If a perfume is good it makes you want to eat it it anyway so I don't see how that's a problem

At the start of this thread I thought the answer would be my art, that if anything should survive at all its what Ive made just for the sake of it being made

but even that feels off

Theres probably some sort of conflict here in my head about why things should be shared or not and what the point is

This doesn't only apply to me obviously, I know everyone has a rich inner life full of aspects and things that others will never get to see

I just get sad about that I guess

No one will mourn those parts

I don't think this means I should simply retreat entirely and stop trying to connect with people in meaningful ways, but I should probably stop expecting that someone will be able to get into my head

I can only meet people halfway and that's all, that's fine

I can try to invite people into my world, let them see as much as myself as I can or as much as they're willing to see, but it's never going to be enough

the moment where everything clicks and I go "Someone Finally Gets Me" isn't really attainable

At the end of the day I think all this work Ive put into remembering and understand what I am is just for me

its not going to make me easier to get in other peoples eyes and its not going to make a difference to them either

There's always going to be stuff whether I want it or not, most of which wasn't even accurate to who I am or who I want to be perceived as

I don't think there's that big of a point in obsessively trying to get people to understand me, after or before my death

It's just never going to happen

You know what you did

#bweirdOCtober2025 Day 4: "sona/self insert"

· Love is supposed to be strong, love is supposed to shine on our days
· Love is supposed to win in the end, love is supposed to save the world
· ...
· If only it had been so

[ #bweirdOCtober #MurderFabrication ]

understandable have a nice space man

he has been replaced.....