Tor
@bittertea.bsky.social
Writer, zinester, library worker in Portland. Ex-evangelical abuse survivor. Bigender trans weirdo (they/them)
zines: bitterteahymnal.gumroad.com
website: torlowell.neocities.org
blog: thewrongkindoftestimony.neocities.org
zines: bitterteahymnal.gumroad.com
website: torlowell.neocities.org
blog: thewrongkindoftestimony.neocities.org
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Tor
@bittertea.bsky.social
· Nov 15
Hi bsky, you should follow me if you like rambly posts and zines about abuse/survivor issues, the trauma of growing up in evangelical christianity, & being genderweird & gay
i think landlords shouldn’t exist, housing should depreciate and if you build a tiny shoebox to shove humans into, you should be capped as to how much you can sell it for. i think we can create policies that -make- home buying & selling not lucrative & i want the focus to be on that.
January 27, 2026 at 8:13 PM
i think landlords shouldn’t exist, housing should depreciate and if you build a tiny shoebox to shove humans into, you should be capped as to how much you can sell it for. i think we can create policies that -make- home buying & selling not lucrative & i want the focus to be on that.
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at a zine fest once someone picked up one of my zines, flipped through it, hurriedly put it back and then told a friend ‘sometimes i pick up a zine expecting pictures & then its words’ so now i feel self-conscious all the time writing zines like, oh okay, but maybe people aren’t looking for words ig
January 27, 2026 at 1:34 AM
at a zine fest once someone picked up one of my zines, flipped through it, hurriedly put it back and then told a friend ‘sometimes i pick up a zine expecting pictures & then its words’ so now i feel self-conscious all the time writing zines like, oh okay, but maybe people aren’t looking for words ig
believing humans are not a part of nature and obligated to be coexistant with nature, but instead that “nature” is over there (and a thing that we drive to in order to access) and that it is baffling and absurd to care about plant and animal life within “people” borders is way too common
January 26, 2026 at 6:48 PM
believing humans are not a part of nature and obligated to be coexistant with nature, but instead that “nature” is over there (and a thing that we drive to in order to access) and that it is baffling and absurd to care about plant and animal life within “people” borders is way too common
anyway i gotta eat breakfast and walk to the gym
January 26, 2026 at 6:31 PM
anyway i gotta eat breakfast and walk to the gym
i should actually write a proper anti-car zine because cars are the hypocrisy of the climate-conscious left. they are one of the worst things for the environment and tire dust one of the biggest causes of microplastics & you can’t talk abt it bc no one is willing to even cut down on their driving
January 26, 2026 at 6:22 PM
i should actually write a proper anti-car zine because cars are the hypocrisy of the climate-conscious left. they are one of the worst things for the environment and tire dust one of the biggest causes of microplastics & you can’t talk abt it bc no one is willing to even cut down on their driving
progressive voice: i looove developers. that park could be housing. that community garden could be housing. everything could be housing. sparing one tree would impede a small amt of housing which is worse for the climate. yes i drive everywhere. yes i don’t think we need trees bc i drive everywhere
January 26, 2026 at 5:51 PM
progressive voice: i looove developers. that park could be housing. that community garden could be housing. everything could be housing. sparing one tree would impede a small amt of housing which is worse for the climate. yes i drive everywhere. yes i don’t think we need trees bc i drive everywhere
sorry i woke up with abject despair settled into my bones so i’m politics rambling to avoid acting on my despair
January 26, 2026 at 5:05 PM
sorry i woke up with abject despair settled into my bones so i’m politics rambling to avoid acting on my despair
conservative christianity taught me to view people in a very specific and dehumanizing ways and rejecting it means i refuse to think about people in that way anymore and i despair whenever it feels like liberal/leftist ideals are utilizing that underlying perspective.
January 26, 2026 at 5:03 PM
conservative christianity taught me to view people in a very specific and dehumanizing ways and rejecting it means i refuse to think about people in that way anymore and i despair whenever it feels like liberal/leftist ideals are utilizing that underlying perspective.
my spiciest political take is that sometimes it think the difference between the right and the left is the outcome they want on issues whose perspectives they largely agree with. they still see the world through the same lens, just with different answers to solving it.
January 26, 2026 at 4:47 PM
my spiciest political take is that sometimes it think the difference between the right and the left is the outcome they want on issues whose perspectives they largely agree with. they still see the world through the same lens, just with different answers to solving it.
this isn’t in the zine bc it’s just a mini, but i do feel like a lot of progressive rhetoric about climate change looks at people like the are a single mass of a problem. if we put everyone in tiny shoeboxes on a treeless street, numbers-wise that’s better for the climate sooooo….progressive!
