Former burned out developer
Main account: @2haloes.uk
This profile will most likely contain posts relating to mental health and contain swearing
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I walked in and burst into tears, like, through breathing exercises
I can't do this every week, I really can't spend half of my life feeling like this
I walked in and burst into tears, like, through breathing exercises
I can't do this every week, I really can't spend half of my life feeling like this
I don't think I'll be able to curl up with ice cream soon
I don't think I'll be able to curl up with ice cream soon
Like if this goes through, the store manager is quitting in protest (I don't have that option without losing my home or I would too)
So I'm just going to suffer
Like if this goes through, the store manager is quitting in protest (I don't have that option without losing my home or I would too)
Apparently one shift a week (both on my own and working a specific shop) shouldn't cause a panic attack!
Today was so bad I did 2 emotional laps of panic attack -> numb and tired
Apparently one shift a week (both on my own and working a specific shop) shouldn't cause a panic attack!
Today was so bad I did 2 emotional laps of panic attack -> numb and tired
So I'm just going to suffer
So I'm just going to suffer
I might try doodling some comfort stuff when I get home
I might try doodling some comfort stuff when I get home
Then I walk into work and instantly have a total breakdown, like so bad I had to call the work mental health team. I find it very hard to trust corporate health teams so you know it's bad
Then I walk into work and instantly have a total breakdown, like so bad I had to call the work mental health team. I find it very hard to trust corporate health teams so you know it's bad
To my therapist, this represents the mask of customer service cracking under a panic attack
#ventart
To my therapist, this represents the mask of customer service cracking under a panic attack
#ventart
Finally got into therapy again so at least I'll have a panic attack to talk about during our session ^-^
Finally got into therapy again so at least I'll have a panic attack to talk about during our session ^-^
For the first time in awhile, I woke up full of energy and a smile on my face, the work day beat that out of me
I feel punished for being happy
At least if I wrap myself in anxious thoughts, reality can't be worse... Right?
For the first time in awhile, I woke up full of energy and a smile on my face, the work day beat that out of me
I feel punished for being happy
At least if I wrap myself in anxious thoughts, reality can't be worse... Right?
skelaxo.itch.io/juliets-sol
skelaxo.itch.io/juliets-sol
Personally, I wouldn't go back to the bot infested shithole of a site even if you paid me
Like it's actually pissing me off, spineless cowards can't rock their socks without bots trying to fuck them
Personally, I wouldn't go back to the bot infested shithole of a site even if you paid me
Like it's actually pissing me off, spineless cowards can't rock their socks without bots trying to fuck them
After having some more time in customer service, having highs and lows, I have 100% had days that I've been in the back, having a complete breakdown out of the eye of anyone else and the feeling of getting out is so freeing
After having some more time in customer service, having highs and lows, I have 100% had days that I've been in the back, having a complete breakdown out of the eye of anyone else and the feeling of getting out is so freeing
That and the guy that runs the local good fried chicken place when I'm completely crashing out (their beef topped chips are my comfort food)
That and the guy that runs the local good fried chicken place when I'm completely crashing out (their beef topped chips are my comfort food)
Despite everything, despite how awful I keep feeling, how much help I get has completely failed, I want to keep trying
Despite my fears of things getting worse
What if they can get better?
m.youtube.com/watch?v=imDe...
Despite everything, despite how awful I keep feeling, how much help I get has completely failed, I want to keep trying
Despite my fears of things getting worse
What if they can get better?
m.youtube.com/watch?v=imDe...
I've been perpetually feeling awful for 4 days which is new and horrifying, I thought this void screaming would help
I've been perpetually feeling awful for 4 days which is new and horrifying, I thought this void screaming would help
I didn't feel like this 10 minutes ago before leaving my home
I didn't feel like this 10 minutes ago before leaving my home
That might me a physical problem though
That might me a physical problem though
It's all masks right now
vent.2haloes.uk/blog/masks
It's all masks right now
vent.2haloes.uk/blog/masks
It'll be on this domain, just sorting out my webserver, anything longwinded will go there and be linked here :3