Letting go of the friendship I thought would last a lifetime.
Been alone again.
I felt like I did at 12, closed in my room, reading or watching TV, everything so I wouldn't feel my emotions.
I'm older now but I've never grown up. I'm still that lonely 12 years old asking why no one likes me.

How is she able to so easily erase 9 years of friendship in just a few months? I'm I the only one that misses talking to each other? I think I was never important to her, not like she was for me. My heart hurts just thinking that I've forever lost her, while I know she's feeling relived.

I would love to know how it feels to be someone whole world.
How it feels to have someone scared to lose you instead to be the one scared to lose them.
To be the one that makes their eyes twinkle and heart full.
To be loved. I'm always the one that loves and in the end get thrown away. I'm tired.

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