January 26, 2026 at 4:21 PM
this isn’t in the zine bc it’s just a mini, but i do feel like a lot of progressive rhetoric about climate change looks at people like the are a single mass of a problem. if we put everyone in tiny shoeboxes on a treeless street, numbers-wise that’s better for the climate sooooo….progressive!
writing a zine about things in my heart
January 26, 2026 at 5:38 AM
writing a zine about things in my heart
The grossest basement carpet you ever did see
January 25, 2026 at 2:35 AM
The grossest basement carpet you ever did see
because i cannot believe that good things are real i have been obsessing about EVERYTHING about this house, everything that could go wrong, but we finally finished the last of the water intrusion issue so i made myself stand in the basement and god it is actually a really cool space
January 24, 2026 at 1:18 AM
because i cannot believe that good things are real i have been obsessing about EVERYTHING about this house, everything that could go wrong, but we finally finished the last of the water intrusion issue so i made myself stand in the basement and god it is actually a really cool space
me @ the girlf: i would call your legs like columns
me @ the girlf: and do you think…my breasts are like two fawns?
me @ the girlf: for the purposes of this convo I’ll be the “he”
the girlf: yes, but they’re very *manly* deer
me @ the girlf: and do you think…my breasts are like two fawns?
me @ the girlf: for the purposes of this convo I’ll be the “he”
the girlf: yes, but they’re very *manly* deer
January 24, 2026 at 12:32 AM
me @ the girlf: i would call your legs like columns
me @ the girlf: and do you think…my breasts are like two fawns?
me @ the girlf: for the purposes of this convo I’ll be the “he”
the girlf: yes, but they’re very *manly* deer
me @ the girlf: and do you think…my breasts are like two fawns?
me @ the girlf: for the purposes of this convo I’ll be the “he”
the girlf: yes, but they’re very *manly* deer
nabbed this carhartt backpack for disgustingly cheap from a thrift store and i don’t think it’s ever been used so i already had to put pins on it and gay it up even more
January 23, 2026 at 9:45 PM
nabbed this carhartt backpack for disgustingly cheap from a thrift store and i don’t think it’s ever been used so i already had to put pins on it and gay it up even more
vintage homophobic literature had no IDEA the kinds of buttons I would be making out of what they wrote
January 23, 2026 at 7:36 PM
vintage homophobic literature had no IDEA the kinds of buttons I would be making out of what they wrote
love (sarcasm) how the only curtain options for our kitchen window are black out make everything dark or sheer gauzy, “this doesn’t really count as a curtain more just decoration overlaying the sight of the inside of your house” and there is no in between
January 23, 2026 at 1:48 AM
love (sarcasm) how the only curtain options for our kitchen window are black out make everything dark or sheer gauzy, “this doesn’t really count as a curtain more just decoration overlaying the sight of the inside of your house” and there is no in between
need cis women to understand that when they hurriedly attempted to make some book they wrote that was specifically about cis women be “inclusive” they are usually very bad at it and it shows.
January 22, 2026 at 7:15 AM
need cis women to understand that when they hurriedly attempted to make some book they wrote that was specifically about cis women be “inclusive” they are usually very bad at it and it shows.
need someone to love me like i’m a skittish and feral creature until the panic in my brain calms down
January 22, 2026 at 3:54 AM
need someone to love me like i’m a skittish and feral creature until the panic in my brain calms down
Sometimes feels like there is a comfort for some trans people to imagine that their experiences on hormones are universal, that testosterone and estrogen are Male and Female experiences that are always deeply alienating to me as a genderfuck weirdo feminist
January 22, 2026 at 12:08 AM
Sometimes feels like there is a comfort for some trans people to imagine that their experiences on hormones are universal, that testosterone and estrogen are Male and Female experiences that are always deeply alienating to me as a genderfuck weirdo feminist
I can't calm my fucking brain down
January 21, 2026 at 10:21 PM
I can't calm my fucking brain down
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Could've used a cry room today
you know you work in a library when your supervisor tells you the storage closet makes a great cry room
at another library i work at we’re fancy enough to have a DEDICATED “i’m having a breakdown” room
at another library i work at we’re fancy enough to have a DEDICATED “i’m having a breakdown” room
January 21, 2026 at 3:42 AM
Could've used a cry room today