It's such a cruel time of year for people who, for whatever reason, aren't part of it any more. Sending love and strength to you.

It really is complicated! But those sound like helpful thoughts. I'm still trying to learn to sit with just being me, rather than me with a gaping hole next to me, which I feel everyone should be able to see but somehow they can't.

I hardly listen to music any more either, which is painful because it was such a big part of our lives together. Now I don't even think to put any on. I'll get a copy of that book. Thanks for recommending it. Sending hugs.

I've heard of that book but not read it yet. Will add it to the list. Like you I'm crawling through books these days. Keep forgetting who the characters are and having to start again...

'Acceptance is not agreement' - that's interesting. Never heard that before but it's good. I feel like I need to rail against what's happened because obviously it's not what I want. Hmm. Something to think about. Thank you! Hugs to you too.

Yes it's the everyday things as well as the big things. People talking about their holidays when the person you used to go with isn't here to travel with any more. Trying to do things around the house alone that you would have shared. It's pervasive in a way others just don't understand.

Exactly! Other people's perceptions are so alien now. My friend, who kindly came to the hospital when it happened, said on the first anniversary that at least no day would ever be as bad as the day he died. But every day is as bad, if not worse, because he's still not here!

I feel exactly the same. I'm the only one carrying his memory on - but I'm doing a fine job of it! Think of him constantly still over two years on.

You should be proud! Moving is incredibly stressful and with an injury that's even harder. Well done you!

How are you doing? Moving is so stressful.