dennillbeback
@dennillbeback.bsky.social
den, he/his, 30, intj 4w5 sp || ENG/RUS || ficwriter on AO3 (alnst ivantill slowburn, "The dancing flame"); math tutor and composer
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October 6, 2025 at 10:31 AM
September 30, 2025 at 9:15 AM
I went to the city to meet up with my friend yesterday.
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August 26, 2025 at 7:03 AM
I went to the city to meet up with my friend yesterday.
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hate having this overwhelming feeling of being dissatisfied with a lot of things in my life rn despite being in a better position compared to this time last year
August 26, 2025 at 1:48 AM
hate having this overwhelming feeling of being dissatisfied with a lot of things in my life rn despite being in a better position compared to this time last year
It's still hard enough to sit for a long time, so I only draw... It seems that this will be the second full-fledged illustration to my TDF, if I'll be lucky enough. huh.
August 25, 2025 at 11:03 AM
It's still hard enough to sit for a long time, so I only draw... It seems that this will be the second full-fledged illustration to my TDF, if I'll be lucky enough. huh.
🚩What's your "artist red flag"?🚩
- dream about arts I never make
- creativity is WORK (but no one pays for it)
- feeling guilty about everything
- won't give up bc that's for the weak
- won't finish bc I don't have the strength
- float between ideas and areas
- easy start, finish from the grave
- dream about arts I never make
- creativity is WORK (but no one pays for it)
- feeling guilty about everything
- won't give up bc that's for the weak
- won't finish bc I don't have the strength
- float between ideas and areas
- easy start, finish from the grave
🚩What's your "artist red flag"?🚩
-I start drawing from an eye, hoping I get the angle right on the first try (I never do)
-I have never learned my basic fundamentals even after 15+ years
-I over-rely on mesh deform now
-I cannot effectively draw 2 characters physically interacting
-and many more
-I start drawing from an eye, hoping I get the angle right on the first try (I never do)
-I have never learned my basic fundamentals even after 15+ years
-I over-rely on mesh deform now
-I cannot effectively draw 2 characters physically interacting
-and many more
🚩What's your "artist red flag"?🚩
I have a few:
- Doesnt have a definitive style
- Cant stand traditional step by step (sketch, line, color, shade)
- Never finishes
- Hates the process only the result
- I don't enjoy drawing either
- 12 year long burnout
I have a few:
- Doesnt have a definitive style
- Cant stand traditional step by step (sketch, line, color, shade)
- Never finishes
- Hates the process only the result
- I don't enjoy drawing either
- 12 year long burnout
August 25, 2025 at 10:57 AM
🚩What's your "artist red flag"?🚩
- dream about arts I never make
- creativity is WORK (but no one pays for it)
- feeling guilty about everything
- won't give up bc that's for the weak
- won't finish bc I don't have the strength
- float between ideas and areas
- easy start, finish from the grave
- dream about arts I never make
- creativity is WORK (but no one pays for it)
- feeling guilty about everything
- won't give up bc that's for the weak
- won't finish bc I don't have the strength
- float between ideas and areas
- easy start, finish from the grave
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I've got a merch collab with Catharsis! come scream with us 😎
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August 21, 2025 at 3:01 PM
I've got a merch collab with Catharsis! come scream with us 😎
catharsisyt.store/collections/...
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Finally, I crawl out of bronchitis. But I still don't have much energy and I'm very annoyed that I don't work as much as I want.
August 21, 2025 at 3:21 PM
Finally, I crawl out of bronchitis. But I still don't have much energy and I'm very annoyed that I don't work as much as I want.
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I'll say it once and I'll say it again. If you think artists are just "naturally talented", you're deeply wrong. The only difference between you and us is that we kept trying when it didn't come out like we hoped.
You can always make art yourself. There's no bad time to start, you can start now.
You can always make art yourself. There's no bad time to start, you can start now.
August 17, 2025 at 3:02 PM
I'll say it once and I'll say it again. If you think artists are just "naturally talented", you're deeply wrong. The only difference between you and us is that we kept trying when it didn't come out like we hoped.
You can always make art yourself. There's no bad time to start, you can start now.
You can always make art yourself. There's no bad time to start, you can start now.
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hello hello! LOSSIER is now purchasable (and streamable)! 🙂↕️👌 thank y'all for showing this song a lotta love! 🫡👊❤️🔥
ippotsk.bandcamp.com/album/lossier
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ippotsk.bandcamp.com/album/lossier
ampwall.com/a/ippotsk/al...
LOSSIER, by ippo.tsk
2 track album
ippotsk.bandcamp.com
August 3, 2025 at 5:57 PM
hello hello! LOSSIER is now purchasable (and streamable)! 🙂↕️👌 thank y'all for showing this song a lotta love! 🫡👊❤️🔥
ippotsk.bandcamp.com/album/lossier
ampwall.com/a/ippotsk/al...
ippotsk.bandcamp.com/album/lossier
ampwall.com/a/ippotsk/al...
jul 2024 - jul 2025 haha
August 1, 2025 at 6:18 AM
jul 2024 - jul 2025 haha
I never blame people, but envy quickly turns into self-torture, telling myself that I should work harder, even if I can't and we just work differently in different circumstances. I have become more resilient and break down less under the weight of such feelings, but they are still there.
its hard to see someone get effortless praise for something ive been doing for a long time in a way thats similar that ive only done that way because i cant push harder to do better because of my fatigue and doing it in that way set me back behind my peers
August 1, 2025 at 5:28 AM
I never blame people, but envy quickly turns into self-torture, telling myself that I should work harder, even if I can't and we just work differently in different circumstances. I have become more resilient and break down less under the weight of such feelings, but they are still there.
