So, I burned almost $50k in #AI builds. Why? I was asking the wrong questions.

It's not about having the right prompts or the LLM model, in my case. The uncomfortable truth? The tech stack isn't the problem, it's our approach.

Here's what i learned.

open.substack.com/pub/tekirepa...

Restarting how i use BlueSky. I went off social media for a few weeks.

Not sure how to restart and if i should focus on a topic versus just do a freeform.

There's a part of me that doesn't want to talk about work all the time or what i do for a living.

But i'd rather just not overthink this.

Eye Doctor: So, you've been spending a lot of screen time doing your work on a laptop?

Me: Yes... Does rolling my eyes at meetings count because of something that was said that irked me?

Dr: Well, now that would perhaps account for your migraines.

When your ophthalmologist is wittier than you.

Zelda: "Blood Moon rises once again. Please be careful, Link."

Finally admitted that i'm suffering from a long drawn corporate burnout & perhaps a mild depression.

For the longest time, i thought that i was the only one in the leadership team feeling bummed out because everyone else seemed pumped.

Sundays just make me dread Mondays.

Like right now. My mind is getting anxious about going back to work tomorrow.

I’m trying to “reset” this thinking by looking forward to doing something. But sheer will doesn’t seem to cut it.

Maybe, I’ll do something physically strenuous that I’d just sleep.

And so as a way to just keep to myself these days. I am again playing Breath of the Wild but completing and exploring region by region and collecting raw materials. Including all side quests and Koroks. Ganondorf can wait.

I am giving up on X. Just want to be in a space where i'm not a second class human being for being a woman and in a minority.

Let's carve a more positive and progressive space. And bring back our fight to uphold equality & dignity for everyone.