@system-nine.bsky.social
#dissociativeidentitydisorder
Was covert for 50+ years, was then able to think about my system for about a year and a half. Did some discovery and healing and am now integrated. Willing to share my experience.
60 years old cis male (He, Him)
Was covert for 50+ years, was then able to think about my system for about a year and a half. Did some discovery and healing and am now integrated. Willing to share my experience.
60 years old cis male (He, Him)
I am not bothered by that one as much anymore but it still sticks around a little even after I integrated.
July 22, 2025 at 2:38 PM
I am not bothered by that one as much anymore but it still sticks around a little even after I integrated.
It was very useful for my system. It helped with talking to my therapist to be able to find a list of things since I had last talked to him. Also, having said things in public made it easier to get past the "this isn't real" self defense mechanism in my system.
February 27, 2025 at 10:21 AM
It was very useful for my system. It helped with talking to my therapist to be able to find a list of things since I had last talked to him. Also, having said things in public made it easier to get past the "this isn't real" self defense mechanism in my system.
My most productive time is when I am awake at 5AM.
February 7, 2025 at 7:04 PM
My most productive time is when I am awake at 5AM.
Thanks, mostly I feel the same as I used to, I would say before I became aware of my system but I was periodically aware of it, or rather my front stuck alter Foreground was. He was just distracted and made to forget about it. Less unnecessary processing going on in my head now :-)
February 6, 2025 at 9:39 PM
Thanks, mostly I feel the same as I used to, I would say before I became aware of my system but I was periodically aware of it, or rather my front stuck alter Foreground was. He was just distracted and made to forget about it. Less unnecessary processing going on in my head now :-)
So that worked :-) Not an instantaneous integration but I feel it has started and is a continuing process. I don't know if this will be done in a day or if this process will take years. Either way it is good. Thanks for listening and being supportive!
January 20, 2025 at 12:12 AM
So that worked :-) Not an instantaneous integration but I feel it has started and is a continuing process. I don't know if this will be done in a day or if this process will take years. Either way it is good. Thanks for listening and being supportive!
Going to go to a large park and stand in the middle of the field in zero degree (F) weather. I will dress warmly :-)
January 19, 2025 at 12:20 AM
Going to go to a large park and stand in the middle of the field in zero degree (F) weather. I will dress warmly :-)
Thanks, I feel like I am making a lot of progress.
January 16, 2025 at 12:00 PM
Thanks, I feel like I am making a lot of progress.
I was forgetting I have one tomorrow. Need to go back and look at what I posted in order to remember what order things happened in.
January 16, 2025 at 4:39 AM
I was forgetting I have one tomorrow. Need to go back and look at what I posted in order to remember what order things happened in.
I am doing very well, thanks.
Which population are you talking about?
In your system or in the world?
There are way too many people in the world to connect to :-)
Which population are you talking about?
In your system or in the world?
There are way too many people in the world to connect to :-)
January 15, 2025 at 6:25 PM
I am doing very well, thanks.
Which population are you talking about?
In your system or in the world?
There are way too many people in the world to connect to :-)
Which population are you talking about?
In your system or in the world?
There are way too many people in the world to connect to :-)
Its the damned rabbits! I have to wait for spring now and see what survived the rabbit onslaught last year before I can plan what to try next. I am trying to minimize the use of chicken wire...
January 15, 2025 at 6:20 PM
Its the damned rabbits! I have to wait for spring now and see what survived the rabbit onslaught last year before I can plan what to try next. I am trying to minimize the use of chicken wire...
So this Sunday, 19-January-2025, at noon US central time Seer wants to try a healing. Send your positive thoughts, energy, and prayers my way. I will suspend my disbelief since I do think it very well might work.
January 15, 2025 at 1:26 PM
So this Sunday, 19-January-2025, at noon US central time Seer wants to try a healing. Send your positive thoughts, energy, and prayers my way. I will suspend my disbelief since I do think it very well might work.
I have found the journaling to be very useful. I have gotten useful comments from other systems and it helps me keep track of the timeline of when things happened. I always look back at the dates on my posts and use them to have some notes when I talk to my therapist.
January 14, 2025 at 7:56 PM
I have found the journaling to be very useful. I have gotten useful comments from other systems and it helps me keep track of the timeline of when things happened. I always look back at the dates on my posts and use them to have some notes when I talk to my therapist.
So I am now Peter, I am myself, I am the superset of my known alters. I feel like myself but everything feels easier. Foreground is very relieved after 50 years to no longer be in front. I am him and most of the rest of me as well. The trauma is still separate for a while longer. We/I will heal.
January 14, 2025 at 3:47 AM
So I am now Peter, I am myself, I am the superset of my known alters. I feel like myself but everything feels easier. Foreground is very relieved after 50 years to no longer be in front. I am him and most of the rest of me as well. The trauma is still separate for a while longer. We/I will heal.
For the most part I feel locations for the alters in my system. He feels like most of the left side in my head. He accepted us, welcomed us back. He was so quiet, we had no idea he was there. We are all just us, just me, Peter.
January 13, 2025 at 12:05 PM
For the most part I feel locations for the alters in my system. He feels like most of the left side in my head. He accepted us, welcomed us back. He was so quiet, we had no idea he was there. We are all just us, just me, Peter.
Thank you, we are OK. We just had a transcendent moment this morning. We held the car and talked to him. His only name is our name.
January 13, 2025 at 12:05 PM
Thank you, we are OK. We just had a transcendent moment this morning. We held the car and talked to him. His only name is our name.
My executive function is variable. In a real crunch I can function just fine. If a deadline is far off it often goes missing.
January 12, 2025 at 3:32 AM
My executive function is variable. In a real crunch I can function just fine. If a deadline is far off it often goes missing.
I know that if I were terminally ill I would want the option when I felt the time was right.
January 11, 2025 at 9:28 PM
I know that if I were terminally ill I would want the option when I felt the time was right.
Heal and grow, become your best self and outlive all of your enemies. Then at a very advanced age go out in the way of your choosing.
January 11, 2025 at 12:52 PM
Heal and grow, become your best self and outlive all of your enemies. Then at a very advanced age go out in the way of your choosing.
As I have found my alters who have been hiding I have been blending with my known alters and telling them they don't need to hide. I have helped them heal and now they can start to blend we me as well. I think my system is spending less energy doing unnecessary things now.
January 9, 2025 at 4:22 PM
As I have found my alters who have been hiding I have been blending with my known alters and telling them they don't need to hide. I have helped them heal and now they can start to blend we me as well. I think my system is spending less energy doing unnecessary things now.
I don't have a visualization but I do have a feeling of location for my alters. I (foreground) am in front. Background is behind me. Driver and Vizier are to my left. Paladin and Watcher are to my right. Gatekeeper is overhead. Survivor is woven throughout. Not sure where Sifu and Maker are.
January 8, 2025 at 3:03 PM
I don't have a visualization but I do have a feeling of location for my alters. I (foreground) am in front. Background is behind me. Driver and Vizier are to my left. Paladin and Watcher are to my right. Gatekeeper is overhead. Survivor is woven throughout. Not sure where Sifu and Maker are.
Thank you for sharing that. I can feel that is has gotten some of my system thinking.
January 8, 2025 at 1:37 PM
Thank you for sharing that. I can feel that is has gotten some of my system thinking.
There wasn't any strife to resolve, just stubborn, quiet insistence. The insistence is gone, yes.
January 7, 2025 at 3:02 PM
There wasn't any strife to resolve, just stubborn, quiet insistence. The insistence is gone, yes.