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Ella B. (we/she/her)
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My body hurts and I’m mad at the government. #spoonie #chronicpain #chronicillness
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Dinner, because today was a shitty, shitty day and it’s all I can manage. I feel like I’m symbolically eating off my last Spoon.

#spoonie #chronicpain #chronicillness
Had an impossibly useless pain management appointment with my PCP.

I’m gonna go have a good cry about it now.

#spoonie #chronicpain #chronicillness
Wow. The White House and Federal Bureaus must be freaking out. My feed today is crammed full of their Fascists, racist bullshit posts.

#NOKINGS #NoKingsDay #trumpregime #fascism #AmericanFascism #authoritarianism #GangsterRegime #Kakistocracy #AmericanFascistParty #MAGA #ResistFascism
Welcome to our world. We have to fight for everything we ever get. That’s what happens when you have an under-insured populace and for-profit insurance companies.

#spoonie #chronicpain #chronicillness
I don’t think I’ve EVER been described that way. Like, really? I’m infectious in a GOOD way?

I owe a big shout out to psychiatric pharmacology for that one. And my therapist.
I joined our weekly PMO huddle and was chatting with people because we were all a little early. One of the PMs commented, “I love it when Ella joins a meeting. She just brings energy and joyful radiance with her and it’s infectious!”

I think it might be because I love my job. 😊
Worst part of a mammogram for me isn’t the squish. It’s the tearing of the under-boob skin from my chest wall as they manhandle my tits to get them on the plate.

Fucking masochists, I swear. I didn’t even get a sticker or sucker!

#spoonie #chronicpain #chronicillness #bigboobproblems #mammogram
Police car in Palm Springs. I’ve also seen pix from Orlando.

As you can imagine, MAGA is BIG MAD about it, which delights me to no end. 🥳

Suck it, MAGA.

#transrights #transrightsarehumanrights #translivesmatter #protecttransyouth #lgbtia #justsaygay
My nose is telling me that something surprised or scared Yard Skunk. 🦨
Successfully got my mammogram today. It took a lot longer seated but we got it done.

That device was most definitely designed by a man. My real question though is why the fuck hasn’t someone invented a better alternative? There must be other options out there!

#spoonie #chronicpain #chronicillness
I know (now) this is about emigration, but I initially thought it was advice to those thinking of un-aliving their selves.
Today’s least favorite thing? Unexpectedly being asked to present at a meeting 10 minutes before it starts. Second least favorite thing? Presenting from a deck someone else cobbled together.

*sigh*
Let’s honor Dr. Goodall by shooting all those fuckers into the Sun.
Dr. Jane Goodall filmed an interview with Netflix in March 2025 that she understood would only be released after her death.
Fire them all into the Sun.
If you'd asked me which celebrity would posthumously unveil a list of people she wanted fired into the sun, I would not have guessed Jane Goodall
Dr. Jane Goodall filmed an interview with Netflix in March 2025 that she understood would only be released after her death.
I’m due for a mammogram, so I scheduled it. I mentioned that I would need to be seated for it and they freaked out.

Seriously, people. This should not be a big deal. I’ve done it before at your facility.

Why is everything such a god damned ordeal?

#spoonie #chronicpain
My therapist thinks I should write my autobiography because I’ve had to deal with extensive trauma and — with lots of work — I’ve come out the other side as a fully functioning and relatively happy adult.

He thinks I have things to teach people.

I’m still thinking about it.
Having a day where I’m very sound-sensitive. My calendar is full of conference calls. This day is going to literally be painful.

Sometimes, my meatsack just needs a break.
My guy is a privacy freak. We switched over a while ago.
Yes. Probably as secure as you’re gonna get these days. Unless you’re Pete Hegseth.
A friend told me this is pretty much medical-speak and does not account for the pain I experienced.

I think that’s true, but fucking wrong.

Patient experience — including pain — needs to be part of the medical record.

Fuckers. 😡
After submitting a third set of forms, I got the hospital to amend my procedure report for the hip injection. They left“patient tolerated procedure well” and added a second note that says "pt tolerated procedure fairly." 🙄

#spoonie #chronicpain #chronicillness