🔞💭 syko
@syko.ruins.party
adult (20s) MDNI pls
vent diary (sometimes nsfw)
dni: ists, phobes, antis, blocked
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vent diary (sometimes nsfw)
dni: ists, phobes, antis, blocked
*PLS RESPECT DNI + BLOCKS*
Zack Foster is just anime JtK in my head idk man
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January 15, 2026 at 4:28 AM
Zack Foster is just anime JtK in my head idk man
I will do better.
I will be better.
because I am worth it, and so is everyone else I give my efforts and attention to.
I will be better, if not for others, for myself. because I want to be the person that I wish I had there for me. that way, at least I know i’ll be a good friend to others.
I will be better.
because I am worth it, and so is everyone else I give my efforts and attention to.
I will be better, if not for others, for myself. because I want to be the person that I wish I had there for me. that way, at least I know i’ll be a good friend to others.
January 15, 2026 at 4:08 AM
I will do better.
I will be better.
because I am worth it, and so is everyone else I give my efforts and attention to.
I will be better, if not for others, for myself. because I want to be the person that I wish I had there for me. that way, at least I know i’ll be a good friend to others.
I will be better.
because I am worth it, and so is everyone else I give my efforts and attention to.
I will be better, if not for others, for myself. because I want to be the person that I wish I had there for me. that way, at least I know i’ll be a good friend to others.
I will always admit my wrongdoings, bc that is always the first step to progress. anyone who claims progress yet refuses to acknowledge their faults, is a liar.
you cannot be honest with others, if you are still lying to yourself.
you cannot be honest with others, if you are still lying to yourself.
January 15, 2026 at 3:27 AM
I will always admit my wrongdoings, bc that is always the first step to progress. anyone who claims progress yet refuses to acknowledge their faults, is a liar.
you cannot be honest with others, if you are still lying to yourself.
you cannot be honest with others, if you are still lying to yourself.
therapist: “try to focus on curating your own space rather than worrying if your space is curated for others”
and while that’s really good advice, and logically, I know that, I don’t think people always understand how quickly things spread online, truth or not.
and while that’s really good advice, and logically, I know that, I don’t think people always understand how quickly things spread online, truth or not.
January 15, 2026 at 3:17 AM
therapist: “try to focus on curating your own space rather than worrying if your space is curated for others”
and while that’s really good advice, and logically, I know that, I don’t think people always understand how quickly things spread online, truth or not.
and while that’s really good advice, and logically, I know that, I don’t think people always understand how quickly things spread online, truth or not.
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There's no point in speaking about this anymore.
January 14, 2026 at 4:30 PM
There's no point in speaking about this anymore.
feeling like I’m losing the entire community i’ve surrounded myself with for almost a year now because I’m realizing how sketchy they all are. it’s always too good to be true. how can I trust them to be my friend if they switch up on people closer to them at the drop of a hat?
January 15, 2026 at 2:56 AM
feeling like I’m losing the entire community i’ve surrounded myself with for almost a year now because I’m realizing how sketchy they all are. it’s always too good to be true. how can I trust them to be my friend if they switch up on people closer to them at the drop of a hat?
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Sorry. I can't help you.
January 15, 2026 at 2:30 AM
Sorry. I can't help you.
feel like I am not allowed to talk about my hesitant enjoyment of shows like Archer on main because it’s similar to shows like family guy and a lot of people don’t fw those.
January 14, 2026 at 6:53 PM
feel like I am not allowed to talk about my hesitant enjoyment of shows like Archer on main because it’s similar to shows like family guy and a lot of people don’t fw those.
i’ll never truly have a place to make friends, online or elsewhere. every time I think I may finally have someone to get close to, they remind me why I can’t trust anyone, especially over the internet.
we’re all either scared of judgment or brainwashed from years of conformity. I’m tired.
we’re all either scared of judgment or brainwashed from years of conformity. I’m tired.
January 14, 2026 at 3:47 AM
i’ll never truly have a place to make friends, online or elsewhere. every time I think I may finally have someone to get close to, they remind me why I can’t trust anyone, especially over the internet.
we’re all either scared of judgment or brainwashed from years of conformity. I’m tired.
we’re all either scared of judgment or brainwashed from years of conformity. I’m tired.
“I bet dead people are easier to get along with”
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January 13, 2026 at 6:16 PM
“I bet dead people are easier to get along with”
tw for emetophobia—
idk what happened earlier but I was laying on the bed and felt like I had to vom. I can always tell a few mins prior with or without nausea bc I sneeze a lot right beforehand. I go to the bathroom, and at first it was clear, but then it was just… straight bile.
idk what happened earlier but I was laying on the bed and felt like I had to vom. I can always tell a few mins prior with or without nausea bc I sneeze a lot right beforehand. I go to the bathroom, and at first it was clear, but then it was just… straight bile.
