it is all done one by one, you feel like you want one instrument to evolve here, and later maybe modulate one effect there, and after some time a complex interplay might emerge by itself

and this is horrifying to me because i don't fully know how to stop participating in this and whether that is actually possible, or how to at least protect myself from things that lead to more suffering

the inevitable immense pain and horrible formations emerging from physicality are what is ugly and unattractive, and make the small, fleeting bits of beauty flawed and not worth existing for

it's involuntary existence especially in the form of physical matter that has its own uncontrollable behavior and eventually forms life with emerging urges and pain, and we all get boiled in this soup trying to avoid suffering, but our ignorance makes us do evil to ourselves and others

same

yes

bluesky this video was already just 0.79mb you don't have to recompress it to 1.21mb