thank you for asking this, i appreciate knowing in advance 🙏😅

i’m happy you’re here too!!!

oh, that makes me really glad, then! i’m still so new, i didn’t know this was a communication tactic with precedence. 🙏💙

do you suppose they know?

yes!!!! i feel this very much

rapture ain’t never gonna come at this rate!! 😡

anyway, thanks for coming along on this journey of “zjo talks to herself” 😂

because i think there’s a lot of stuff i just don’t make, because i struggle to conceptualize that anyone would be interested in/care about it, and for me, that’s the point of creation - the interaction. i don’t like shouting into a void, and creating for myself isn’t fulfilling in the same way.

and, at least for me, it’s not a “don’t perceive me” thing; i very much want to be perceived, actually. it’s just that the internal expectation is that i *will not* be perceived, and then if or when i am, it throws me. and i think this affects me creatively, which is the part i actually care about?

just like… if you learn early on that what you say isn’t heard or valued, probably you either get real loud about it or you stop bothering to say much, no? and then if you do say things, it’s surprising and maybe scary if they get heard or responded to. it’s unexpected, it breaks the paradigm.

i set a goal this year of memorizing a poem a month, and that one was #2 on the list, lol. i just needed to be able to say it to myself at random moments, lol

omg that’s amazing 😂😂😂

could not agree more.

i also think
“were all stars to disappear and die
i should learn to look at an empty sky
and feel its total dark sublime…”
did things to my developing brain 😂

::shakes your hand in ‘second poem i ever memorized and i was like 9:: 🤝 excellent ⭐️

love auden. please tell me you know The More Loving One?

yay!!!! love that for you, bb 😘

i’d love to hear more, if you’re up for explaining!

if i ever show up without a hand, it’s 100% because i saw an opportunity and a jaguar at the same moment