January 13, 2026 at 6:09 PM
tw for emetophobia—
idk what happened earlier but I was laying on the bed and felt like I had to vom. I can always tell a few mins prior with or without nausea bc I sneeze a lot right beforehand. I go to the bathroom, and at first it was clear, but then it was just… straight bile.
idk what happened earlier but I was laying on the bed and felt like I had to vom. I can always tell a few mins prior with or without nausea bc I sneeze a lot right beforehand. I go to the bathroom, and at first it was clear, but then it was just… straight bile.
when I get anxious and depressed I really do just become crona. I can hear them in my internal voice and the 3rd person mental view of myself looks more like them. kins are weird with bpd. I don’t just adapt to them, I become them. they are me, I am them. same with Jinx, Jeff, Zack, and Alois.
January 13, 2026 at 5:48 PM
when I get anxious and depressed I really do just become crona. I can hear them in my internal voice and the 3rd person mental view of myself looks more like them. kins are weird with bpd. I don’t just adapt to them, I become them. they are me, I am them. same with Jinx, Jeff, Zack, and Alois.
“I don’t like it, the dark circles under my eyes will come back and I don’t know how to deal with the dark circles!!” :(
January 13, 2026 at 5:33 PM
“I don’t like it, the dark circles under my eyes will come back and I don’t know how to deal with the dark circles!!” :(
there are stars and planets floating around me… I don’t think I can handle astronomy right now..
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January 13, 2026 at 5:31 PM
there are stars and planets floating around me… I don’t think I can handle astronomy right now..
hiding here bc I said what needed to be said on main and got so scared that I temp deactivated because I just can’t deal with that right now.
January 13, 2026 at 5:29 PM
hiding here bc I said what needed to be said on main and got so scared that I temp deactivated because I just can’t deal with that right now.
gendervent
when I look down, I’m confused. I keep doubting myself and thinking “maybe I’m just manipulated by my trauma. maybe I’m just overreacting and hopping on the next train that makes me feel more like “me” for a while.
but then my mom tells me “you’ve always said you wish you had a dick.”
when I look down, I’m confused. I keep doubting myself and thinking “maybe I’m just manipulated by my trauma. maybe I’m just overreacting and hopping on the next train that makes me feel more like “me” for a while.
but then my mom tells me “you’ve always said you wish you had a dick.”
January 13, 2026 at 4:32 AM
gendervent
when I look down, I’m confused. I keep doubting myself and thinking “maybe I’m just manipulated by my trauma. maybe I’m just overreacting and hopping on the next train that makes me feel more like “me” for a while.
but then my mom tells me “you’ve always said you wish you had a dick.”
when I look down, I’m confused. I keep doubting myself and thinking “maybe I’m just manipulated by my trauma. maybe I’m just overreacting and hopping on the next train that makes me feel more like “me” for a while.
but then my mom tells me “you’ve always said you wish you had a dick.”
I just want to be held. told everything will be ok and I’m just thinking too far ahead. but every time things start going right again, smth else happens. life slaps me in the face with a reality check, reminding me that I’m not allowed peace. we have to continuously fight just to exist and survive.
January 12, 2026 at 1:00 PM
I just want to be held. told everything will be ok and I’m just thinking too far ahead. but every time things start going right again, smth else happens. life slaps me in the face with a reality check, reminding me that I’m not allowed peace. we have to continuously fight just to exist and survive.
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Go. Before I change my mind.
January 12, 2026 at 5:30 AM
Go. Before I change my mind.
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Please, not again....
January 12, 2026 at 7:30 AM
Please, not again....
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Don’t infect me with your curse!
January 12, 2026 at 11:30 AM
Don’t infect me with your curse!
on the outside always looking in will I
ever be more than i’ve always been
‘cause I’m tap, tap, tapping on the glass
waving through a window
I try to speak but nobody can hear so I
wait around for an answer to appear
while I’m watch, watch, watching people pass
waving through a window
ever be more than i’ve always been
‘cause I’m tap, tap, tapping on the glass
waving through a window
I try to speak but nobody can hear so I
wait around for an answer to appear
while I’m watch, watch, watching people pass
waving through a window
January 12, 2026 at 12:38 PM
on the outside always looking in will I
ever be more than i’ve always been
‘cause I’m tap, tap, tapping on the glass
waving through a window
I try to speak but nobody can hear so I
wait around for an answer to appear
while I’m watch, watch, watching people pass
waving through a window
ever be more than i’ve always been
‘cause I’m tap, tap, tapping on the glass
waving through a window
I try to speak but nobody can hear so I
wait around for an answer to appear
while I’m watch, watch, watching people pass
waving through a window
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Die, scoundrel!
January 10, 2026 at 2:30 AM
Die, scoundrel!
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Well, forward, forward, thus the bowl should run
January 10, 2026 at 1:48 AM
Well, forward, forward, thus the bowl should run
I just want to make others happy if I can’t be.
January 9, 2026 at 2:46 AM
I just want to make others happy if I can’t be.