Tor
@bittertea.bsky.social
Writer, zinester, library worker in Portland. Ex-evangelical abuse survivor. Bigender trans weirdo (they/them)
zines: bitterteahymnal.gumroad.com
website: torlowell.neocities.org
blog: thewrongkindoftestimony.neocities.org
zines: bitterteahymnal.gumroad.com
website: torlowell.neocities.org
blog: thewrongkindoftestimony.neocities.org
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Tor
@bittertea.bsky.social
· Nov 15
Hi bsky, you should follow me if you like rambly posts and zines about abuse/survivor issues, the trauma of growing up in evangelical christianity, & being genderweird & gay
Giant cup of tea kind of day
January 5, 2026 at 10:11 PM
Giant cup of tea kind of day
You'll be on the outskirts of a social space and then you'll actually peek under the hood and it's like, oh I didn't know the people you think of as the movers and shakers of your space actually just put right out there that they're self-important assholes who think they're better than everyone else
January 5, 2026 at 8:33 PM
You'll be on the outskirts of a social space and then you'll actually peek under the hood and it's like, oh I didn't know the people you think of as the movers and shakers of your space actually just put right out there that they're self-important assholes who think they're better than everyone else
i feel like if the software for an electronic thing requires me to know what model I have, then the model number should be written on the thing itself
January 5, 2026 at 4:51 AM
i feel like if the software for an electronic thing requires me to know what model I have, then the model number should be written on the thing itself
Reading upstairs, watching the sunset
January 5, 2026 at 12:31 AM
Reading upstairs, watching the sunset
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how is it the first week of the year and i already have too much to read
January 4, 2026 at 10:06 PM
how is it the first week of the year and i already have too much to read
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was finishing up a zine about my mother and also accidentally bought something & sent it to the old address (it’s fine, I set up forwarding with usps but now i’m ruminating) & now i’m thinking about how much she loved to push panic buttons for me. every mistake was DIRE every misstep THE WORST THING
January 4, 2026 at 6:18 AM
was finishing up a zine about my mother and also accidentally bought something & sent it to the old address (it’s fine, I set up forwarding with usps but now i’m ruminating) & now i’m thinking about how much she loved to push panic buttons for me. every mistake was DIRE every misstep THE WORST THING
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Idk why this is a thing that I have to calligraphy just all the time
January 1, 2026 at 11:32 PM
Idk why this is a thing that I have to calligraphy just all the time
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What if none of these things is a distraction from the other things and instead they're all just horrible things
January 3, 2026 at 8:03 PM
What if none of these things is a distraction from the other things and instead they're all just horrible things
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*tour guide voice*
And here you will see the natural habitat of the artist
And here you will see the natural habitat of the artist
January 3, 2026 at 6:30 PM
*tour guide voice*
And here you will see the natural habitat of the artist
And here you will see the natural habitat of the artist
I was wondering where I got these callouses on my hands lately, like it can’t be library work suddenly giving me callouses and then I went to the gym and it clicked
I have kettlebell callouses
I have kettlebell callouses
January 3, 2026 at 7:04 PM
I was wondering where I got these callouses on my hands lately, like it can’t be library work suddenly giving me callouses and then I went to the gym and it clicked
I have kettlebell callouses
I have kettlebell callouses
how do i do everything i want this year
January 3, 2026 at 4:33 AM
how do i do everything i want this year
Zine making at the table we finally got for our nook
January 3, 2026 at 12:30 AM
Zine making at the table we finally got for our nook
adhd-er enticed by the new year to make a thousand goals and hopes and dreams for the coming year and then attempt to accomplish them all on the first day lest i FAIL
January 2, 2026 at 4:19 AM
adhd-er enticed by the new year to make a thousand goals and hopes and dreams for the coming year and then attempt to accomplish them all on the first day lest i FAIL
Idk why this is a thing that I have to calligraphy just all the time
January 1, 2026 at 11:32 PM
Idk why this is a thing that I have to calligraphy just all the time
factory resetting my phone did work, i sobbed an awful lot, i now have it set up so that my photos do back up without me having to intentionally proactively do it, and now my 2026 goal is to take even more photos of absolutely fucking everything to make up for it
January 1, 2026 at 9:07 PM
factory resetting my phone did work, i sobbed an awful lot, i now have it set up so that my photos do back up without me having to intentionally proactively do it, and now my 2026 goal is to take even more photos of absolutely fucking everything to make up for it
witnessed the most heterosexual man at the grocery store
his…gf? wife?: did you get the milk?
Heterosexual Man: *pause* uh……they don’t have any
her: they don’t have *milk*?
his…gf? wife?: did you get the milk?
Heterosexual Man: *pause* uh……they don’t have any
her: they don’t have *milk*?
January 1, 2026 at 6:51 AM
witnessed the most heterosexual man at the grocery store
his…gf? wife?: did you get the milk?
Heterosexual Man: *pause* uh……they don’t have any
her: they don’t have *milk*?
his…gf? wife?: did you get the milk?
Heterosexual Man: *pause* uh……they don’t have any
her: they don’t have *milk*?
nah, there’s no salvaging this
goodbye large swaths of two years of photos
goodbye large swaths of two years of photos
guess whose adhd means they were bad about backing up their photos on their phone
guess whose phone got into such a weird broken bad cant boot state in a way repair ppl don’t even know what the fuck is happening
guess whose phone got into such a weird broken bad cant boot state in a way repair ppl don’t even know what the fuck is happening
December 31, 2025 at 5:48 PM
nah, there’s no salvaging this
goodbye large swaths of two years of photos
goodbye large swaths of two years of photos
guess whose adhd means they were bad about backing up their photos on their phone
guess whose phone got into such a weird broken bad cant boot state in a way repair ppl don’t even know what the fuck is happening
guess whose phone got into such a weird broken bad cant boot state in a way repair ppl don’t even know what the fuck is happening
December 31, 2025 at 3:49 AM
guess whose adhd means they were bad about backing up their photos on their phone
guess whose phone got into such a weird broken bad cant boot state in a way repair ppl don’t even know what the fuck is happening
guess whose phone got into such a weird broken bad cant boot state in a way repair ppl don’t even know what the fuck is happening
god real
December 30, 2025 at 11:03 PM
god real
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December 30, 2025 at 6:45 PM
Fascinated by the implication that martial rape, rape being "ruinous" to the victim, and the cultural belief that your body belongs to your husband are framed as so historical it's like it existed in a different time, happening to people who no longer exist to tell us what they thought or felt
A common assumption is that throughout history, people have experienced the same basic range of emotions. A radical field of history now challenges this assumption, Gal Beckerman reports. theatln.tc/KD2QRX9Y
🎨: Nicolás Ortega
🎨: Nicolás Ortega
December 29, 2025 at 10:50 PM
Fascinated by the implication that martial rape, rape being "ruinous" to the victim, and the cultural belief that your body belongs to your husband are framed as so historical it's like it existed in a different time, happening to people who no longer exist to tell us what they thought or felt