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RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑

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Artist with stage 4 colon cancer. I also enjoy sewing, playing games, playing bass, singing, giant robots and monster movies. I probably shouldn't be on here after midnight.

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RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · Jan 12

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RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 8h

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Uncle Duke @uncleduke1969.bsky.social · 8h

your god can’t save you now

“hamburger Help me” is spray painted on a garage door

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RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 8h

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Elle @elleisanisland.bsky.social · 1d

I'm not sure you can get more marie antoinette than taking away food stamps before thanksgiving while you build a gold and marble dance hall so the other crooks can bring bribe you over a badly-cooked (argentinian) steak

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RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 12h

2/4 of my medical chores done. 1 is on the back burner till next week, the other I'm hoping to knock out online in a few minutes sometime before the end of today if I can.

RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 12h

I mostly agree with them but there are paywalls (books are only free at the library), fascist techbros have written and are mentioned in some books, and there's certainly misinformation. Books are still on the whole leaps and bounds better than most media these days.

Anon Opin @anonopin.bsky.social · 21h

Books. No cookie preferences. No cookies. No GDPR. No pop ups. No bots. No floating videos. No AI. No ads. No trackers. No misinformation. No fascist techbros. No distracting animations. No paywalls. No influencers. How good are these things? Books are frickin awesome

RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 1d

Now the shaking starts. Fantastic.

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RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 1d

Gonna just lie here and watch mindless stuff on YouTube and try not to let myself feel things right now. Because they are too much for chemo week.

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RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 1d

All the stuff building up, the nasty stuff in my apartment I can't do anything about, not being able to relax in the bath anymore, it's all just a reminder of what I've lost and how I can't even take care of myself. All these things are little but they're constant. I can't stop crying. I hate this.

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RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 1d

Didn't help that my "regular" nurse wasn't there again today. She was supposed to be back the first week of October, but nope, she's in triage this week. She did at least come out and see me; I haven't really gotten to talk to her in months. Oh and she's six months pregnant.

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RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 1d

I cried at chemo today, because honestly everything has been kind of awful lately and while I was explaining it it's like a dam broke. I don't feel *consciously* anxious when I'm there, but my blood pressure and pulse spike so bad! It's like everything just builds up and bursts there.

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RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 1d

Yeah we both had a solid nap. I'm tempted to go back to sleep but I don't wanna miss my daily stuff in Hello Kitty or my friends' streams tonight. My stomach feels weird and I'm really wobbly when I get up.

RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 1d

This. It's just so heartbreaking to see an iconic historical building being trashed and shrouded.

Chris Hayes @chrislhayes.bsky.social · 1d

It’s far from the most important thing, morally right now, or in terms of the human stakes, but the ballroom thing is really breaking my brain.

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RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 1d

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RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 1d

Third round of new chemo. I feel weird, and I genuinely want to just crash.

My friend who takes me tends to hang out for a little while after he drops me off, I guess just to make sure I'm okay. Half the time he ends up sleeping in my living room chair.

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RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 2d

He simply doesn't care. And he wants everyone to know how much he doesn't care.

RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 2d

I didn't expect to be so affected by the pictures of them tearing up the White House.

It makes me so angry and sad. It's like tearing down part of the Lincoln Memorial to add a bouncy castle that only rich people will ever be able to use.

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RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 2d

I went to sleep after 4 AM. I just woke up maybe half an hour ago. 5 ½ hours of sleep, interrupted by a FUCKING SPAM PHONE CALL

I'm very much awake, but I'm not happy about it. Tomorrow I'll have to be up this early anyway for chemo.

RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 3d

Me: I won't sleep any more
My computer: I have updates
Me: okay. *falls asleep before it's done*

That was six hours of sleep I didn't know I needed. I feel okay. Definitely need water though.

RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 3d

It is so bright and sunny, I'm awake. Not moving much, but awake. I got up and my stomach kinda cramped up immediately so I'm gonna just chill as much as I can today.

RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 3d

Welp. Pest control did wake me up, because they yell in the hallway before they go in to people's apartments, but they did not come in to mine.

I was still awake at like 3 AM, definitely tempted to sleep a little bit longer. Feeling very dehydrated and icky.

RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 4d

I just want to get a decent night's sleep without having to worry about people coming in my apartment for a couple of days. I have chemo this week and I have stuff I have to get done before that, and honestly I don't want to deal with any of it.

RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 4d

My insides are in a hurry to become outsides and the little bag I have stuck to my side has failed twice today. I'm really sick of it just failing and making a mess instead of me being able to just change it on a regular basis. Usually it'll give hints that it's going to fail as well. Not lately!

RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 4d

I'm so frustrated with the state of this apartment. I can't do any more.

Pest control is coming tomorrow and I'm gonna slap a note on my door that I'm sick and to not come in. Which isn't really untrue. My stomach is all kinds of mad at me for that chili.

The stuff they use doesn't do much anyway.

RoninQueen of the DAMNED 👑 @roninqueen.bsky.social · 4d

Made some chili and it's gooooood.

Little bit too much spice in it for total comfort, but it's still delicious. My nose was already runny anyway. 😁

I am gonna go eat a chalk tablet or two before bed though. Not trying to wake up with heartburn.