mentally, but I feel like we're almost trending the same way we did freshman year. At least it's better than last year I guess.

I guess I just wish someone at this GD school would do what they say they're going to for once.

Rant over 13/end

Nobody is doing what they said they would and I'm left without much support at school. Also we can no longer be on our phones during class so I've lost that support too. I feel like nobody is listening or doing what they say they will.

This year was supposed to be better than the last 2 12/?

a desk repeatedly without warning. Yes. An actual effing brick. Like, I get it not everything can be accommodated. But even a warning of hey, cover your ears, would've been sufficient.

I run a condensed schedule but I'm still feeling really overwhelmed. Shocker that my self-harm is relapsing. 11/?

with this eval too. I feel like all the specialists are just really bad at communication for some reason. Also, apparently someone forgot to tell my teachers that I can't handle abrupt loud noises b/c it's a trauma trigger. Or my physics teacher continuously forgets. Today he dropped a brick on 10/?

I'm scared to say anything because I don't really know her all that well. My social worker at South had said I would like her b/c they're very similar. I mean, they're both tall and female. But that's where the similarities end.

I'm just frustrated that nobody will tell me what is going on 9/?

extremely frustrating. Less so that she doesn't have time, and moreso that she's not doing what she said she would. I'm really big on communicating what your plans are with other people. When I don't know what's supposed to happen it makes me anxious.

I've been really struggling lately, but 8/?

that she was going to try and do a regular check in with me. We started school August 14th. I think including that first time I've spoken with her thrice. And she's never once checked in on me. Whenever I do speak with her she's always in too much of a hurry to even have a 10min convo. Which is 7/?

To add on to all this, at the beginning of the year I met my social worker at Haber. I was very up front with her in that I don't tend to speak up when I'm not doing well, I struggle to say anything, and I just resort to negative coping skills (eg. how my arm is currently sliced up). So she said 6/?

rumors has left and isn't working at Haber anymore so there's that. She never told me. So now I have to restart the entire process over and tell the story of the last year and how we came to an IEP eval all over again. Frustrating. Also I haven't heard anything from the new OT or the speech. 5/?

going ok. They are currently in the middle of evaluating me for an IEP.

In order to do the IEP eval, they need social work, OT, and speech to all do an eval. I already know my social worker at south, she's awesome. I trust she'll do the eval in time. The OT I was working with I suspect from 4/?

part time for whatever reason. Then they came back with the proposal that I would be at South (the normal school/upstairs) for choir, gym, and AP Physics 1 and then go to Haber (the alternative school/downstairs) until 2:30 afterwards to do the rest of my classes online. We accepted and it's 3/?

it is what it is and we're dealing with it.

Originally the plan for this year was to homeschool b/c when I left the last residential we were told that I shouldn't go back to regular school full time b/c it would make things worse, and the school wasn't gonna offer me to take a couple classes 2/?

Before I go to bed I need to post a quick rant on a situation at school.

So some background. Last year I was in school for less than 3 months the rest of the time I was in PHP/IP/Residential. I struggle with #self-harm and #bipolar1 and #PTSD and a #eatingdisorder. So basically I'm screwed. But 1/?

Took my #bipolar1 meds early so I can sleep.

As an aside, anyone with #POTS or #eds have tips for managing sleep deprivation? I'm gonna lose give or take an hour of sleep tonight and even more tomorrow night.

#chronicillness #hoco #highschool #bipolarsky #tired #sleepneeded

MD today “all pain is the same… kidney, bladder, knee, menstrual, back pain… There’s no distinction. It’s all the same and it’s in your head.”

I thought #DisabilitySky #MedSky would appreciate the FYI in case you or your patients haven’t tried “Willing away chronic illness” yet.

It's exhausting suffering from #Anxiety I seem to be in a constant state of anxiety at the moment

I'm both haha

I'm so exhausted. I have to go to school early tmr. Don't wanna. Means I have to be up an hour earlier than I was today to be at school over an hour earlier than I was today. Stress.

Also sleep deprivation won't help the mixed episode.

#hoco #peprally #choir #highschool #bipolarsky #bipolar1

My mental health acts up when the seasons change. Anyone else? I notice it most at the beginnings of fall and spring. There’s an external energy shift that’s reflected in my brain. It’s not necessarily negative, just noticeable.

#chronicillness #memes

Hey if you’re tempted to get super deep into doomscrolling news today, don’t. Have a snack, take a walk, pet a duck, start a lemur charity, plant onions in the garden or some shit I don’t fuckin know but don’t do that first one

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