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Leon Thomas @renegadecut.bsky.social · 9h

Easily one of the best YouTube videos of 2025. You are going to want to see this.

AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 8d

NEW VIDEO! I Saw the TV Glow: CRT Memories and Fuzzy Genders! Featuring music by @mollynoise.bsky.social, and featuring Molly, @leftatlondon.com, @alicebedard.bsky.social, @bugsmaytrix.bsky.social, @melodynosurname.bsky.social, @katelynburns.com, and @boundo.bsky.social. Enjoy!

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 9h

‪Could I have rushed it or made it less personal or not worked with an incredible composer and made a simple “here’s what you missed!” video essay, and got more hits? Sure.‬

‪But fuck that. I made the best goddamn video I could possibly make on I Saw the TV Glow. The BEST.‬

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 9h

‪So fuck it. Fuck being humble and feeling I have to earn an audience. The greatest films that inspire me were made for their own sake, and by people who trusted they could do it, they had something of value to say. I TRUST I just put up one of the best videos of the year.‬

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 9h

‪I’m tired of asking, hoping I get the right recognition. I know I’m talented…I know I’m good. People like what I’m doing. Fuck trying to appease algorithms. I make good shit and that’ll last through the years. That’s something I’m proud of. And I don’t need co-signs to know it.‬

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 9h

‪I’ve been sitting here worried about if growth will help me become a filmmaker one day, but in the end fuck it because I can’t control if people stay, but I can control what they see if they do. And if they see a goddamn good video, that’ll get me closer than a viral fluke.‬

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 9h

‪Basically what I realized is giving into self-hatred and accepting the system and blaming myself is exactly what giving up looks like. But in truth, I tried my hardest, I did the best I could, and my video is out and I’m proud of it. THAT is success, fuck the numbers.‬

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 10h

Not to be that person who vaguetweets lyrics but now that I’m feeling better after a short spiral, I am reminded of that line in Meteor Man where Lil Ugly Mane says “if life’s a fucking gift, why do these bastards make you pay for it?”

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 12h

Yeah, I’m not doing great tonight. Don’t know why, something just hit, I’m gonna be a bit quiet while I spiral, I know it’ll be temporary and I gotta not post everything I think in that time. Wishing you all well.

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 14h

I got it out as quickly as I could.

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 14h

In a way I wanted to push the medium of the video essay and push videos on films that maybe were left of center, be that video essayist film buffs may be waiting for. But I worry all I’ll ever be is a forgotten individual with “potential”

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 14h

And that’s all so frustrating, I want to be a creator full time, this is how I’m gaining the confidence to be a filmmaker. But making this all is a huge amount of work and I spend money to get it all right and it’s just sad to be stuck in place.

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 14h

I don’t know, I’m sorry for venting in public but like…a year ago I felt like I had a real shot at possibly making this as a career. I had just had my biggest hit in years, I was progressing on some of my more ambitious work. But it just is not working out this year.

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 14h

It was a great video too! On a topic that’s quite popular! I dunno it’s really discouraging…

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 14h

I want to complain but that’s life, I cannot make the algorithm pick up my channel and these last two videos, I’m already more successful than most even if I’m frustrated I can’t get this to be a job, but like…all I can do is try my best. And I feel like I’m doing that.

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 14h

‪The truth of the matter is I have no idea what drives my video traffic. I feel I’m only getting better and I’ve slimmed down output so every upload is a big video and there’s no in between shorts. And no, I can barely get my sub count in views on a video I worked so hard on. 🤷‍♀️‬

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 14h

‪Like I can at least understand some people are waiting on the I Saw the TV Glow video to watch the movies but…Top 10 had no spoilers, it was light and breezy. I’m kinda surprised how badly I’ve done when the Cults video and The Conformist video killed analytically.‬

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 14h

It has been one week and this video has already pretty much outperformed my Top 10 Films of 2024 video’s entire views in 6 months. And it’s still relatively underperforming for me.

Man that Top 10 of 2024 video shit the bed, what was it that repelled people?

AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 8d

NEW VIDEO! I Saw the TV Glow: CRT Memories and Fuzzy Genders! Featuring music by @mollynoise.bsky.social, and featuring Molly, @leftatlondon.com, @alicebedard.bsky.social, @bugsmaytrix.bsky.social, @melodynosurname.bsky.social, @katelynburns.com, and @boundo.bsky.social. Enjoy!

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 1d

‪“Emily, what’s your opinion on THIS?” My opinion is I don’t give a shit but if you financially incentivize me enough I can half ass pretending to believe whatever you want.‬

‪None of this matters, who cares, log off.‬

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 1d

My opinion on various internet discourses is being auctioned off to whoever can get my new video essay the most positive attention, go.

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 2d

I want to be a filmmaker because I have things I feel I need to say and I hope to god they’re half as meaningful to all of you as they are to me. This is, to me, the first presentation of who I could be as a filmmaker and storyteller. I hope it meant something to you all.

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 2d

I just wanted to make something that…I don’t know. I wanted to share a piece of myself, I wanted to take this movie I loved, and use it and analyze it and add to it in a way that showed my own artistic drive and voice. It felt like something I needed to say.

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 2d

I’m really happy people are enjoying the video. As you might’ve been able to tell…it was very personal. Truth be told it’s only half the story, I’m still dealing with the mental scars left behind by the experiences I describe, the self hatred, the fear of rejection.

AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 8d

NEW VIDEO! I Saw the TV Glow: CRT Memories and Fuzzy Genders! Featuring music by @mollynoise.bsky.social, and featuring Molly, @leftatlondon.com, @alicebedard.bsky.social, @bugsmaytrix.bsky.social, @melodynosurname.bsky.social, @katelynburns.com, and @boundo.bsky.social. Enjoy!

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I Saw the TV Glow: CRT Memories and Fuzzy Genders | AdequateEmily

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onion person @junlper.beer · 2d

if the democratic party starts stepping away trans people they might as well sign this country away to the far right forever

LGBTQ Nation @lgbtqnation.com · 2d

Gavin Newsom vetoes gender education bill, declines to sign other trans protections - buff.ly/MTUAV85

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 2d

Yes but also every other entry in the franchise are technically each separate continuities which also hurts my brain in a way.

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AdequateEmily @adequateemily.bsky.social · 2d

Like I feel like I barely know Motoko Kusanagi’s full emotional state, like I had parts of it but that her meeting in the finale had far more meaning than I had read into it while watching, thus feeling detached.

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