taken a turn so abhorrent to me that I have stopped reading smack in the middle of the page on which that turn happened and I am just going to do something else for a while. have some lunch. write some fic maybe. enjoy life.