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Twitter is now 75% bot activity. The dead internet theory aint a theory anymore.
July 31, 2025 at 8:00 PM
Twitter is now 75% bot activity. The dead internet theory aint a theory anymore.
Headphones are dead again, so I'm surviving by humming the entire latest @ippotsk.bsky.social album on repeat lmao
July 30, 2025 at 3:07 PM
Headphones are dead again, so I'm surviving by humming the entire latest @ippotsk.bsky.social album on repeat lmao
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Magnitude : 8.8
Region: *Off East Coast of Kamchatka*
Time: 2025-07-29 23:24:52 UTC
Epicenter : 160.10°E 52.55°N
Depth: 21 km
*First posted at: 23:34 UTC*
https://geofon.gfz-potsdam.de/eqexplorer/events/gfz2025otqm/general
##GEOFON ##GFZ ##earthquake ##magnitude
Region: *Off East Coast of Kamchatka*
Time: 2025-07-29 23:24:52 UTC
Epicenter : 160.10°E 52.55°N
Depth: 21 km
*First posted at: 23:34 UTC*
https://geofon.gfz-potsdam.de/eqexplorer/events/gfz2025otqm/general
##GEOFON ##GFZ ##earthquake ##magnitude
July 30, 2025 at 11:46 AM
Magnitude : 8.8
Region: *Off East Coast of Kamchatka*
Time: 2025-07-29 23:24:52 UTC
Epicenter : 160.10°E 52.55°N
Depth: 21 km
*First posted at: 23:34 UTC*
https://geofon.gfz-potsdam.de/eqexplorer/events/gfz2025otqm/general
##GEOFON ##GFZ ##earthquake ##magnitude
Region: *Off East Coast of Kamchatka*
Time: 2025-07-29 23:24:52 UTC
Epicenter : 160.10°E 52.55°N
Depth: 21 km
*First posted at: 23:34 UTC*
https://geofon.gfz-potsdam.de/eqexplorer/events/gfz2025otqm/general
##GEOFON ##GFZ ##earthquake ##magnitude
In general, it's still too hot to WORK HARD, and in all areas of my interest now it is necessary to work on willpower.
July 30, 2025 at 11:35 AM
In general, it's still too hot to WORK HARD, and in all areas of my interest now it is necessary to work on willpower.
Finding references is still an inaccessible mystery to me. Like, my maximum is to find something like "the flame illuminates from the bottom up", thank you very much, I understand this anyway.
Probably, I should still take a course in color theory or something like that.
Probably, I should still take a course in color theory or something like that.
July 30, 2025 at 11:28 AM
Finding references is still an inaccessible mystery to me. Like, my maximum is to find something like "the flame illuminates from the bottom up", thank you very much, I understand this anyway.
Probably, I should still take a course in color theory or something like that.
Probably, I should still take a course in color theory or something like that.
In desperation, I play electrician, trying to fix the headphones 😢
July 24, 2025 at 5:04 PM
In desperation, I play electrician, trying to fix the headphones 😢
In the end, I decided to really work on "Spring wind spirit" first. This piece of mine is just a little more complicated than "Septims", I will have to work on the dynamics and articulation of the flute, but this is not polyphony for you
July 23, 2025 at 10:59 AM
In the end, I decided to really work on "Spring wind spirit" first. This piece of mine is just a little more complicated than "Septims", I will have to work on the dynamics and articulation of the flute, but this is not polyphony for you
I tried to systematize all my hanging projects and affairs. My face gradually stretches into a mask of horror.
July 22, 2025 at 8:47 PM
I tried to systematize all my hanging projects and affairs. My face gradually stretches into a mask of horror.
@mikitanii.bsky.social wrote me the first review on NGs, now I've been crying all night in my mind THANKS 😭✨
July 22, 2025 at 8:44 PM
@mikitanii.bsky.social wrote me the first review on NGs, now I've been crying all night in my mind THANKS 😭✨
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I convince myself that doing everything in moderation is the key to sustaining a balance in my overall happiness but it really just feels like I continuously jump between one extreme end to the other and that's the only way I know how to live my life.
July 22, 2025 at 5:34 PM
I convince myself that doing everything in moderation is the key to sustaining a balance in my overall happiness but it really just feels like I continuously jump between one extreme end to the other and that's the only way I know how to live my life.
Whenever I feel maximally tired after a burst of contained rage, I turn on Key Ingredient by Mili and after three or four listens to the album, it feels better.
July 22, 2025 at 6:30 PM
Whenever I feel maximally tired after a burst of contained rage, I turn on Key Ingredient by Mili and after three or four listens to the album, it feels better.
A universal phrase of my life: Things to do today are over, it's time to work 😅
I'm not sure, though, what exactly I should do
I'm not sure, though, what exactly I should do
July 22, 2025 at 4:59 PM
A universal phrase of my life: Things to do today are over, it's time to work 😅
I'm not sure, though, what exactly I should do
I'm not sure, though, what exactly I should do